You’ve been criticising and berating yourself for years, and it really hasn’t worked.
Somewhere in you, you feel you deserve to be kept small, hunched, on edge; the soft, tender yet knowing part of you left unheard.
It’s not true, and deep inside you know this too.
You have taken on too many harsh voices and made them your own, turning your back on yourself.
It’s time to turn around, to draw yourself into your body. Whispering, I want to hear you, I want to know you, I want to be you, I want to care for you; softly and courageously.
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• Words by Brigit Anna McNeill •
All she ever wanted was to feel normal. To not be afraid, anxious, depressed or overwhelmed by the voices in her head.
Habits, addictions, compulsions, denial, outbursts, self sabotage, anger, sadness and hopelessness were the all consuming behaviours and narrative driving the course of her life.
No one understood.No one else felt this way. Therefore no one could help.
This darkness overtook her life destroying any hopes of joy and led to wild behavioural swings. She became anorexic. She was already bulimic. She became too anxious to leave her home. She withdrew from family and friends. In her isolation she became depressed. Dark intrusive thoughts kept her company. Kept her stuck.
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