When listening to this podcast it’s important to start to think about the card decks in the Self-Healing Oracle deck we will be using as representing two parts of you.
The Self-Clearing Cards in the deck represent the energy of your Ego (your false self).The Self-Renewal Cards in the deck represent the energy of your Higher Self (your true self).
The role of the Ego is to protect you, although- because humans are conditioned from a young age to attach to fear-the protection that the ego is trying to provide can be counterproductive. It can look like maintaining a state of hyper-vigilance around the past repeating itself so on a subconscious level we are always waiting for the other shoe to drop and we can feel prematurely convinced that something is happening that is potentially just a story of the past playing on repeat like a broken record. When the Ego perceives or senses anything in our current reality that resembles the past it hits our internal panic button causing us to feel emotionally triggered. Unless we intentionally take the time to fact check our current reality and validate that this is indeed an old story and the emotion is rooted in the past we can get stuck in an emotional loop that never ends and the past can continue to play itself out and we continue to feel blocked from success in different areas of our lives. The protection the Ego is meant to provide you is making sure you don’t do things that are actually dangerous for you in the present moment like jump off a cliff. The problem is that whatever experiences of trauma we have had in the past provide the Ego with a long list of things it is defining as just as dangerous as jumping off a cliff.
The role of the Higher Self is to guide you to your highest potential in this lifetime and to support you in your Soul Evolution Journey. From a young age we are mostly conditioned to listen to the voice of the ego aka the voice of fear-and so that voice gets increasingly louder. By the time we are adults it’s all we can hear and the voice of the higher self becomes a faint whisper. Through the process of consciously starting to invite the voice of the Higher Self to speak- the voice gets louder and more clear. A powerful part of the process in inviting the voice of the Higher Self in is redirecting the voice of the Ego so that you can listen to what the Higher Self has to say.
The Self-Clearing Cards in the deck represent the energy your ego is inviting you to engage with that is keeping you stuck in the energy of the past. By acknowledging and releasing this energy from your subconscious mind it brings it into the conscious mind where you can begin to become aware of the root of it so that you can get beyond the trigger and begin to see it clearly moving forward in your healing journey.
The Self-Renewal Cards in the deck represent the energy that your Higher Self is currently inviting you into so that you can begin to use that new energy as an anchor that guides your thoughts and actions so that you can begin to have the type of success in different areas of your life that you so crave.
The Self-Healing cards are a tool you can call upon that will walk you through a healing process when you are in an emotionally triggered state.
We are ready to choose our very first self-clearing card that is showing up today for you and the entire collective to work with in your self-healing journey.
The card of: Unforgiveness:
Unpacking the Energy:
When you are triggered by the energy of unforgiveness - it can mean that something or a series of things have occurred in your life that you feel are so beyond acceptable that you just can’t fathom forgiveness. Your unforgiveness eats away at your ability to sustain peace and joy. A part of you wants to forgive but you just keep spinning in the resentment you feel. You recognize your own suffering as a result of unforgiveness and you don’t want to keep living like this.
Pulling this card signifies that there is some unforgiveness that you are now ready to let go of.
Example: Someone betrayed your trust and even the mention of their name brings up so much pain. They are no longer in your life and you resent them for it. You hold a grudge toward them and your unforgiveness is so heavy that it consumes your thoughts.
The impact of this Energy: When you are triggered by unforgiveness it can feel like you are trapped in a bitter cycle of thoughts. You think about the person you can’t forgive and the pain or lack of love memory is activated within you. One story plays like a broken record in your mind echoing through your body. The story that your ego blasts as a means to keep you from experiencing more pain and in turn causes you to continue to exacerbate the pain you already have experienced by choosing to resist any and all attempts to humanize the person you can’t forgive through compassion.
Getting to the root of the Energy:
Ask yourself the following questions & journal or talk it out with a Therapist, Healer, or someone you trust: (These questions can be answered before or after pulling a self-renewal card and going through that part of the healing process)
Who can’t I forgive?
What possible circumstances in this person’s life could have contributed to them letting me down?
Can I find compassion for their experience?
How would my life experience change if I was able to let go of the anger and resentment through finding compassion for this person?
Is there anything I need to forgive myself for?
Do I need to forgive myself before trying to forgive others?
After answering those questions it is now time to pull our very first Self-renewal card!
The card is: Consideration. Let’s unpack the energy of consideration together.
Unpacking the energy:
If you have pulled the card of consideration your energy field is receiving this particular energy so that it may guide you forward by informing your thoughts, and your actions. It is meant to serve as energetic support and medicine after the clearing away of the discordant energy in your subconscious mind through the self-clearing card we received.
Whichever card you pulled-the energy of consideration will guide you forward now.
Example: You pulled the self-clearing card of unforgiveness and now the self-renewal card of consideration. The way forward for you is making space to consciously consider the situation and all people involved (including yourself) that you have been unable to forgive. This can look like you taking the time to consider things through journal writing, one-on-one processing with a close friend, a therapist or a healer- or writing a letter that you may or may not ever send to the person(s) involved in the situation you haven’t been able to forgive. The main thing to focus on is creating the space in your schedule to sit with and seriously consider your unforgiveness.
The impact of this energy: The energy of consideration begs for spaciousness. We live in a fast-paced world where spaciousness can feel like a luxury and therefore something we cannot afford. When this energy comes into your awareness it is time to reclaim your right to spaciousness. Once you create the space-then you can actually consider what you are needing to consider in order to support your self-healing journey. Each of us has different lives. Different schedules. Different commitments. That means each of us will have a different definition of what spaciousness is and can be in our lives. Spaciousness can be taking 3 deep breaths before transitioning to the next thing in your day or it can look like taking a walk without your phone so that you can consider something without distraction. It can look so many ways and you will find what it is to you through setting your intention right here right now for consideration.
Getting to the root of the Energy:
Ask yourself the following questions & journal or talk it out with a Therapist, Healer, or someone you trust: (These questions can be answered at any point after pulling a self-renewal card and going through that part of the healing process)
When in the next week can I create space to deeply consider what is keeping me in a state of unforgiveness? Towards myself? Towards others?
What do I typically do to avoid consideration?
How can I help myself minimize the liklihood of that avoidance happening this week?
Even if it feels hard-can I make space to consider the other person’s point of view?
When I make space to consider where the other person is coming from-what comes up for me?
How do I feel when I consider if both things can be true?
