This song showcases a little bit of the softer side of Distillery, that more pensive side of my writing previously seen in some of the more guitar-based tracks on Refinery. Started this song in August 2012, during a melancholy period when I was carless due to poor choices and unforeseen circumstances. I was listening a lot to the Best Coast album "The Only Place", released in May of 2012. I was also dealing with being on the receiving end of one of those cliché "let's just be friends" things, due to inconvenience with the transportation and a few mistakes I had made. The idea for the piano accompaniment came to me while noodling around on the piano. One lyrical passage has a heartbroken rebuttal of that famous Tupac Shakur quote where he says (I'm paraphrasing) that you can spend a lot of time trying to put the pieces back together of a situation and trying to figure out what went wrong, or you can just "leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on”. I was in no mood to do such a thing at that point, so I slyly included a reference to it in the lyrics.
Lyrics:
We met
there was a newness
I saw promise
something finally
now all
I can think of
is the chances
and how I screwed them up
Chorus:
Something changed within my mind
and it's killing me inside
and I'm terrified to think
that I could possibly have missed my one lucky chance
Maybe someday once again
we'd be more than just good friends
but that time is not tonight
and I cannot deny that I'm outside looking in
The cloudy days they come and go
staring into space with the radio
it's shameful what I put you through
I just wanted to be good to you
in my head can't get you out
echoes through this empty house
if I knew then what I know now
I'd still have you hanging around
and how... how can I ignore the pieces on the floor
and move the fuck on
when they were in the air
just a moment ago
I need closure, baby
Chorus:
Something changed within my mind
and it's killing me inside
and I'm terrified to think
that I could possibly have missed my one lucky chance
Maybe someday once again
we'll be more than just good friends
but that time is not tonight
and I cannot deny that I'm outside looking in
at all the people with their seemingly true loves
while I'm out here in the cold wishing you were here with me
Vocals by Reuben Walton
Written by Reuben Walton
Composed by Reuben Walton
Produced by Reuben Walton
Mixed by Reuben Walton
Edited by Reuben Walton
Mastered by Cory Allen of Altered Ear Audio Mastering
