(Just a quick note about the last episode. I’m not sure where I was at last time, but I believe I called it the wrong episode number, not to mention, having Pythagoras living in the 17th century. So, it was actually episode number 43, and of course, Pythagoras was circa 500 BC. No, I didn’t succumb to my addiction. It was just one of those days.)
In the last episode, I pretty much left us at a place where it seemed our backs were against the wall. We admitted we were powerless, that our lives were unmanageable, and that we were pretty much insane! The situation reminds me of St. Paul, I think in Romans, who declared, “Oh, what a wretched man I am”. We find ourselves in a quagmire, very much the same as St. Paul did. What was his solution? In simple terms, his solution was the realization that even though the laws governing his flash, or body, seemed to take control of him, God was also present in him, always available to help him.
I never like to include things from religion in these podcasts, or for that matter in my books. However, St. Paul is one of my personal heroes and this reference to him seems appropriate. I see him is going through the same struggle as I did when I began this 12-step program in earnest. I was certainly at the point where no matter how I looked at myself, I saw a wretched person, as well as one who was helpless and hopeless. In short, I needed some serious help. I needed to look beyond my religion, which seem to be operating in a superficial manner. I needed to stop thinking of God in terms of any religious, theological, or philosophical information that I have received throughout my life. I had to finally realized that God was not in that building where I might have kneeled and prayed. He lives in me and was waiting for my recognition of him.
This is what this episode is all about.
