I wanted so badly to heal, to make the pain stop, to find answers and any sort of closure I could.
When I attended the Ayahuasca healing ceremony it was 7 days of intense work and purging tears that could have filled the buckets that were intended for puking into during the night. I was there to heal my PTSD, grief and guilt. Emotionally torn into two different directions. Every night that I took ayahuasca took me on a different journey, and by the weeks end I felt the grief subside drastically but the guilt still lingered.
But it wasn’t really gone, it was only suppressed. Maybe I should have wrote a letter and burned it, or I should have had a professional to talk it out with. It needed to be released but instead it sat deep in my subconscious festering for 5 years unbeknownst to me.
For the first time I will be speaking about part of my story I’ve never shared with you via my podcast. Only Sean, my family and a few close people were made aware. This is for anyone who’s ever silenced their intuition and lost themselves in the process.
