If you are diagnosed mentally ill and prescribed medication. You will always have to go to doctor, for the rest of your life. There is no cure for mental illness. You will pay them and have to take medicine your whole life. It is endless. You can give up but, the fear of the mental illness will send you back or you can die. If you are in this system my only recommendation is to keep fighting them. It is also, in my eyes, a-okay to lie to them.