I've hated my body for the longest time
because it is what he used
Why did my dad take what was mine?
Leaving me sore and confused
I thought my body had let me down
I blamed it for my pain
The way I looked filled me with disgust
I couldn’t bear the shame!
Sex and sexuality
brought out in me such fear
even if I liked someone
I couldn’t let them near
Weight was always an issue
I think it’s’ because he was fat
I later used food to comfort myself
and ended up looking like that
For me, this was unforgiveable
I felt I looked ugly like him
I couldn’t control my eating
I didn’t know where to begin
I didn’t always succeed
but I got better every day
The more I learned to love myself
the weight just fell away
Then one day I decided
I’ll have no more of this
I tried bringing in love from heaven above
determined to find my bliss!
I can never take for granted
that my work is ever done
But I see the path before me now
and I'm determined to have some fun.
