I was sick this week.
That doesn’t happen often. When it does, I don’t want much. Just not to be sick anymore.
“A healthy person wants a thousand things, an unhealthy person wants one thing.” Seneca I think. Maybe Epicurus. Some wise person with lots of quotes that people use.
I’m better now. And I already want more than one thing.
Build this. Read that. Run there. Plan that other thing.
That all happened fast.
Maybe most of us live like this. Maybe it’s just me. Not sick, we’re chasing tomorrow. The next version of a thing. Of us.
The better tomorrow. Always tomorrow.
The good times are just the times. You don’t know they are the good times until you look back.Sometimes you do. Those moments when you look around and say “this is good.” That takes effort too.
It’s not that things need to get worse for us to do that. We just need the contrast. See the difference.
It’s not always good times. Maybe its mostly good times. Good times today trying to make better times tomorrow. Borrowing today to pay tomorrow.
And then later never comes because when it gets here its just another now. Another not good enough.
That’s the trap I guess. Not striving. That’s fine. Even ambition is fine.
The trap is staying there. Never realizing it’s enough. You are enough.
Sick. Almost everything stopped. How do I make this go away?
All I wanted was the way I felt last Tuesday.
Last Tuesday was enough.
What time is it now? Probably good. Definitely good.
This isn’t about gratitude. This is about enough. Noticing when it’s enough. Then working for better but relishing that if tomorrow never comes we had today.
And that was enough.
Take care. Be good.
-Kelly
