The last few times I got groceries I got them through a curbside pick-up. The cost was the same as going in the store. There is one drawback, however, someone else is picking out your groceries even though you gave them a list. So, in turn you may not get all the things you want. Every time I did this I ordered caffeine free cola. I have been off caffeine for about three months now (I feel great). Anyway I never got the cola they always said that it was not in stock. It began to become like a game to me. I would order it and they wouldn't give it up. Yesterday may have been the last time I do curbside pick-up. Even though this virus has me spooked pretty bad. I ordered the usual cola but, when I got home over half of the things I ordered were not available...you mean to tell me there were no taco shells in the store? This brings me to a subject I have been mulling over in my mind. Gang mentality, it seems that everyone has it now. Neighborhoods, workplaces, communities, everywhere. Conform to the gang rules and opinions and you'll be good. Don't follow along and get 'beat down' or don't get caffeine free cola. These gang members use subtle tactics to keep others away. Sneaky little things to show you that they don't want you around without saying it. I say man or woman up and say what you mean. At least from me you'll get a better response. If you push me, my resistance becomes greater. I knew for some odd reason they didn't want me to have the cola but, I kept ordering it out of spite. Push and it becomes a game to me. An irritating game but, a game none the less. It makes me angry but, shit who cares I'm alone here anyway. I can yell fuck the police or play Last Caress out my front door during certain hours and fuck it all and your kids.