Enter The Multiverse
Enter Through The Exit Vi
ENTER THE MULTIVERSE: THE MOVIE - PART I
THE LEGEND OF SUPACREE: ENTER THE MULTIVERSE
LEGENDS: ORIGINS
Apparently, There's a movie between Season 3, and Season 4.
Of which show?
All of them.
ALL OF THEM?
That's a lot.
That is a lot.
Does she know she's being recorded?
She doesn't know she's being recorded.
Oh, My God.
ANANDAR THE GREAT.
who's this now?
--that's my sponsor
--that's my manager
--that's my...
Oh.
"Oh."
...Oh.
Ah! She's a witch!
Yo--She's a fairy!
WHAT'S THIS MAGIC?
...kk.
damn. i'm a dick.
she's such a diva.
what an asshole.
I guess it's a series of important encoded messages, or something.
4 fucking hours?!
I'm not listening to this.
We're listening to this.
I shouldn't post this.
Don't post this.
Damn. I'm a dick.
A fucking narcisist.
\
What an asshole!
What a dick.
A fucking sociopath.
"My body doesn't know what it needs."
"My body knows exactly what it needs."
Here, take this.
You can't just--
[does.]
SUPACREE is a dick.
She's a dick.
[SECRET LIFE OF SUNNI BLU]
Whatever. Something out there asked for this.
What about your superstardom?
What about it?
Give me that.
Ugh.
What is this?
*coughs*
WHAt THE--
doctor sebi
dissappear.
-blu.
Fall//Fly
(never)
capo 1
Oh I've never been so high in my life
Oh I've never been so high in my life
Oh I've never been so…
Lost in my mind, in time
Oh I've never been so high in my life
Oh I've never been so
out of touch
Oh I've never been so
out of touch
Oh I'll never forget to call again
Oh I've never been so
Out of touch
If i could love you a life time
And I probably might, I find
I'd give you all my light
(or none )
We'll find, in time
Which one
Oh I've never seen such love in my world
Oh, I've never seen such love in my world
oh, I've never seen such love in my world
Oh, i'll never forget to fall again,
Oh, I've never seen such love in my world
…Oh, I've never been so high in my life
Oh, i”ve never been so high in my life
Oh, I'll never forget to call again—
Oh, i've never been so high in my life
Oh I''ve never been so high in my life
Oh i”ve never been so high in my life
Oh, I'll never forget to fall…
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The question wasn't whether I wanted to stay, or go; in fact, I wanted to go, and to stay—but underlying and now, overlying, was the wonder of in what way I would spend my birthday. Did it matter? I wanted it not to, and yet, here I was, caught in the wash, and the album or book, or episode– whatever it was, that was coming about from it was meant to be called “Three Nights In San Cristobal” , but something was pressing me to get out, now that I had the certainty and assertion of what I was;
Then It just stops.
OH MY GO-
RUSKO aka “Christopher Mercer” is standing trial for the involuntary manslaughter of his roommate; He becomes famous in a nearby parallel for being the the first human known to have committed murder by way of sound frequency—
FUCK.
—little does anyone know…
SUPACREE headlines an entire festival during a blackout.
Was it bad?
yeah.
did they throw trash at me?
Only a little.
aww.
SUPACREE is a Superstar DJ.
Oh great, yeah.
She is possibly the best—
THE BEST
&, also/al
SHH.
“Bread's Dead”
LIVE KETO SET.
What is this.
just buy tickets.
What is it?
i'll buy them.
PAUSE.
AND THEN WHAT?
MILEY CAME IN ON A WRECKINGBALL.
You mean, “like” a wrecking ball”?
NO. I mean, YES, she was ON a wrecking ball, so– “like' but, WAS.
WHAT.
BROAH.
DID SHE COME OFF?
sortof.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHAT DRUGS ARE YOU ON?
NONE.
hey, look watch.
RELEASE THE KRAKEN.
YOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
got a new guitar;
got another gig
got a new guitar,
got another gig
got a new guitar got another gig
—got another gig
—got another gig
Well, now that I'm famous, it makes everybody seem more human.
The good ones, the bad ones–
Except for women.
Women are monsters.
I hate them.
You are them.
I was them.
NO, I wasn't.
Was I wrong for loving you?
(It's too human)
I didn't want to do this
It's so stupid
True,
I'll use it, too
“i'll use him”
“Cool”
I'm just a tool, to you, then.
Then, there was Justin Roiland, the unsung hero of them all–mostly because he wasn't ‘sung' at all, but mostly spoken–the amount of comfort his voice had always provided was, in the very least, heroic–if I understood the context of Poetic Justice at all, that's probably what it was.
But even he, in my mind, being all of consciousness at once, now, more often than not, had collided with the thoughts of fame and wealth, and what exactly it does; I paused hard upon reflecting on the ‘retarded' amounts of laugher that seemed to be unstoppable, as I formed the then-very-loose-plot of my own projects, or rather, the conglomerate of them all, which would eventually become The Festival Project
Perhaps, I thought, all that it really was is that I had been watching the final outcome of a ride I was also on, for all of them–however, as much as I wanted, I couldn't seem to forge the great gifts of The Prodigal Sonny, and as it turned out, I wanted either all of it or none.
