BEHIND MY SMILE: A RAINBOW BABY STORY was originally written as a journal to help me work through my traumas: I had a difficult childhood due to chronic illnesses, suffered and courageously left an abusive relationship, found my one person, then tragically lost our daughter in utero through termination for medical reasons (TFMR). The wonderful joy of my son's conception shortly after was shadowed by my PTSD and constant fear that I would lose him too. I never knew such conflicting emotions could exist simultaneously! Soon after the birth of my rainbow baby, we nearly lost him to a major illness. Despite all of these obstacles, I was able to find my voice, speak out, and eventually own my strength as a woman and a first time mother to a rainbow baby. I realized the potential my story has to help other women as I wish I had been helped. And, it has a happy ending!
