Grief arrives in waves, especially on anniversaries that mark our deepest losses. In this intimate and vulnerable episode, I open my heart about coping with July 29th – the day my beloved sister and band member Lora passed away in 2020 a year already devastated by tragedy.
I share why I deliberately step away from social media on this painful anniversary, avoiding the well-meaning but triggering posts of graveyard visits and floral tributes. For me, these traditional grief rituals don't bring comfort; they only intensify my sadness. Everyone's grief journey looks different, and I've learned to honor my own needs on difficult days like these. I reflect on my lifelong discomfort with graveyards, stemming from a childhood incident, and how COVID restrictions forced me to attend a graveside funeral I would have otherwise avoided.
The healing journey hasn't been linear. It took years before I could find any semblance of peace with my sister's passing, gradually coming to see it through a spiritual lens as part of a greater divine plan. One unexpected comfort has been dreams where Lora visits me – moments where our connection feels unbroken and whole again. Through all the pain, I'm channeling my emotions into new music, expanding what was meant to be an EP into a full album called "Asleep at the Wheel." If you're navigating your own grief journey, know you're not alone. Your prayers are much appreciated. 🙏
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