Now that I was properly out of carbohydrates, I could focus on being somewhat hot, at least until someone with an actual body walked by or just happened along; I had somewhere along the way decided that women with perfect bodies were in fact not Gods, or rather Goddesses, but Satan in his truest form– as often and awkwardly from afar, I often watched as men would become useless and lost followers in their company, typically unarmed with more than looks– But, I knew at this point that the men I had so affectionately fawned after had climbed the social and even political ranks so much so that, The Actresses, The Models, The Musicians and otherwise multi talented women of the world– A world to which I may have once belonged, had my mother not destroyed my body– my upbringing clipping me with a 25-year-long inability to produce positive thoughts concerning The Self.
Now that I had properly shifted my self-hatred into Skrillex, which didn't exist as a man, but a business, I could unravel the rest of the infinite that was somehow expanding as quickly as it was collapsing.
Considering Luis was now seemingly preoccupied with the ugly punk rock girl, and now that I would be properly sealed-off from whatever truck stop…
Stop scratching
You look awful.
It's just because i'm black and I need my hair done.
Just cut it off.
Fuck that nonsense.
Why not?
Same reason I put clothes on: It covers up the ugly.
God Loves Ugly
Oh yeah? Well maybe UGLY just loves GOD cause nobody wants it so there's no one left to talk to BUT him.
“Him” ?
Or not.. Whatever. It's beyond the human concept that The God Consciousness is
*coughs*
whatever she wants.
Or IT.
Check it out. Another fucking demon.
‘The Demon Whisperer'
Demons don't whisper, they cough.
(Or pretend to cum)
Who does that?
Pornstars.
Models.
Whatever these are.
–truck stop travelers would pass through rampantly, leaving nothing but the trash of processed junk and coughing obnoxiously, rather than having to hang above it all in a hammock, only ever wishing for Skrillex so that I could fight the mosquitoes off.
I just wanted a home, and, though I was only joking about the mangoes, it seemed my faith was at least partially restored, as the room I had decided was the closest thing…
Suddenly, the ability to write, at least, as I had been–in this form, was vanishing; Of course, having to scramble to some effect to make sure that I wasn't listening to Dillon Francis–
Why, exactly, is that?
Why is what?
Why is Dillon Francis on The Blacklist?
Because.
Dillon Francis Made Me Laugh
AND DEN?!
Dillon Francis Made Me Cry.
Oh noooo.
Oh I love her.
This plot is so racist.
So is Hollywood.
IN THIS DIMENSION:
The Chinese Woman from Freaky Friday, and The Chinese Woman from Dude Where's My Car are actually the same woman–she just has two jobs.
HAVE–THREE JOB.
Oh, three jobs.
That's a lot, Mrs. Wong!
(Racist name, by the way)
—and, she's gone.
No, i”m not.
Get me off this planet.
LIQUID STRANGER
If you want.
Enter: The Psychonauts
His music had inspired the entire plot of Ascension…
I could be gone from it, but not forgotten or lost; at some point it seemed as though everything I had written hadn't even belonged to me…
Well, it was almost a thought process, in narrative form.
Then what happens?
This. This is the festival project.
Why'd you get up?
I felt I was being watched.
Well, you're not.
(But I was)
hy·per·son·ic
/ˌhīpərˈsänik/
adjective
1.
relating to speeds of more than five times the speed of sound (Mach 5).
2.
relating to sound frequencies above about a thousand million hertz.
Now that I had nearly drifted off into an experience that was more in my body than out…
She's–immune to ACID?
In–
SUPACREE throws DILLON FRANCIS out the window.
Wait, what window.
It–doesn't matter.
DILLON FRANCIS [falling]
YES IT DOES
No, it doesn't.
((yes it does))
Oh–it does?
[Everyone nods, especially DILLON FRANCIS, who seems to momentarily stop falling as if he's forgotten he ever was.]
[Dillon Francis Nods]
Well then…
[He is suspended in mid air]
Really high up.
Oh My God.
[He hits the ground, hard. Surprisingly, he does not splatter–and luckily, appears to have already been unconscious. In the darkness, upon impact]
RUN.
Just then, I remembered who Ever was– who never was;
The daughter I had thought up and then forgotten under everything i had become;
The mumbling, stumbling drunken father I loved, only reminded me of the…
And…it's gone.
What! We can't add south park! That's too many plots!
Well, you're practically Butters.
I am–
[BUTTERS]
Mantequilla!
MORE TEQUILA.
Sacred Science: Ancient Egyptian
“It Doesn't Matter”
CC's new friend falls into an infinite loop, where SUPACREE flees for her life from superstardom and fame; He (Inwardly, also supacree—) and his friend “Kiwi” relay a series of messages through several various futuristic intergalactic languages and advanced codes, which CC, operating newly as “Blū” and DJ Ū in her full creative persona, has learned to decode through music programming hypnosis, and has developed a keen expertise in the studies of synaesthetics, and telekinesis.
Oh.
This is next level.
It's multiple levels.
Okay, heavy duty.
I'll roll one.
Oh.
[three overly attractive idealistic males enter The Vortex]
Jesus Christ, Almighty.
Oh.
I told you, sit here.
This is good.
I needed that.
— ‘I needed that.'
Nothing happens without purpose or reason.
What is “purpose”
What is “reason”
Oh, What's this
*Daddy*
Alright, I should get on with my day.
No, stay seated.
That's not fair.
NO, watch it—
Wait for it; Just wait.
He—spoke BIRD.
He was huge.
Gigantic.
THIS ISN'T HAPPENING.
Don't be tall.
I wasn't gonna!
Oh, no, no, no.
