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Happy Monday, Friends!  It's our last Motivational Monday of The Enoughness Revolution, which makes me feel so excited for what's to come with Wild and Holy Radio launching July 31st, but also a little sad.

The Enoughness Revolution was a conversation I started in October of 2015 out of a pure passion to understand enoughness and the voices of "not enough" and dispel the myth that it doesn't matter how much we make, how much we become, how much we achieve, or how much we do, the experience of not enough is part of the human experience.

For the past almost 2 years, I've interviewed over a hundred people on their personal journeys to finding worthiness, revolutionizing what they believe they deserve, and cultivating the courage to actually pursue it.  Each of these conversations has left an imprint on my heart.  Each one has given me a piece of wisdom I've carried with me on my journey and hopefully have also passed onto you.

So, as we meet for our last Monday together until Wild and Holy Radio launches July 31st (p.s. don't forget to join the launch team here!), I want to take some time to sum up some of the biggest lessons I've learned the past 2 years of running this podcast.

I've done all kinds of work to heal the voices of "not enough".  Before beginning my path of personal development, I tried to numb them any way I could.  I'd hide myself in other people and relationships to feel wanted and desired.  I'd hide myself under substances and alcohol to offer a short relief of my feelings of unworthiness.  I ran from God as far as I could go until I literally couldn't go any further.  I hardened my heart and put up walls so I'd never have to feel pain again.  I self-abandoned my own ideas and opinions because I didn't want to "rock the boat" or risk disapproval.  I stayed in relationships that weren't right for me because I was terrified of being alone.  All because I needed the approval of others.  I needed their validation because I hadn't learned to give myself my own.  Which, of course, was a catch 22.  I desperately needed my own validation and self-belief, but didn't think my opinion of myself held any weight.

Then 2006 happened, the year I lost everything.  My best friend died.  I lost a whole group of friends.  I lost myself in drugs and alcohol.  I left everything I knew behind to travel Europe on my own and by the grace of God, I had no other choice but to rely on myself to recover from some of the deepest grief I've ever known.  That was the turning point.  Sometimes rock bottom is the best place to rebuild your life.  I know that's been true for me.

For the past 11 years now, I've been on a personal development journey to learn how to honor my soul, release shame and guilt, and heal the holes I felt I had in my heart.  Year after year, I've challenged myself to become more and more whole.  The last place I'd ever expect to arrive is to this deeply spiritual place of knowing I'm enough, I always have been, and I always will be even if I do nothing more in my life. Enoughness isn't attached to anything outside of ourselves. It's attached to our Divinity.

I used to think I could out run fear and I wasn't done with my personal development until I got to this place where fear didn't exist.  Then I realized, that was completely absurd.  Fear is part of the human experience.  Fast forward 5 years and again, I found myself in the same trap - wanting to get to this place where the voices of "not enough" didn't exist.  I hadn't truly done my enoughness work until I got to this place where I knew I was enough and was no longer plagued by the voices of "not enough".  About six months in, I realized I was in the...