Grief can sneak up on you in the quiet after the routines end. When the youngest finishes school and the oldest turns 30, the house feels different, the weekends lose their map, and you start to ask, who am I now that no one needs me at the sidelines? I share the real, unpolished story of how those milestones pulled hidden threads—old Bathurst memories, a brush with postnatal depression, and the sting of feeling invisible—and how naming them helped me find steadier ground.
We explore the subtle losses that come with midlife: the vanishing school drop-offs, the end of team sport Sundays, and the social glue of familiar faces. A 30th birthday at Pearl Beach brings pride and a surprising ache as childhood friends return as partners and parents. Digitising old VHS tapes turns into a time machine, making joy and melancholy sit side by side. Then a TV snippet of Bathurst reopens 1995, reminding me that trauma doesn’t need to be capital T to carve deep grooves. With support, I learned to call it what it was and to let grief be part of growth, not a sign of failure.
This is a raw, solo passion project—no producers, no music, just honest reflection about depression, identity shifts, and the search for purpose when motherhood changes shape. I talk through practical ways to rebuild structure and community, from small rituals to creative work that restores agency. If you’ve wondered where you fit once the routines fade, you’ll find language here for what hurts and what heals, and gentle steps toward feeling seen again.
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