Sometimes I wish there was heaven
or some other place of eternal bliss
where we could just flow
or stand in silence
forever weightless
screening our memories
that we could have built together
if everything was different,
if only you and I have had
actually met, actually met.
Sometimes I dare myself to fall in love
and feel the magic of momentary bliss,
and I feel so brave
cause I think I've grown so wise
swearing I won't let it break me
this time or ever again
Cause this time I have it all
so well planned in my head
only waking up to face the pain
cause love is never enough,
there's always something else
I don’t seem to get, I don’t seem to get.
Sometimes I drink too much wine to feel
the lightness of my own existence
and I find heaviness also beautiful
but it's something you don't understand.
So I pretend to be simple, oh I pretend
to be merry and bright
I try to be happy
over my constantly heavy heart
to please the crowd
Put on that record and play it loud for me
let's just laugh
and avoid the dangerous game.
Let's keep the solid ground under our feet,
Let’s play it safe
and never touch each other's hearts
too deep.
Cause we don't know
where it could lead us
are we cowards, are we scared
to let ourselves fall into deep?
We know that in the end
we’ll both run away, run away
And then it hits me, it hits me so hard
during cigarette break at the office
we’re scared to make the move
to get closer
so I imagine our story in my head
while our bodies screaming for the touch
it seems safe to stay carefully away
So I nervously smoke and smile
then write down all the words
I dare not say out loud
music & lyrics by Laura Zitna
