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A Crisp Hole
There is a crisp hole
hidden in the center
of my crumbling cerebrum
that has struck me dumb
paralyzed my tongue
and it grows each day
filled up with the decay
of what I most abhor
"I can’t take it anymore!"
after the last girl
that I loved so much
walked out the door
Why must love so often choose
to make one person just feel used?
Leaving me without the energy
to try once more romantically
to spend so vainly months of time
just trying to make someone mine.
Loneliness it is a plague
it rots ones heart and soul
it is a prison for one’s dreams
and only new love brings parole.
But I find my latest attitude
is existence wrapped in solitude
where no pain can intrude
where I can spend
the whole day nude
unobligated to another’s mood
with no fears of
ever being screwed
by a women only looking
for some temporary dude.
My black book is down
to its last page
the rest were torn out
…..disengaged
by loves that were
all falsely staged
and ended by some
made up rage
from this I have
become a sage
on how girls I
attract behave.
Though there were loves
that came my way
allowing two to laugh and play
but as I aged love went away
and there is little left to say
I’ll carry those loves to my grave!
I’ve reached that point of no return
without a match, passion can’t burn
love lessons are too hard to learn
never again will I be spurned
Let oblivion fall,
not only beneath
my flesh shuttered eyes,
extinguishing my anguished cries
but in my hopes,
my heart, my limbs.
there is no "Her"
to match my "Him."
Wings clipped.
my soul is now a rock
thats grounding me
to a heart that squats
emptied of all false
hopes that gnawed
on my dreams of true
love without a pause
Paralyzed from
any further touch,
being lonely doesn’t
hurt so much
I won’t have to be
someone else’s crutch
Let despair become
my only friend,
let it dwell now
in my mind left bent
that used to flow with poetry
of the lives and love’s l knew daily
surrendered now I’ll it be...
My inks run out,
my tongue’s bone dry,
but I thirst no more,
for another try
cause it only brings
more questions why??
I‘m inebriated by pain.........
loneliness will keep me sane
I am just another grain
of sand on a slopesl eft slipping
one of many countless minions,
victim to love’s cruel opinions
sliding through a tiny glass hole
into times cold emptiness
trickling slow into
what waits below
till nothing else
remains above
but my absence from
the ghosts of love
that I never got to know.
that I never chose to know…………………
never chose to know!
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Amazing Music Composed
and Played by Julz- ©-2021
Lyrics & Vocals Written & Sung by
Matthew F. Blowers III ©-2021-
Art~Whimsically Yours Studio
*Image by xaviandrew from Pixabay
