I wonder how I will look back on these days. I do my best to present as happy and resilient but there are certainly frustrations, fears and doubts. How do I lead when I don’t feel up to it? What is my back up plan when things crumble or fail?
This whole series of events does not paint David in the best of lights. I like David better when he is trusting God running towards Goliath than when he is in fear of his life running away to Gath. The problem is that I have way more Gath than Goliath moments in my own life. I too easily default to become like David where fear drives his behaviour and he chooses denial and deception. Loneliness and isolation in particular make poor decisions more likely. David is alone on this journey from Nob to Gath. His attempts to make things better only make them worse.
This is number thirty four of a series that began life as a commitment to Counting my Blessings every day after ankle surgery on July 2nd 2021.
Initially I made a brief post on social media and wrote a personal daily reflection on a Psalm following the same numerical progression.
Later on in the 100 days I began to also reflect on other scriptures and combine those into my public post
These thoughts from Psalms earlier in the journey have not been made public until now as I was writing primarily for my own benefit. I have been encouraged to share these now.
