The Violence I Carried Was Never Mine is a reflection on surviving childhood abuse, the invisible inheritance of an abuser’s voice, and the quiet, unglamorous courage it takes to unlearn what was never yours to hold.
This is not a story about rage or revenge.
It’s about recognizing how survival habits turn into identity, and how reclaiming your voice often happens in small, ordinary choices no one applauds.
This episode is an offering.
A setting down.
A reminder that what shaped you does not get to define you.
This episode includes references to:
Childhood abuse
Attempted murder
Incarceration of a parent
Trauma, dissociation, and survival responses
Please listen with care and take breaks as needed.
Note from Alli
If this episode stirred something in you
If you recognized an old voice, a familiar shrinking, a silence you learned early
You are not weak for carrying it.
You are brave for noticing it.
And if you’re not ready to speak yet, you’re allowed to borrow my voice until you are.
You are not alone anymore.
Listener Reminder
You don’t need to share this story to earn your healing.
You don’t need to justify your pain to release it.
And you don’t need to rush yourself into being “over it.”
Quiet courage counts.
