In this episode, Rachel explores what happens to our faith when the prayers we've whispered for years seem to go unanswered, and Heaven stays silent. She shares the personal moment of standing in an empty bedroom after a third adoption fell through, realizing she had finally run out of words to say to God.
She unpacks the difference between prayer as transaction and prayer as abiding, challenging the idea that persistence means repeating a request until God gives in. Drawing from the lament Psalms and the "nevertheless" of Gethsemane, Rachel reframes prayer not as performance or petition, but as the holy stubbornness of refusing to leave the relationship. She examines how lament gives us language for the messy middle, where we can hold both faith and doubt, and why mystery doesn't mean failure.
Whether you're tired of being told that unanswered prayers mean you lack faith, wrestling with anger at God, or wondering if staying connected matters when the conversation feels one-sided, this episode offers space to breathe. It's an invitation to discover that abiding matters more than answers, and that staying in the room with God might be the most faithful prayer we have.
