Ryan reflected on his spiritual path, and the Albert Camus essay, The Myth of Sisyphus. Sisyphus is the Greek figure who spends his life pushing a boulder up a mountain, a metaphor for the seemingly absurdity of life. At the end of the essay, Camus writes, "The struggle itself ... is enough to fill a man's heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy." Ryan concludes that he too is determined to find a way to be happy while rolling a boulder up a mountain. His queries were: What parts of yourself feel too difficult to change? What would you gain if you changed? What would you lose? Have you ever surprised yourself with overcoming something in yourself?
