I’m sure some of you have been reading, listening or watching what I have been posting for a while now.
Today is an interesting day and I’m going to share a part of myself that I don’t normally talk about, let alone put it out there. I feel it is a good day to be said.
Veteran’s Day… and I am a veteran. I never liked to put that out there because of the traumatic experiences I dealt with while in the military. Please note that I was not in any war situation, but I was involved in the deployment process, sending lives out to fight for this country and that was very trying. Some of those lives who came home are homeless, desperately looking for assistance and not finding it. Some of them never came back.
For those that made it back, these men and women are in a totally different space than they were when they left. I know. I’ve seen it.
My father served in Vietnam.
For those of you that are seeing this, there are places out there that help, and my hope is that if you who are in this situation, that you reach out. The help is available. A lot of civilian groups are popping up to help such as those groups that do yoga for warriors, which is fantastic.
I say, go find them. Don’t try to do this alone. Alone doesn’t work, I’ve been there on my healing journey.
For me, five out of the eight years of being in the Army, I was in a situation of being sexually harassed through comments and advances towards me. I honor myself and anyone who has gone through this. It is not a good feeling. It becomes part of Complex PTSD.
And on this day, I want to say that from the trauma I went through as a child and as an adult, I went through 30 years of healing from that.
Complex PTSD, for those of you who don’t know, is a little different from PTSD. Both are from trauma experienced, both can cause depression, anxiety, fear, among many other tough to deal with feelings and sometimes will cause suicidal ideation or suicide in many cases.
Where PTSD causes visual, auditory, basically physical flashbacks and reactions to the trauma, Complex PTSD can ride alone as emotional flashbacks from childhood and adult trauma or be part of PTSD as it is an accumulation of the emotions stored inside our bodies from any type of trauma.
There was a time in my early 20’s where I went through suicidal ideation and somehow made the decision not to do anything about it.
The culmination of that story is this new chapter, The Ride of My Life.
I went through a lot while healing and it took a long time. I am working with others now because I have learned how to condense that time frame into shorter lengths, depending on what someone is going through. I’ve found ways to get it down to 6-weeks to 3 months and I am blown away by that.
I wish it hadn’t taken me this long and at the same time, I guess it was meant to be that way, so I’ve got it down pat. LOL
I am grateful to have gone through what I did, and I went through a lot, so I can do this now.
I feel I am on this planet, in whatever capacity shows up for me, to guide others past what may be holding them back to transform their lives. I feel it in my bones and I’m very passionate and care that as many people as I can assist, don’t have to continue to go through what I went through.
I help people who are stuck at a point and ready to go deeper into clearing all of that “stuff” through grief, inner child and generational trauma work.
What does this have to do with getting in my car and going out on the road?
That is part of this because it is something I have wanted to do my whole life and I held myself back from all of the fears I’ve had.
I am doing it now and I am bringing all of you along with me. I don’t know what this ride will look like, but I can tell you this.
It is for anyone who has ever experienced trauma in any capacity. It is for anyone who has ever felt alone or lonely. It is for anyone who has ever been afraid. It is for anyone who has ever been stuck in their life, thinking there was nothing that could be done and that it was their fate.
I am here to say it is not. I have been through or thought about all of these things and more.
Whatever ambitions and goals you may have in life, this is what will help you clear and heal that.
If you happen to be interested in working with me in breaking through, let me know.
I will say this… the work is not easy or for the faint at heart. It is powerful and it got me here (or I wouldn’t be doing this) and I keep moving forward and getting unstuck.
Maybe I will see you out on the road as I go on this journey!
Thank you for being here on this Ride of My Life!
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