Halloween
Well, they said this one’s serious
And not to go outside and smoke
I figured my mother wasn’t delirious
So I took note
Hunkered alone in the basement
Watching Season 5 of Mad Men
I called to make sure you were aware
And to feel like you still were a friend
You sounded agitated
And staticky on the line
I said, you didn’t let that stupid bastard
Talk you into giving him a ride
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There’s always tomorrow
Until there isn’t
There’s always the light of lightening in a storm
There’s always tomorrow until there isn’t
I will love you
Forevermore
Now the tempest seemed to be touching down
My mother shouted downstairs, “some maniacs are staying in the casino.”
She added its coming fast
And asked about that, “girl you know.”
If I’d known we’d split
I’d have never introduced you to my mom
If she knew you revenge cheated
She might not care if you were harmed
But it gave me another twinge thinking about the beginning
You drove me wild when you laughed fluttering your eyelids
Then under the streetlight outside your house
We talked about having kids
Chorus
I hear the rain hard while
Pacing from the boiler to my couch
Even after the texts with the threats
It’s you I still can’t live without
So I raced up the stairs, put on my Yankees hat
And grabbed the keys
Planning to find you and John
To explain what state of emergency means
But my father grabbed me with half-my-shoulder
Out the door
And was already pulling me back inside before
I even answered when he asked, “what the hell are you leaving for?”
Chorus
Well, two days later
And it was Halloween
I saw some little girl walking around a fallen tree
And she was dressed like a Disney queen
I didn’t feel nothing
While walking through our little shattered town
I couldn’t lose this shining vision of you
Wearing a white wedding gown
It was all my goddamn fault
I grew up getting called ugly
I couldn’t stop myself from wanting someone else
Even when I knew you loved me
I heard he wanted cigarettes
And convinced you to take him
The priest said nothing about his sins
Nobody wanted to blame him
Chorus
You know what I got in my head?
While I toss and turn
In the absence of sleep
In my childhood bed?
That I’ve never really stopped taking
That first walk right after the storm
I’ve never wanted to mend the
Threads of our life together that were torn
Nowadays they say I make you a saint
Because I block your flaws out of my mind
They tell me it’s only natural for people to heal
When they’ve had enough time
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