When you start thinking about the past, distant or recent, be careful because you may be reinforcing the negative patterns and end up repeating the cycle. Mix in some spiritual thinking. Mix in some life thinking. Mix in some "in Christ" thinking. Put on the new man, don't just beat yourself up for the past, decide that you'll override the destructive programming and disciple yourself into victory.
https://www.clintbyars.com/blog/2018/8/27/the-science-behind-jesus-words-abiding-in-you-and-spiritual-thinking