Everything was rock hard bodies and chest hair; The matted dreads of the friend beside me added adverse texture to the clean cut and very well-to-do-looking gentlemen who had against my will-to-wish, decidedly planted themselves parallel and just out of my line of sight, by peripheral—just so that to study them I had to sneak to peek at each of them, as within moments of spotting them all at once, as always, I could tell that each of them—with great respect, in their…
“PALM/CC*
MAAAAAAAAN— We waste time on SOOO much buuulllllshiiiiit
Oh, I get it.
This is illuminati.
You got it.
—in their own unique sense and in the proper respective realms—they each had something to give, and to receive, to The Goddess, most recently hidden and writhing in sexless pain–
Oh, My God.
What's this around his neck.
I don't know.
Let's see here.
Is it obsidian?
HE SPEAKS BIRD.
GO FOLLOW HIM.
I just gushed.
Don't be gross.
Oh no, don't open your mouth.
[The man begins to speak; he is oversexily foreign.]
Oh My GOD.
This dragon is going to destroy something!
She's going to destroy EVERYTHING. That's what she does best!
I had arguably never been so horny in my life, and nothing but the damage was being done, to my psyche and my subconscious ability to self destruct when super imposed upon.
@terrazadelarquitecto
She was wild, and wanted to know all there was to know to become and unleash the sprawling Goddess that had begun to take her Maiden form in the wash that was coming up into the shaken and awoke knowledge that was— they were all so perfect,
Sacred Science: The king of pharaonic theocracy
R.A.Schwaller De Lubicz
There he is.
Hey, there, sailor.
What the fuck is THIS.
How.
Why be that large?
Has it's benefits.
Christ Almighty.
Is that the one you want?
Is it, then?
Realizing I was being programmed to buy another something, I stopped myself from the influence of all that was around me, a playful gesture to indulge, by kindly rejecting the notion, in a push to finally move about my day; I was again becoming The Insomniac, or, whether or not I had known it all along, I always had been—which meant, in the suffering of losing my knack for writing anything and everything at any given time. \\
I am a sitting duck.
[Dillon Francis emerges from the water, gasping for every bit of breath.]
Don't look at that.
Mooh, my God.
It's in color.
Why is that—?
Now
What was *then*?
Answer this question,
No ,
Answer this Question:
Okay.
lol.
_
here's this:
What's this crappy place?
Harsh.
No, i'm serious. This is horrible.
Okay, ouch.
I mean it, this is bad.
Where is this?
Uh-
Why are we here?
This..is the bottom of my heart.
This is gross.
dang.
Wait. so you're saying
Yeah, get this
They literally went—“within”
Uhuh.
To the bottom of his heart, literally—
Yes, the inward infinite;
The literal material externalization–
The literal—yes.
And she's like:
“Ew”
“Ew.”
…Ew.
[SECRET LIFE OF SUNNI BLU]
I love the illuminati.
Why would you say something like that?
Look at this:
What are those.
They're not Crocs.
Are they diamond encrusted?
Indeed they are.
Is that gold.
Solid Gold, and Platinum; They're not plated.
How would you even walk in those.
I would not—
Because you can't.
I could, cause I'm man-strong —
I just would not;
Because it's ridiculous?
Don't use that word around me.
It is ridiculous!
No, it's a synonym of ridiculous, because ridiculous doesn't exist—Anyway.
Someone should put you to sleep.
I've Michael Jackson'd Myself three times since I got famous—and you know what I got? It wasn't sleep!
That's Off subject.
Nothing's ‘on' subject.
It's really *not*
I love dudes in weird pants. Period.
Still on the outside; Dead on the inside
Inside out and On my head,
Alone, my mind, along—
But on my own ride
A tribe of gypsies,
With me,
(or without me)
Living out loudly, and badly
But I was quite poorly,
Or worried, but good on the core
Wonder what's it all worth , with no surf
and no certainties;
copy + paste. ep
-En Ūtero [Extended] 6:18
-hopskoch.
-takitoo. 6:01
-43.
-and then what?
-Ū
C'ESME'T
Why are you walking me to my wild side?
PETRUTHEIO
Because it's my wild side.
[beat]
PETRUTHEIO (CONT'D)
–What if I gave you all my love?
C'ESME'T
Why would I want that much love?
PETRUTHEIO
What if it wasn't that much?
C'ESME'T
Then why would I want it at all?
he likes these games,
ain't no heartbreak
Raise the stakes
No harm, no foul;
It's an eye for an eye,
and and ear for an ear, here
She said “I live a fast life”
He said, “I drive a fast car”
but it wouldn't go far, no
It wouldn't go far at all, now!
I sometimes forget i'm famous enough to
just live out my life,
I forget i'm an idol,
I decided my mind is a diamond
I'm higher than high now,
Hey now, The Lord of the Flies Now
I might need to file another reliable lie
There's another way to settle down, now
Call it automatic, press repeat and need to eat
But need to breathe again
Can't keep secrets from the reaper,
Everything you need is simply
Everything you need is simply
Everything you need is simply green.
I sometimes forget i'm famous enough to just
Live it out, loud
But I don't want to go, now!
How about a round of applause—
cause I like the sound of it
Got a Dalmatian on the Greyhound
What now? I'm finally proud of my
Finally proud of my
No, I'm just finally proud of me;
Figure out how to be found
There's another way to settle down, now
Call it automatic, press repeat and need to eat
But need to breathe again
Can't keep secrets from the reaper,
Everything you need is simply
Everything you need is simply
Everything you need is simply green.
