After listening to this over I feel like I was a bit frenetic and not quite articulate in taking my thoughts into specifics. But, it's posted and I feel there are multiple layers of messaging.
1st. I gave up FoxNews and CNN in favor of a few more 'less manipulative' media sources. I couldn't have found a better start to settling into some inner quiet again and affording myself the opportunity to think freely/ engagingly.
2nd. Stanford Prison Experiment of 1971. The psychological effects of perceived power.
https://www.prisonexp.org/
After watching countless videos of 'authority' and how they seem to handle interactions with their fellow citizens reminded me of this experiment/study. I started down the road of looking at it not only in relation to power but also success, mastery, confidence, etc. and as a departure point to investigate humility.