Welcome to Moms With A Call, a space where nothing is too messy for grace. In this raw and courageous episode, Rebecca shares Part 3 of her testimony—a chapter she calls “The Pit,” a season marked by anxiety, spiritual numbness, and a desperate search for relief.
Together, McKenzie and Rebecca talk about what it feels like to spiral, when freedom turns into disconnection, when panic attacks steal your breath, and when religion feels more like a weight than a refuge. Rebecca speaks honestly about turning away from spiritual guidance, navigating therapy and medication, and the slow, painful unraveling of who she thought she was.
This is not a story of resolution—it’s a story of being in the thick of it. And it’s for anyone who has ever whispered, “Where is God in this?”
We talk about:
You are not alone in the pit. There is a God who sees in the dark, and this episode is a sacred reminder of that.
Episode Timeline
00:35 – The Pit begins: a dark season of the soul
05:59 – The rising tide of anxiety
15:45 – Rejecting religion, still yearning for truth
21:07 – “Life Without Me” – intrusive thoughts and fear
21:39 – Wrestling with therapy and medication
22:52 – The weight of mental health and spiritual crisis
25:06 – When numbness replaces faith
26:29 – Self-destruction and seeking escape
32:35 – How her parents responded in the chaos
36:07 – Final reflections and an invitation for the hurting
