You know those early days when your little body held big anger?
I just knew I was vengeful for something incredibly offensive -
Dala laughed at me,
But it wasn’t even funny.
Let’s see if he’ll laugh at this -
I walked up to him and turned around
Pushed my buttocks out
And I squeezed
I squeezed with all my might
And when I felt a pop
I knew I was successful
Laughter couldn’t keep itself in this body of mine
Holding my stomach,
Rolling on the floor -
I let it out
“Mama! Mi pupup on Dala!” The words bubbled out with giggles
Yet Their noses scrunched like a domino effect one after the other
And I felt a bulge in my underwear
“Look how you crap yourself,” Dala pointed out
And my laughter left as quickly as it came
And theirs entered with a force that shook me
Entirely
Author’s Note ~
This memory is one I hold dear to me, funny enough, for some reason, what felt like an everlasting moment of shame has cradled itself into the softest parts of my heart. I’m sure you’ve had a memory like that, one you never thought you would treasure years later. I was maybe 4 or 5 at the time, and my little body wanted revenge and there I learned a valuable lesson.
Take a moment to dig through your treasure chest of memories, what’s coming up for you? I hope this trip with me through memory lane has gifted and reminded you of something that could be helpful right about now.
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