So let’s get personal for a minute, back in the day when I drank to stupidity which always started with the stupid idea to drink but then it transitioned or was justified by creating a plan with intent and purpose. When I got high it made me feel full of intent and purpose. I found that I was, as long as I remained drunk or high, motivated to stillness.
Oh yeh, as long as I was thinking loosely and expending no effort or work towards any purpose, I was able to believe and convince myself that I was going to get started on that so-and-so thing straight forward. Yup, I was going to change the world, and every time I snipped and tipped, that motivational stillness rushed right back and I was again in that happy place where I felt I could conquer the world with no applied effort. That would come tomorrow, right now I am grubbing for a snack.
