This podcast aired the day I left my husband. I was on a plane flying back to the United States and had recorded it when I awoke in the morning. It was before I had really spoken with anyone, before any reflection was possible. It is raw. There are tears. I can't actually listen to it again because one's own heartbreak can rebreak a slowly healing heart. If you've read the blog: http://meantforsomethingbetter.com/2012/04/07/why-im-leaving-my-husband/ then you already know the story. This was the first part.