May was a month of contradictions. Surgery recovery, grief and a rainbow unicorn birthday party. Life kept moving and I was somewhere in the middle of it, trying to keep up. This episode is about what it looked like when something finally started to shift.
It started with an incident at Bunnings, a stranger's throwaway comment that hit a nerve I didn't know was still live. I talk about tamas, the yogic concept of inertia, and what it actually took to break through months of it. Spoiler: it wasn't a peaceful meditation. It was anger, and it worked.
From there the episode gets into the small, unglamorous steps that followed. Bath time squats. Daily breathwork. The slow realisation that physical and emotional recovery move at completely different speeds. There's also Mother's Day, Ruby turning four, and what it felt like when the darkness started to lift. Not dramatically, but just quietly, and enough.
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