Welcome, you are listening to Every Song. A series where I play songs I’ve written throughout the years and share the stories behind them.
The first song today is called Solution - Conclusions. I wrote this on the 7th of March 2007.
070307 Solution - Conclusions
Once again I failTo hide but you can tellThat I’ve outdone myselfWith bidding you farewellOh sure you want to hearThe reasons why but I fearThat you won’t understandThis isn’t what I planned
Tell me what’s enoughIf it’s enough to love youTell me what it takesFor you to give me a breakTell me what to doWithout making me look like a foolGive me a solutionCome on baby let’s not jump to conclusions
I woke up thinkingI’ve had enough dreamingAbout you and me togetherIn my headIt was mid-November againAnd we were staring at the skiWondering how long we would last
Here’s another one I wrote during Covid lockdown. I’m pretty sure this was during the first wave of lockdowns here in Aotearoa.
It’s quite an introspective, raw, honest song for me. Recall, it was a time when we were just locked up inside the house and it forced me to reflect a little bit about myself. It’s not the most polished song that I have whatsoever, it’s just one that I wrote during a very tender time for me and, I guess, the world.
This song is called Pretty Girl, written on the 21st of May 2020.
200521 Pretty Girl
I get away with a lotBecause I’m a pretty girlAnd I always get thingsI don’t necessarily deserve
But when I was youngI had to learn how to be funnyCause I wasn’t lovedI was an immigrant and chubbyMade the boys laughMade my mama cryI just wanted to fit in
But nowI get away with a lotBecause I’m a pretty girlAnd I always get thingsI don’t necessarily deserveSlowly I’m becomingThe woman I think I’m supposed to beNo longer wanna be a pretty girlWanna be a human first
I stopped eating whenI was 10I wanted to be thinI wanted friendsWho were cool and lived in sinI started to changeJust ignored the painDidn’t know who I became
What a shameSuch a beautiful faceWith an ugly mindWhat a shameSuch a beautiful faceWith an ugly life
Thank you for listening to episode 37 of Every Song. Until next time.
