In this episode, I unpack a hard truth: you can’t solve a problem you don’t understand.
We look beneath the surface of drinking to the real drivers—pain, fear, loneliness, and the beliefs we quietly adopt like “alcohol gives me confidence” or “I’m boring sober.”
I share the story of my first real attempt to quit at twenty (and why I relapsed 30 days later), break down the “breadcrumb trail” that leads to relapse long before the first sip, and show how understanding—not willpower—creates lasting freedom.
If you’ve tried to white-knuckle sobriety or swapped the bottle for other distractions, this one will help you see the real target and start changing the story.
What we cover:
- The hidden equation: pain + misunderstanding = repetition.
- Why “meeting makers make it” can become just another dependency (support is good; dependency isn’t).
- The “first drink” exercise: go back to what it gave you emotionally (relief, confidence, connection).
- The stories we tell ourselves (“alcohol gives me confidence,” “I can’t relax without it”) and how repetition turns beliefs into “truth.”
- The breadcrumb trail to the bottle: the subtle build-up of skipped routines, isolation, justification, and disconnection.
- Beyond addiction: how the same patterns show up as workaholism, perfectionism, people-pleasing, or endless scrolling.
- Understanding vs. judging: swap “What’s wrong with me?” for “What happened to me?” and “What need was I trying to meet?”
- The mirror of sobriety: discomfort as a signal, not a sentence.