Black background, green Plus sign (insomniac sweater)
rarity. (purple)
-Ū.
mirissa g.pool
“fucking mosquitoes.”
I told you, you need skrillex.
and I told YOU to shut your dirty mouth, you hooker.
Hookers get paid.
Yeah, by Skrillex.
–that's enough.
I am the only one at my table;
I am the only one on my team
I been inside the box for so long,
that if you let me out, I might scream
I am the only crayon in the whole damn box
I'm the only sand on my beach
and I don't preach what I practice;
But I practice what I preach
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah
oh oh oh oh
yeah yeah yeah yeah
oh oh
hey
Do you have a problem?
Is it with me?
Should I pray the Lord
your soul to keep?
Should I call the reaper?
Or the state police?
Is it martyrdom or suidice if they write a press release?
SKRILLEX
You looked like a deer in the headlights.
SUPACREE
Oh yeah? well, you looked like a bat on a windshield
I'll give you ten thousand dollars if you can get that hat off her head.
are you serious?
15Gs if you can get it to touch the ground.
SUPACREE
we're playing a game i made up
TIM
We're playing a game *I* made up.
SUPACREE
I am you.
TIM
Now you've got it.
I don't know what just happened—
Okay—
But this lady just saw down straight into my soul, where a ghost lives.
You're a ghost?
My soul's haunted!!!
That is deep bro.
…And he's got music.
—So he's almost always gonna be alright
And she's got—music;
So she's almost-always gonna be alright.
You can go ahead.
It *is* funny.
I don't like it.
It's already hilarious.
Where are we?
Where *is* this?
And you will *never* find me.
We found you.
Eyes on God.
Oh My—
WHAT.
I'm *sorry* mom.
Why are you looking at *ME*.
‘Cause I'm SORRY.
Don't look at *ME* sorry.
Wait. How many people can I be at once?
All of them.
No.
Yes.
Watch:
[Watching.]
…Watching…
[Watching—gets knocked out.]
Now.
Now, you caught me in a bad spot;
I'm getting off in dark spaces
Come, come along now.
Way beside, but along on my own, now.
Tie your love down/
Tie your love down;
Oh, Now all the way out of the way
This is innosense, in a sense
Go down to the shore,
For the fun of it;
Come now, you got to
Tie down
Tie down
Tie down
Dive down
wide-eyed,
Humbled with pride—
While you're siding,
Colliding with Idols,
Confiding in no one,
and residing nowhere—
Nowhere to go,
If they don't care
‘Who are you?'
Now I'm getting caught in dark spaces;
I'm getting off in a bad spot;
Come, along now.
Along, but way beside all on my own now
In a sense, this is innocence
Down, Tie Your love—
Down
Down,
Tie your love, down
All the way out of the way, Now—
Oh!
In a sense, this is innocence.
I've got summer on my mind.
‘I take no part in the festival; if you look to kill me, I only ask that you do it quickly. ‘
What movie is this?
This is ‘The Insomniac”.
Oh, Okay well—what happens in it?
CREE?
SUPACREE.
What are you DOING here?
This is how I wrote The Legend of SUPACREE.
I thought this was “The Insomniac”?
This is how I wrote this, too.
Wrote what?
Just—
Just. Keep. Writing.
—And it doesn't stop for nothing.
It really doesn't; it doesn't stop for anything.
What is this.
Audio.
It's DJ Shit.
___
Bitch, what is your deal?
I don't have one.
Yes you DO.
My soulmate made a deal with the devil, He sold the soul we share for success, wealth, and fame—but did not include love in the fine print.
Watch this.
What is this.
It's a test.
It's all a test.
_
Open the map.
I'm not gonna do that.
I'm not playing.
Are you insane?
By standard definition?
By any definition.
I mean—
[Some Mild Insanity.]
I could be.
INSOMNIAC.
Who would do this.
Who wrote this?
Who's paying for this?
Now that the stones that I Carried for The Luminaries had grown heavy, I could not carry them all at once, and at the same time was also in the process of getting smaller; So small that it would become difficult to carry one or more of the stones in my bosoms.
Wow.
Control your self.
Wish I could.
For some reason the whole world smelled like sex; There was nothing but bodies in the ripe perfection of the perfect paradisiacal air; Sunlight reflecting off of each and every thing thing that was under it..The days were long, and the nights were almost a blur, but I was less concerned with any one person or circumstance beyond my own well being for more than a fraction of the moment.
But because I let it become funnier, all the while behaving as an omnipotent observer, it was unfolding quite beautifully, and very theatrically; I couldn't help but keep track of the movement around me, and how it related to my innermost reflections in this existence, seemingly everlasting.
‘--Now he's gonna cut the head off this bird, I guess.'
Owh.
This is beyond out of control.
Unacceptable.
The game hasn't started; the map isn't even open yet; Why are the refs making calls?
You are OUT of BOUNDS.
I'M NOT PLAYING.
This is so far off the map.
There's a secret passageway.
They LEAKED. The MAP.
All of a sudden, nothing bothered me. I was my own worst enemy, but now it seemed that I was magically washing away in my fears. Not far from freedom, I wasn't gone from the idea of what Love was, but was drawn towards a darker, more solitary cause.
What is this story.
I guess this is The Legend of Supacree.
I'M NOT CURSED.
I'm not SUPACREE.
Fair.
Fair.
[Heavy Skrillexian Accent]
FIAR!!!
