What if everything you've been told about spiritual awakening is wrong? Forget the Instagram posts about divine downloads and blissful enlightenment—the real story of awakening is far messier, more isolating, and infinitely more human than anyone wants to admit. And if you're in the thick of it right now, wondering why your entire life suddenly feels intolerable while everyone around you seems perfectly content, you need to hear this.
In this raw, deeply personal solo episode, Amanda pulls back the curtain on what actually happens after an awakening experience—the part no one talks about when they're selling you that ayahuasca retreat or Kundalini activation. She shares her own seven-year journey through what she calls the "messy middle": that disorienting liminal space where your old life no longer fits, your relationships start falling away, and you're trying desperately to make sense of an experience you don't even have words for. From her pivotal Reiki attunement in Thailand that shifted everything, to the years of fumbling through courses and teachers trying to intellectualize something that could only be understood through the body, Amanda offers the hand-holding and validation that she wishes someone had given her when she first stepped onto this path.
This episode is essential listening if you're experiencing that gnawing restlessness that won't go away, if you're the only person in your circle questioning everything, or if you're secretly terrified that something's wrong with you because the life that looked perfect on paper suddenly feels unbearable. Amanda speaks directly to the shame of wanting "more," the exhaustion of finally feeling again after years of numbing out, and the grief of outgrowing relationships, careers, and identities that once defined you. But she also shares the truth that makes it all worthwhile: on the other side of this uncomfortable transformation is a life lived in full technicolor, where nothing can stop you because you finally know yourself completely.
Whether you're already deep in your awakening journey or just beginning to sense that there's something more calling to you, this episode offers the compassionate, brutally honest roadmap you've been searching for. Amanda's message is clear: you're not broken, you're not alone, and the messy middle is exactly where you're supposed to be.
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