Instrumental by: Syco Beats
https://soundcloud.com/SykoBeats
Instrumental can be found:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lW9st0U-AfA
Lyrics:
The clock starts ticking once you're out of the womb
Tick tock, until it's time to rest in your tomb
What was done in that time? Gone in the fume
I want to live, but my mind won't let me
I want to be free
Why won't you let me be?
I try very much
I need my very own crutch
But i just seem so damn out of touch
I get depressed that I can't
And depressed that I rant
But it's these ideas I can't decant
Even if I do manage it may be a waste of time
I feel I'm in my prime
But can't step on the ladder and begin to climb
Because well we are all destined to the same ending
What am I defending?
Why do I keep pretending?
I want happiness. Maybe I'm just afraid of it
Too afraid to admit
That I am guilty not to commit
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I been there when you weren't at ease
Tortured soul, only aim was to please
Do you even recognize these?
My sacrifice for your understanding
I hope you see that I was undemanding
When I need your help, will you be standing?
Near
Because we all need a big cheer
To face our most deepest fear
I want to live, but my mind won't let me
I want to be free
Why won't you let me be?
Now I need all your help and support
I don't want to be left short
In my life that's starting to distort
I don't want to purport
To my very last resort
Help me I want to abort
These ideas that try to extort
A certain way which I should comport
Controlling me at the highest court
For me, will you bleed?
When I need
To be freed
From the chains of my minds greed?
Help me proceed
To succeed
In showing my true potential
I feel it is very essential
I need reason to be existential
To grow at an exponential
Help me, because I know I been influential
In your life which was consequential
Give me a hand
Show me what's grand
Make life better offhand
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The more I wait
The more I hate
Myself because my mind tries to dictate
My fate
While I get stuck at the gate
Everything locked up inside
Many implied
That it's pride
Of the ego
Well it's not that amigo
It's the complexity of a broken mind
Since childhood that I been confined
With self esteem and confidence issues combined
When too many expect a lot
Never happy with what you got
You're never good enough to them, so your worth squat
You only have one shot
And you can't please all
It feels like you're hitting your head, on the very same wall
Feeling so small
When they don't even realize all the hard work you put through
But even your best is not good enough, who knew?
No wonder my minds so fucked and I can't make do
But still, I want to get out of this funk
Before all my options for a good life get sunk
It's this cruel mind of mines that I need to debunk
I don't wanna be this shy
I still ask myself why?
What must I apply
In order to deny
These ridiculous ideas of my mind, to get by
To give me incentive and start to fly
Aiming my life a lot more high
Seeing everyone eye to eye
Not letting any opportunities pass me by
The clock starts ticking once you're out of the womb
Tick tock, until it's time to rest in your tomb
What was done in that time? Gone in the fume
I want to live, but my mind won't let me
I want to be free
Why won't you let me be?
I don't want to waste my time here
I need to find happiness before I disappear
Time going so fast, I can feel it near