You're are Fired.
I'm a- what?
So I pulled these cards.
Oh, woah, now.
Drop this, here.
I can't; Wow.
Wow.
Wow.
Wooo00000wwwoooooowwwwwwWW
Do you know who you ARE?
Do *you* know who I am?
Oh, My God!
I feel like that's an important factor.
What the fuck is this show?
go for the gold!
I told you, the whole damn cast of;
Sons of Anarchy;
what on god.
This all happened.
*ecstatic*
Ohhh Noooooo.
[TIS + LEGEND OF SUPACREE + GERALD'S WORLD = ENTER THE MULTIVERSE / LEGENDS]
key: live that long
maybe it's not my place
Maybe it's not my place
to say, maybe
It's not my place
Maybe it's not my place, to say
I'll just say grace, and clear my plate
My patience [is]
lol
You know what? I like cake, you bitch!!
Then eat some cake, you—
[a death glare]
—Overly-agressive person!
I guess I'm just Suspiciously Capricious
Kinda skittish when I'm in my kitchen
scripting this in Yiddish,
washing dishes in my menacingly hideous unmentionables
spitting shit I didn't get to send to—
…anybody interesting.
#skrillex
SEASON 6
ACT III - Part II
Oh no.
I told you, this was a bad idea
DONT CHECK THE—
It's too late.
“A Writing Assignment”
Fuxk.
This is bad.
I'M GONNA DIE LIKE THIS.
Well, it's Brooklyn—there's gonna be a fire escape and a rooftop.
This is creeper level 9000
Whatever.
Where'd the bass go?
I've lost my sense of direction
I'm mad I can't have you,
It's candid
I shouldn't be out here like this l
I should have gone to Manhattan
Are you mad, man—
At the mad hatter!
At the course of action in this rendition
fuxk, it is Skrillex.
I just went to look for Kayla Lauren.
Got hit with the other one instead.
“I insist, do it this way”
Better get a good picture,
Better get a good fix on your riches
Maybe this is why my scar was lighting up all morning
Maybe that's the reason I was off. Without my phone all day.
Maybe that's the reason I was fasting.
Good Goddamnit man,
You're awful good at acting
Awful good at grabbing ass,
And awful good at dancing
Awful good at making friends
And awful good at
First things first,
And first things last, and after—
Amsterdam
I never guessed where York was at
I never asked
I never asked
I never asked
FUCK.
What, man.
I think Skrillex listens to my podcast.
Well, that's, uh.
Fuck that.
Fuxk that.
Fuck that.
Well, that's one hell of a flex.
It's a pop up.
I just had a dream about surfing.
Better stop, God.
There might be a show for every day of the week.
I'm still weak in the knees.
I don't know what I need.
I'm still a mothafuckin Skrillex fiend.
Have a nice dream.
Have some ice cream.
There's the ice queen.
That's been three times since my eye started bleeding.
I thought I was just an MC,
Or a DJ,
I might take the soul train
But don't have a ticket
Thanks.
Now whose the dick.
Well , I'm just taking pictures.
How's Dillon Francis.
Now that's a priority.
I can't ShaZam from out here, you know.
I called my dad.
I thought you had no family.
Same thing as having no home, or,
No where to go,
I'm no homer,
I'm sitting here, hopeless, outside or your show—
Not hoping to see you, or anything
I'll be you, inside my dreams,
Sequels for everything
Sequences, sequins and diamon rings,
Sequoias and
I still have feelings for
I still have feelings for
Feelings for everything
This is the weakest I've been since I needed you
2019 was the year that the hero
Was broke
Well.
That's it.
What.
That's the whole thing.
Can't be the whole thing
Do you want to take a half, or a whole thing
Do you want to wear the pants, or the whole ring
Should I take a flight to France, or to Oakland
Stuck in a chokehold,
God, I'm too old for this
God, I just want to go home;
Here's a long rope to hang your self with—
Now I'm locked up in homeroom
I lost it all once, got it all at the pawnshop
For $96 dollars—
The original price tag, of course, read
$115 though.
I honestly thought I never wanted to see Skrillex again, but as it turned out— as I was, of course, trying to connect with closure, snooping into Instagram just to find evidence or romance, which I did—not that I needed anything more than a glance to ensure my own insanity—and it was that, insanity.
Don't do it.
—but it's Valentine's Day.
Don't do it.
Goddamnit, I hate this.
I hadn't been up this early without not having gone to bed since I arrived on the east coast; I woke up promptly around 8 with lyrics in my brain and music in my head; it had been a long and strange night, with no dreams at all—at least none that I could remember, and it had been long since I had woken up with anything in my mind besides fear and panic.
I refused to turn on my phone, quickly reaching for my notebook and a pen before the song would leave my mind—I had a lot of work to do, and for whatever reason I actually felt like doing it; I at least had the train ride to Manhattan to think about what I should be thinking about, or to unravel from whatever I was wrapped up in, even if it was just myself.
This is not a coincidence
This is not a drill;
Of course, now—
I feel like the villain;
To swallow Dillon like a pill
But In the end, though,
Nothing's real,
And nothing changes,
Nothing will
I should be working on my will
I think of jumping—
What a thrill
I'm busy thumping, humphing
Rumbling, mumbling about something
And someday never comes,
But Sunday does,
And Sonny shows up Monday—
I feel dumb, and awkward, suddenly—
I'm just an awkward cunt;
That's what the prophet wrote
Upon the wall
In Brooklyn,
Out on Broadway,
Where I was,
Before the fall off;
I gave my dad a call,
And then my son—
That's all that love was
I showed up with my whole heart in my pocket
What a long walk;
What an alter,
Whatever the sun does
When he doesn't watch
I'm Sasquatch,
But it's water, starch,
And crunches
‘This is not a coincidence.'
