For P1 x Zue x Tony x Kelsey
Premiere: http://hiphopdx.com/singles/id.31718/title.beef-f-anthony-lamar-outer-space-prod-michael-cooper
Prod.Mix. @Michael-Alan-Cooper
Rec.Mix. Beef
Lyrics:
[Intro]
This is for Zue, this is for Phonetic One
This is for all the people going through it, thinking about ending their lives
Just know you'll never be alone – you'll always have your craft
[Anthony Lamarr]
I don't ever wanna feel alone
I don't ever wanna fade away
But everytime I close my eyes
I disappear without a trace
The dark makes it hard to see
Nobody ever hears me scream
In this cold and empty place
Welcome to my outer space
[Beef]
It's like tryna fit a square into a circle
All I'm finna do is hurt you
I guess you can say that's my nature vs. nurture
A mad city curfew and the voices in the bald head of a worker
See, almost no one will answer my calls anymore
But what'd I do wrong? I never changed
Is is the white, tatted, addict rapper going for it all
Or how tall I stand over the past, what is it?
Funny how I get shut out for being different
And I'm supposed to control the monster you made?
They say, "You're gifted, it's our way of saying thanks
You're so interesting, now entertain us or we'll put you in a fucking cage"
Everyone I grew up with thinks I'm in outer space
Everyone I met in college thinks I'm outta place
I suppose that's why they move out the way when I'm walking
Why they go silent when I'm talking
Maybe I'm too forward, I'm too Wisconsin BC
I don't bite my tongue enough, I'm an asshole, not PC
Or maybe it's cause there's a million you's and only one Beef
All I did was act normal and they gave me prestigious degrees
What the fuck's wrong with me?
I tread the fine sine line between genius and insanity
I'm just an echo of reality
When I close my eyes, I see the whole fucking galaxy
[Anthony Lamarr]
I'm lost, can't see
No hope, for me
Echo, echo, echo, echo
So cold, can't breath
No help, help me
Echo, echo, echo, echo
[Chorus]
[Beef]
I try to be like you I do, I got a job and I go to school
But my outer space is far from cool, I need a suit to survive the rules
Cause I don't got jack, I have no queen and all my kings and aces fiending
Left-right purple state leaning, my people ain't eating, we hungry
So how the fuck am I supposed to know what's down the high road?
I grew up in the cut by the highway, by the airport, where they look at you sideways
Boy I'm so anti-opps, the popo though, they'd and sticked and put me in chokeholds
How they shot Tony dead, while Zue shot his veins and Feme plotted her roommate
Heroine in my city ain't gon bring super men in capes
Folks a run up through your spot with choppers and blades, off Xan and Cocaine, like
"Somebody's gon die tonight and it's getting kinda late
Where the cash, where the H, put it all in the motherfucking bag or catch an early grave"
Beef ain't some name, I was made by the rumors
You know at least some of em true, or at least have a sliver of truth
If they half a the shit that I did, I'd still be back in the glue in the sticks
Sticky from the licks that I hit, still rapping and trapping to get up outta the 6
Now I'm on the outs, out all that shit, and when I'm stressed I tend to form habits
I quit the sauce cause it made me savage, now I smoke too much weed and cigarettes
I don't date anymore cause I hated it, bae told me, "Be here or forever be lated"
I told her, "I'm heavily sedated, I'm finna fall in a hole and come back in may again"
With a bayonet through my heart and chains on my ankles and wrists
These new bullet points in my brain, each kernel came with a migraine
I just rolled a personal and shit got real personal
Anthony, my brother, I'm sorry for missing the lick but you know
[Anthony Lamarr]
[Chorus]
