"Healing for Joy"
Lyrics by Leigh Farnell / Inspired by a Therapist's Truth
[Verse 1]
I walked into that room with my battle-scarred heart
Wore pain like armor, been broken from the start
Said, "I'm just trying to be strong, to survive the storm"
He looked in my eyes and said, "That's not what healing's for"
[Pre-Chorus]
"You already know how to carry the weight
You've lived through the fire, you've walked through the gate"
And then he smiled — like he'd opened a door
And said something I'd never heard before
[Chorus]
"You're not healing just to hold the pain
Not to brave the storm or stand in the rain
You're used to sorrow — it's joy you push away
You're healing now to let the light stay"
To laugh without guilt, to dance without fear
To welcome the sunrise and know you belong here
You're not healing for more pain to destroy
You're healing now… to hold joy
[Verse 2]
I never knew that peace could feel so raw
It scared me more than the things I saw
Felt like betrayal to smile again
But he said, "This is where your new life begins"
[Pre-Chorus]
"You've built a home in survival mode
But now it's time to lay that burden down"
And I felt my heart — just start to unfold
At the thought that I could love this life I hold
[Chorus]
'Cause I'm not healing just to hold the pain
Not to brave the storm or stand in the rain
I'm used to sorrow — it's joy I've turned away
But I'm healing now to let the light stay
To laugh without guilt, to dance without fear
To open my arms and say, "I deserve to be here"
I'm not healing for more pain to destroy
I'm healing now… to hold joy
[Bridge]
It's not weakness to feel the sun
To let yourself shine when the darkness is done
I'm learning now what strength really means
To feel safe in peace, to dream tender dreams
[Final Chorus]
I'm not healing just to hold the pain
I'm not just surviving — I'm living again
It's time I welcomed the love I've denied
Time I let happiness back inside
To laugh with my whole heart, not look away
To believe I deserve a beautiful day
I'm not healing for more pain to destroy
I'm healing now…
I'm healing now…
To hold joy
