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Episode 122 - Unlearn Survival, and Relearn Peace - with Kevin Barnhill
This episode is a raw conversation about what happens when the job doesn’t just change your schedule—it changes you. Conrad Weaver sits down with Kevin Barnhill, a former pastor turned police sergeant turned clinician, to talk about the quiet identity drift so many first responders experience: the moment your badge stops being something you wear and starts becoming who you are.
Kevin shares how he “lost himself” for nearly a decade—becoming sharper, more cynical, more irritable—while still doing the work and trying to survive the pace, the calls, and the culture. And then, in a twist that feels almost too small to be true, he describes a wake-up moment that wasn’t a shooting or a barricade… but a minor citizen complaint that revealed how far he’d moved from the person he wanted to be.
They dig into the difference between bosses and leaders, why punitive environments create fear, and why mentorship—not micromanagement—is often the missing intervention. The heartbeat of the episode lands in one phrase Kevin drops near the end: “Unlearning survival and relearning peace.” If you’ve felt yourself hardening, disconnecting, or living on edge, this conversation offers language for what’s happening—and a path back.
ABOUT KEVIN
Kevin Barnhill is a former pastor and retired police sergeant with 28 years in law enforcement, including leadership roles such as internal affairs. Today he serves as a clinician, helping first responders and other high-stress professionals move from survival mode into healing, clarity, and sustainable peace.
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https://www.cadencecounseling.org/
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