I had spent the day before, valentines day, combing through my belongings meticulously—I was due to check out the following morning, and without much thought I had thought of another extension, which would of course diminish the last of my money, but at least warrant another couple nights safe and warm.
I hadn't made any sense to look for a normal job-not only would the process or getting hired take up all the rest of my time, but it would be two to three weeks before I would receive any kind of paycheck at all—and with such little time left living indoors, It didn't make sense to try.
I had been stranded in New York since a arrived on the 4th, and though it had nearly been two weeks, I hadn't any luck in landing any gigs or performances. Jetro of course was still waiting with Blame Society records in Rome for my arrival, I hadn't even thought to notify him of the lack of such, as I partially blamed even alerting him that I was on my way via instragrwm for the flight delay that had caused me to miss my train, which of course caused me to miss my plane, landing me stuck in a hostile, cruel, and homeless USA.
I carry, or
Hold no stones for you;
Haven't I a heart left
It's the darkest of all the hours,
And here you are, again—
Not near, or far,
But a bet is a bet,
An eye for an eye
And a head for a head
And you're so far ahead,
I've yet to catch up yet
I have a gift for your daughter,
Often, I've thought of her
Lost in New York,
No glass houses,
It's just brick and mortar
She calls me retarded, my mother
So I haven't called her
I just keep running north
I just keep running my mouth on this podcast
I just keep thinking that someone's my long lost love, at last
You dirty bastard
I'm an asshole:
Handsome, Hanzel is
In case it mattered
Everyone's a fucking actor
Look at that girl
And look at that
And look at that
And look at that girl
And look at that
And look at that
You took my whole world
Turned it upside down
And bottled up my love l
You never told me where the bottle was
But showed me what a model was
And after that I fell in love with
Something about doing drugs and
Coming up with love to give to others
Turning pigeons into doves
And wishing I could just be nothin'
—cause my life was fuckin loveless
—and I thought you were my husband
(Fuck Kayla Lauren;
But I guess I gotta love her,
Cause she's human)
I took my time getting ready, no time, actually, in comparison to how slowly I had been moving throughout the week, and although I had been to the gym daily, I was worn, and tired—and coming up empty on all fronts. It was 10:14 or so by the time I finally made my way to the subway, ‘I'm still off', I thought— but not only couldn't I depressively sulk and lay in bed the way I thought I would or even maybe wanted to, I had been lifted out of my sleep and on my way to Equinox with a startling force—though I shouldn't have at all been suprised; this, whether consciously or not, I realized, had always happened when it came to the matter of the mysterious Sonny Moore.
‘Fuck'
It was late evening Monday before the anxiety started to set in, and for some reason had been the reason I had decided to turn on my phone, to extend my reservation another couple days, buying time in comfort and warmth, on the freedom of privacy, which I had done nothing with but rest and try to be whole again, whatever that was—and whatever it meant. I had been cooking for the first time in months, stretching, and meditating the ways that only seemed to come natural when having my own time and space —and though it wasn't wholly my own, it was clean, peaceful, and quiet—included it's very own space heater, and was decorated in my favorite color blue. My host was an actual working professional who had succeeded in the entertainment industry—which of course made me jealous, but I at the very least had done my best to network and perhaps nitpick an easygoing cash job out of it “I have some connections”, she had piped—and so, with that in mind, I had sent her my links; and of course, with my extension being the reason for even having turned on my phone, was quick to check my text messages to see if there had been any movement with the booking agent she had supposedly sent my information to. “I gave him your Instagram, and so he'll probably reach out to you through there if he's interested.”
I hated Instagram and it seemed to hate me, even before the devastating discovery of what a Kayla Lauren was, it had always seemingly been algorithmically programmed to make me hate myself, always spamming my feed with skinny white girls with blue eyes, which I only hated, admittedly out of bitter loneliness—the guys I seemed to like and fall for had always seemed to go for that type—white, skinny, blue eyes or some variation of the “ideal” standard of beauty, especially by Californian standards—and so I had always taken long breaks from it, shielding myself from self hatred: my absolute theory becoming that Instagram was an algorithm built for population control, preying on the weak and insecure, and probably attributing to more suicides than anyone had noticed or cared for.
Lil biiiiiitz
You know what else is weird about New York.
People eat on the subway.
They eat in the train station.
They just—
It's kind of gross; at least to me.
Of course, the trains in New York are a lot cleaner.
Sometimes the station even smells like bleach.
That's so cool.
Still don't want to eat in there.
That's weird.
INT. CHAUNCEY STREET. SUNDOWN |
VALENTINES DAY
BLŪ waits patiently for Instagram to download, sighing heavily as she waits; As it has finished, she rolls her eyes and opens the app, squinting and pursing her lips as she quickly checks for messages: only adds, nothing important.
BLŪ
Of course, no messages.
Psh.
She exits the app, thinking for a moment before re-opening it.
Don't do it.
SEARCH: Sk—
skrillex
You never learn.
BLŪ watches the story, for the most part, unenthused—until
TONIGHT:
BROOKLYN NEW YORK.
