Victoria grew up with religion and was comfortable believing in a Higher Power. In her drinking, which increased in the middle of her life, she ended up doing things she never thought she would which she tried to ‘hide’ from god and her family. She ended up in the ICU and then rehab. She knew she had to change or she would lose her relationships with her kids- let alone her life. On one particularly hard night, she, in her words, surrendered and prayed for guidance. She shares how she arrived at that moment and how it change her in a powerful way.
‘I looked up for the first time in so long. I looked up and I saw the stars. And the stars and the moon were brighter than I ever could remember before. But what I realized was that I had held my head down for such a long period of time full of guilt and shame. And when I finally gave in and asked [my Higher Power] for forgiveness and to guide me- the stars and moon had always been there it’s just that I didn’t see them any more…. My life was forever changed after that night… It was like I became alive again. I had the gift to live again.’
Step 3: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
