Fear can creep in when you least expect it. Sometimes suddenly, like for me with a recent fire. And while I am not directly affected by the aftermath I have grown from the lessons that have come along with it. I am grateful for these teachings... so grateful I decided to share them with YOU! :)
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Teachers in my life
Rachel
Jenn
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Pause. Take a breathe. And tune in.
“Fear is such a powerful emotion for humans. That when we allow it to take over it drives compassion right out of our hearts”- Thomas Aquinis Catholic Priest, Philosopher
Therefore, I let love remain. Let fear go. I know I am more open when I am not afraid.
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Therefore, let love remain. Let fear go. I know I am more open when I am not afraid. The fires changed me. And gave me knew perspective. Our home is fine. I was only afraid of my husband catching on fire. Our home could have caught on fire. Our neighborhood did, 3 doors down.... minimal damage here. I drove away in fear of my husband life. Worried all night. (almost) I only released it 100% when I knew he was ok.
I started to get it out during for sure... he fights fires for a living, why was I afraid? Why did I think bunker gear would keep him safe if only he had it? In the moment I began to trust the universe and Gods plans I began to let the fear fly away and by the time I did, he texted all was safe... at 3am. It was universal timing. I had let it go which allowed him to do what he needed to do. See, my perspective has shifted and now I have dove deep and realized that last summer I was not open in my throat. I did not use my words to say what my heart felt. For some reason I had shut it down. And now we are here. And I use my words. I told Daniel at 11pm the night of the fire I was worried for him. He told me he had it. And that’s when I started to let go. From fear creeping in from 6:30-11, just imagine the release I began to feel when I started letting go. It wasn’t easy @jenniferhelene was with me. It’s part of being a #firewife. We love our loved ones and go through these exhilarating and fearful moments when intense targeting strikes... and then we learn... and we grow. And I can speak for only myself, I am stronger. I have more faith. Love and light my friends. Let that fear go. Speak your truth. Open up and let it out. Shine! ✨
A great example of a human who lets compassion be the driving force of her life is my friend Rachel. And I hope to get her on the show one day soon. She is so compassionate and loving that when the fire happened she texted me to tell me that her and her husband said a prayer for ALL the firemen that are going to help put the fire out. Kind, compassionate. She had her family out safely, and I know within minutes she texted me! It’s people like her that I always want in my life.
And then there are the compassionate and kind people that surround me that are donating food and thanking my husband with food or beer…. and exemplifying a life of gratittude.
I am just blessed to be in the community I live in. Everyone I now is caring + responsive in a time of need.
Maybe it’s our healing sand, maybe it’s the fact that we live in a bible belt, or maybe there are just good people.
Now, I do urge you to check in. Are you helping for the other person or are you doing it for selfish gain?
Pause. Take a breathe. And tune in.
I had to. My mom gave me BRAND NEW items to go take to rachel I was sooo excited about them that I told Rachel about them and was ready to drive them down. And she wanted a hug! The security guard wouldn’t let me in. So… I called some other friends to see if they had the code, no go…went on a little bit of a wild goose chase… and then finally surrendered to the universe.
Ok, not now. Later. I was being selfish and wanted to hug rachel so bad. I just wanted to love on her. And maybe not for her… more for me?
I legitamently started asking myself about my intentions. And so I decided to wait. Wait until she reaches out and is ready for these new toys for her children. She will be, eventually.
Or maybe not. And that is ok.
See, the little lesson I learned was to remember what others need too. And for whatever reason the universe was saying not me, not now.
God’s timing is always right on time.
And I am reminded of this as I reflect on that moment right now. See, life hands us little lessons. Do we choose to learn from them or do we choose to get upset?
Honestly I was upset in the moment for a few reasons… And then I realized how silly I was being. And that for whatever reason… I had to go through that little lesson.
It was a check in. A check in with my intentions.
So, for now. I will just wait. There is no rush. I’m reminded to Pause. Breathe. tune in.
It is all about the pause sometimes. Yoga teaches us this through movement. Pause to breathe into one posture and sink deeper there. Pause in it. And then Pause to breathe into the next.
Think, before you act.. right?
We are all born with this ability. Our thoughts speak, and we do immediately or we have the ability to pause.
Pema Chodron, says this: “It all comes through learning to pause for a moment, learning not to just impulsively do the same thing again and again. It’s a transformative experience to simply pause instead of immediately filing up the space.”
Maybe next time you are in a moment like mine… or just in a moment where you realize you need to pause. You listen… and pause. Take a moment. Breathe. Be.
Where in your life are you not allowing yourself to be… more often?
Is fear creeping in? Is it time to allow faith to be?
Can compassion be the driving force?
Do you pause and observe little lessons that are being given to you?
I know I am.