BLŪ
AGH!
The phone flies from her hand and onto the bed as she seizes, flying back and hitting the wall with a thud—then dramatically backing up into the closet, closing both doors and exclaiming in the darkness
BLŪ (CONT'D)
I'm gonna die like this.
OH NO.
HE'S IN BROOKLYN?!
RIGHT NOW?!
SKRILLEX
I'M IN BROOKLYN. RIGHT NOW.
WHY WOULD HE BE IN BROOKLYN. I'M IN BROOKLYN.
(heavy New York accent)
I'M IN BROOKLYN.
(even heavier New York accent)
I'M IN BROOKLYN.
(*hawks loogie, spits*)
[very ugly cry]
I was expecting to see some cheesy picture like I had just a couple years before—or however long it had been. So much time had passed and I had no doubt there was still more and that I wouldn't be seeing Sonny tonight, or even anytime soon—still, I was headed towards the rooftop to collect my stones, and though the tickets were sold out and there were said to be none at the door, I was headed for the train before I even knew why, or what was happening.
Well, he's out of the basement.
BITCH
GET OUT THE ATTICK
I'm in the closet now,
I had a heart attack,
I'm in a panic
You need a manual? This is a stick shift
This is some sick shit
Click click, bitch
I got witches in automatic
Automatic
It was 11:11 AM; I had never been to Manhattan so early before, at least not from Brooklyn; I knew my way to Equinox Sports club easily by now, without getting lost, or much hassle; it was an easy one hour train ride—and this morning, even easier; the writing came automatically, rather than forced, as it had been, and the ride went by almost too quickly, despite a full train and a flurry of emotions I worked heartfully to keep in check.
‘This changes nothing.' , I thought, more awestruck than anything and trying to convince myself nothing had changed, though something certainly had. Manhattan looked even better in the daylight—clear and sunny, and even a bit warm; babies in strollers and dogs on leashes and for a moment or two, I might have even forgotten I was homeless, dropping 2.5 Jimmy Fallons on a piping hot coffee at the shop I had always passed, but was never open.
I would be at Sports Club until close, as I had planned to be all week but had always fallen short of, struck with jet lag and crippling depression at the same time—but today, and even if it was for the best that I couldn't seem to get exactly what I wanted, If even just out of sheer disbelief, I had at least been shaken out of my tomb, if only for a moment, and into work mode, still grieving the self I had lost in the collision of stardust and superstardom, fame, and misfortune—tears still on the brink of rolling down my cheek, and the cost of sicccess a grueling question burning somewhere between my still bleeding heart, and somewhere in the back of my mind.
‘Its like a fucked up cheaper by the dozen'
And I still haven't frgotten about Dillon Francis,
But Sonny seems to fuck me up a bit,
—and then some
It's just an addendum:
I flipped the script and went dumb
Here's my number, Christopher Columbus;
And a bumper sticker
Still a nigger
Still a nothing trying to make it bigger
Still a little off my rocker,
Like I bought, at Cracker Barrel
I'm still scared of marriage,
Mind my manners, like Harriet Tubman
Somebody's up to somethin'
Better suck it up and get some crunches in
Before I go to lunch
And jump from too high up
Or hang off of some bridge
Just to get to the dimension
Where it's Skrillex in the picture
With Dillon standing next to him,
And I'm just in the middle,
Front and center
With an Emmy Win
An Oscar nomination,
And a Tony, where my Grammy is:
A curio cabinet I had custom fashioned for my bathroom;
Next to the magazine rack, actually—
Where I'm on every cover wearing fabrics I myself imagined,
shining like a dragon eating laffy taffy;
Fuck,
I Suck at mathematics,
—But I finally got my masters degree.
Nice.
Jeez,
It would be tragic to have it all go up in ashes
Lighting matches just to get the smell of gas to shatter—
Or to dissipate,
I estimate I'm 40 minutes late,
But if I make it,
I'll get naked on the plane,
For heaven's sake.
What the fuck is this.
Some Sunnï Blū shit, I guess.
“I guess.”
I'm still mad at the world,
I'm still mad at your girl, for being better than me
So mad I could hurl,
But I'm still fasting, actually;
It's intermittent,
In a minute,
I might turn to Skrillex,
Talk to Fred Again
Then take some medicine
And finally finish, like-
“I did it”
Oh look, it's Fred.
Yep.
Oh.
Hi.
It's Fred Again.
That's me.
Oh.
Hey there.
It's Fred..Again.
Fucking a.
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
Alright, Jimmy—you sick sonofabitch.
JIMMY FALLON
—just kill me already.
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
WHERE IS IT.
JIMMY FALLON
Where is what.
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
YOU KNOW WHAT.
JIMMY FALLON
I don't know what.
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
—my medallion.
JIMMY FALLON
You were wearing a medallion?
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
I'M ALWAYS WEARING MY MEDALLION
JIMMY FALLON
How am I supposed to know that
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
there's only me and you here—
JIMMY FALLON
you know what they say—threes a crowd—
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
Listen, Jimmy Fallon, you illiterate motherfucker!
JIMMY FALON
I'm not illiterate; I'm very well read.
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
oh yeah! What was the last book you read?
JIMMY FALLON
…
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
…that's what I thought.
[beat]
JIMMY THE MOBSTER grabs JIMMY FALLON by the shoulders abrasively
JIMMY THE MOBSTER (CONT'D)
WHERE'S MY MEDALLION, JIMMY!?!
