Everyone in my life, who knows me, Should listen to this one. And as always, THANK YOU for your concern, your love, and your worry. Since recording this episode ... I met with my psychiatrist - for a 45 minute video session, where he could see my face, and look into my eyes. As we talked ... about 30 mins in... he stopped me. He said: "Alana, I've been seeing you for a very long time. I can say with 100% certainty you are not only NOT manic... is the is the most clear, and healthy I have ever heard you speak." ... And then he followed that by saying it is greatly conflicting with the emails that he had received from my loved ones.
So, the professionals have spoken everyone! I am sleeping, I am not spending tons of money, I am not running out spreading my legs, and the biggest thing? I AM NOT ANGRY (this is not yelling caps ... its just stating the facts.)
I am really proud of myself and how far I have come. Although I do believe I had experienced a bit of a "heightened" state over the past few weeks, I know that I am now in an extremely healthy and happy place ... I keep saying to myself "Alana, nobody recognizes you like this. And then I look in the mirror and say "Not Even Me."
