In this 200th podcast of My Inner Torch, I address the loneliness that often accompanies relationships with narcissists, sharing how these dynamics can leave me feeling invisible and unsupported. I emphasize that no matter the type of abuser, if my relationship lacks mutual love and intimacy, it’s not worth holding onto. I discuss my tendency as an empath and people pleaser to absorb my partner’s emotional pain, which creates a one-sided dynamic. I reflect on my own experiences of trying to understand my partner’s psyche, ultimately recognizing the futility of those efforts.
I also confront the painful realization that the idealized version of my partner never truly existed, along with the imbalance where the abuser projects their pain onto me. With over 23 years spent in a neglectful relationship, I stress the importance of not feeling responsible for my abuser’s emotions. I advocate for being aware of toxic traits and urge others to steer clear of relationships marked by entitlement and cruelty.
Navigating toxic professional relationships has been particularly challenging, especially with individuals who exhibit narcissistic traits. I warn against labeling others with personality disorders and emphasize the importance of prioritizing my own feelings of safety and support instead. Ultimately, I believe the focus should remain on my individual well-being rather than the labels associated with others’ behaviors.
