If you have been in any kind of ministry, then you will almost certainly know what it is to have felt rejected and gossiped about. Some churches ought to have a notice posted on the door: ‘Here be dragons!’
How we need to guard our heart and be careful what we say and think, Lord! You know that our thoughts control our life, and that they lead to many consequences. (Prov. 4:23) Align our hearts with Yours so that we run in the freedom of Your leading, rather than toiling and labouring under the crushing impact of stinging words and actions reinforcing our sense of rejection.
Lead us to friends and counsellors with whom we are able share honestly about the pain that these stinging criticisms have caused, people who are able to lovingly tend our wounds and draw out darts and arrows that have pierced our soul. Help them to help us readjust burdens and deep concerns that we have allowed to slip from spirit to soul – for that is what it means to carry each other’s burdens and so walk in the way of the Lord. (Gal. 6:2)
Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? (Jas. 3:11)
Oh Father, how often salty, bitter words come out of my mouth! How often I have hurt and rejected others by not even just my words and deeds, but also by the subliminal messages and subtle expectations of my attitudes. I have pushed people away, people whom You want to welcome.
Forgive me. Face me with the reality of the injury I have caused and then open up Your springs of life in me so that, where I once spread shadows and darkness, I am able to bring light and restoration.
I pray especially for those closest to me, who have so often found themselves suffering as the result of my unhealed hurts and resentments. Forgive me for offending against and even rejecting these dear ones who You have brought so carefully into my life. I bring these people to You now, Lord, and ask You to set them free from the hurt I have caused them.