Greetings, bonjour, what’s happening?
This is episode 100 of the Lager Time podcast. Mate, 100. A oner. A ton. A double-bullseye.
Listen. If you’ve ever listened, read, once or twice, or more, subscribed, unsubscribed, shared, thought it was rubbish or thought it was ok; commented, mentioned it to me that you checked it on Spotify; thankyou.
I started this thing back in October 2021. I wasn’t performing much anymore and had a whole bunch of stuff that I didn’t know what to do with. Never felt like it fitted in with what I was doing. In fact, I never felt like I fitted in, me and stuff; anywhere. I also had years of frustrations of having no outlet for most things that I wrote. It was just me and my bedroom.
So after the madness of the pandemic; I’d been messing with music production again and looking into training in voiceover work; which I could do from home. And I was still writing. So with no where to go, a little know-how with the audio; I did this. And somehow, by hook or by crook; I’ve kept it going.
It’s been: inconsistent, scrappy, the audio quality has varied, lazy, experimental, ambitious, surprisingly good, sometimes rubbish, a bit nuts, full of mistakes, embarrassing, anxious, aimless, repetitive, pointless, pointed, jagged, circular; all of those; mate.
The more I think about it, the more it’s quite symbolic of me as a person; flaws and all. And whilst I wish it wasn’t like that, that’s what it is. And I have tried to improve what I do; as futile as that’s sometimes been.
But here it is, mate. 100 episodes. A bunch of poems, stories, thoughts and music. Some of which have gone on to become other things; some just sitting there. But they’re there, they’ve been created. So who knows. It’s bolstered the armoury and as ineffective, quiet and insignificant as bang might be on the weapon; it’s let the world know I’m here, should they casually choose to listen.
Sometimes I see this impulse to create things as a bit of an affliction but I’d lying if I said this is not what I want to do, and that I don’t get excited, anytime a new idea pops up in that busy street market of a head that sits awkwardly on my body. Sometimes I get a bit embarrassed about doing it or feel guilty for doing it, when I could be doing other, more useful things but I can’t switch that impulse off. This is what I do, mate.
So large up to the Lager-Lites, ordinary people and all my fellow writers, rappers, poets, painters, sculptors, beat-makers – what else are we gonna do eh?
Thankyou for inspiring me.
Peas and Taters, Paul
This episode will feature the final chapter of the Way of the Kip story.
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