This is episode 129 of the Baehr and Curadh podcast. We are going to talk about things you did before coming out of the closet.
- Browsing the underwear ads in the Sears catalog.
- Going to the men's underwear section of a department store.
- Taking off Ken's or G.I. Joe's pants and being horrified.
- Feeling different and isolated and lonely.
- Feeling dead inside when friends or family say that gay people are sinful, disgusting, abnormal, etc.
- Trying to figure out what to do about that awkward straight girl crushing on you.
- Constantly living with the sheer horror that someone will find out.
- Feeling dread when your parents would say, "I need to ask you something".
- Fearing your parents could check your phone anytime.
- Not understanding the fascination with tits that other guys have.
- The dread of your relatives asking if you have a girlfriend every holiday.
- Praying that the other boys don't ask the question "Which girl do you fancy?"
- When another kid asks "are you gay?" and your whole spine tingles with fear.
- Being bullied for being gay before you knew were gay.
- Only feeling comfortable with female friends.
- Feeling really uncomfortable at sleepovers.
- Taking "am I gay?" tests.
- Being jealous of women for all the attention they get from hot men.
- Wondering if maybe you just hadn't met the right girl yet.
- Finding ways to get out of sports and P.E.
- Feeling a special connection to one of your closest male friends.
- Accidentally experimenting without realizing what you were doing and why.
- Crushing for a boy who barely knew you existed that you could never be with.
- Your friend's hot dad.
