prod. by; Blair
Lyrics;
Lookin at what I've glorified
Makes me more horrified
Everyday more fortified
Inside my mind can't realize
There's gotta be more to life
Than dipping into the other side
Coming back like nothing ever happened
Look at me like you know what I'm going through
Talk like you know me but I ain't ever fucked with you
Acting like my homie since you don't know what to do
Maybe out of fear for you don't want me on your bad side
I don't mean to play the big bad guy
In any situation
I'm just doing what I do
Tryna make it out the dark but I broke my flashlight
Can't see a thing
Don't wanna think
Rather just blink
Rather just drink
Disconnect the link
From my brain to my body
Just another day with my hobbies
So watch what you say in the lobby
Might be on my way to stop the voices
Conflicted with all the choices
Overwhelming forces tryna take me down
Once I let 'em then I'll be in the ground
Sneaking around can barley hear me i don't make a sound
Try something out and see what comes about
Best just stop runnin' your mouth
I'm not the one to complain to when my mind is trained to
See the worst possibility in any outcome
Expect the worse then it's less harsh when it doesn't come
Doing the same since age eleven
Burnin' it down became a felon
Never got caught no ones tellin'
No one even knows the shit that I've done
Always been on the run
Emotionless can't have no fun
Cellophane around my gun
And the gloves are always on
Fuckin around might just start a problem
But all I'm hearing is talking
Stay away
Rifle doesn't sway
Shit won't change
Don't try to pray
See my soul through the barrel of an AK
Spoken like a cynical sadistic
Bitch I play with hexes from witches
No crucifixes Nordic runes tatted on my wrist
It's how I'm livin'
While you copy shit you seein' on the television
I'm really out here tuning in
To the right frequency
But frequently
I seem to be
Getting further away increasingly
I'm just a bag of bones
But still the demons seeking me
Have no problem feasting the bits and pieces
I don't know what's gotten into me
Inching towards the gun on the counter
Aiming it right at the mirror
Don't wanna waste a shot
Times getting nearer
Always living in the future
Makes the present less clearer
Reverse the Hearse into the church
Burn it down and turn the curse
Set upon me since birth
Flip the lights and drop the tabs
Tripping out 'til I fade to black
then again I'll wish it back
Lift it up and tilt the flask
Never can complete a task
Somehow I'm sidetracked
Unless I'm truly focused
When I'm surrounded by the locust
Emergence
Dressing like an insurgent
But I ain't a gun for hire
I do my bidding by my own accord
So you can send the wire
But you'll be the next target I acquire
Only dishing it to those who deserve it
Want my respect then you have to earn it
Won't say a word if somethings on my nerve
I'll just back away and start to observe
Keep the troops in the reserves
'Til I go far and start to hit reverse
Tactical retreat
Actual defeat
Has yet to happen to me
Anytime they get me I'm right back up on my feet
I've been close to death way too high way too deep
Off the hippie flip tabs and some shrooms
Always bud in the mix
Fucked up daily I can't be fixed
But I'm just living since I love it
Hollowed out bag of bones
Living as a vagabond
Nomadic traveler
Never settled down
With you I'm fine just roaming around
Trippin' every second
Death is just one step
Away from my methods
Dippin' to make a bad decision
Head is spinning
Like a top
Waiting 'til I drop
Try not to walk
In front of me I might just knock
On your door one night when you least expect it
Like a broken record
I just keep on repeating
My fiefdom is nothing but the creatures
Vaping in the bleachers
Erased every sequence
So I return to the deeps where
I crawled out like a creep
Sit and rot here unable to ever weep
Same shit I do every week