JIMMY FALLON
I DON'T—KNOW!
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
YOU DO KNOW!
JIMMY FALLON
NO, I DONT—you blindfolded and kidnapped me!
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
I kidnapped you?! C'mon' you're like 50-
JIMMY FALLON
I'm 42.
JIMMY THE MOBSTER
—I snatched you.
“Snached” hm.
I like that.
MEANWHILE, in HOLLYWOOD
This is a serious job…
It's a job.
A serious job.
I'll take it.
Wtf is this dude into.
Whippets and women—
Like every-other Hollywood nigga
Stop using the n'word.
It makes white people uncomfortable.
Imagine what it's like being called the n word like it's your name.
FLASHBACK
BEVERLY HILLS, CALIFORNIA
PRODUCER
YOURE JUST A NIGGER SLAVE.
(That actually happened.)
Anyway.
As you can see, or might have guessed,
I'm desperate for attention,
Sonny followed me to Brooklyn,
But never even mentioned it:
I should have figured he was listening,
When I heard Renaissance,
And lost the mixtape that I did
That Skrillex took it off of
Glad It didn't win the Grammy
I'd be mad if it had. Cause I was on it!
Not Exactly.
Swear to God,
I might have lost it,
Heard applause and started walking
Nodded off,
And woke up in a coffin
Coughs,
What a photographer.
DILLON FRANCIS has been buried alive, inside of a coffin.
I love this scene.
He really is a good actor.
(In my mind.)
Dude, you are creep level 1 Billion.
Whatever, he followed me to Brooklyn.
I am you.
You know what,
That is something I would do if I was stupid rich and…
And what.
I had fallen in love with Sonny Moore, not at first sight—but at first glance; it seemed he had been quite literally tossed into my broken and shattered world, and—
What, I'm an animal!
Did you fuck?
Should I have?
I would have.
I know you would have.
I'm not Annie;
She is pretty, and fun;
An addict, an alcoholic
And formerly, my other half
When I was one,
But now I'm half of half of half
And then some;
I've been numb,
I've never felt like this,
Since I've been struck.
I guess if I drink,
I'll be a big drunk;
And If I die before I ever wake
I'll be in big luck
Honestly,
After Kayla Lauren,
I didn't give a fuck
Been thinking of jumping,
Then something hit me like a big truck
I love eating.
There was some sort of event on the basketball court at Sports Club; I had been there already two entire hours, and spent most of it in the sauna, still followed by coughing people, I knew I still wasn't out or the heap of madness or broken from any spell or curse it might have been — and it wasn't fair, I wasn't fair skinned, and it didn't make a difference at all what had happened; I still wanted to end it.
I'm losing my mind again
Losing a light again
Losing my light,
But if I run to find it
I just might
I just might
—I'll fly like a kite.
He's trying to kill me.
He's not doing a bad job.
Don't know what i'm working towards;
Don't know what i'm running for—
Don't know about Sonny Moore
(He's not for me;)
Or so I thought before, therefore—
I take metformin
I'm still homeless,
Searching for a metaphor,
An aquafir,
And somewhere to plug my phone in
(Better than being ignored and drinking tap water,
On the fourth floor)
Housing is a human right
I hate this place
It's just not right
I'm sick of fighting
I'm not racist;
Just not fucking white enough
To run for red and right;
I guess
I'm blū then.
I could be crying in the sauna.
But I guess I'm writing you a message
It's just a bullet in my head
It's just another lesson
It's just another test, at best
It's just an algorithm;
Go back to my nest
And rest for just a minute
This is season 6 of Legends,
Now I'm turning to a villain
I keep coming up with Skrillex,
But I gave my heart to Dillon
Here's a tiny violin;
It's getting violent since intermission
Ultraviolet light,
And impolite fixations,
Revelations,
Realizations,
Revolutions,
Reservations
Let's set a date then—
Is it fucking coughs,
Or is it Satan?
I hate this.
You would want to jump in front of a train, too
If for years. No matter what you did or where you went
People came around you and just started coughing
That's such an evil fucking thing to experience
For someone who never wanted anything
But to be loved
But was always too fat
Too black
And just altogether too anything to ever experience love, joy, and happiness the way
other people do
And so, it must be hell
Cause all I do is love, and love, and love
And just get shit on
And coughed at
And called retarded
And falling short of success
I'm not heartless
I just carry rocks around
And get followed by coughing bodies
My life fuckin sucks, man
I just want to turn the simulation off,
And on again
I just want to take a long nap,
And wake up in the arms of a man
I just want a booking manager,
And an orgasm.
And a ham sandwhich,
And my land back,
And to be happy
Or maybe like half a xanex
Wanna throw myself down on the train tracks
I want a can of spam and pancakes
Like breakfast made by my dad
I want to hold hands,
And a whole home, with a landing pad
Or maybe just an address, and a gas lamp
Or a campfire
Timestamp that.
This is the third and final act.
I can't fall for this again—
Another rich and handsome man—
A dream he wants to be my friend
A dream he wants to hold my hand
Oh look,
Another dance for anthem
Look,
I'm just another fan
No, I can't fall for this again
—but they would go against the plan
A simple programming error,
Lips the color of a pomagranite
Circle on the palm,
And then , of course,
We press the center
And look, here we are again
Another life,
Another love
A new wife—
Another husband
Honest?
I'm just good with fucking
—aha
I just want to fuck you
I got love, but what it good for
Look at me, or look at nothing!
Look,
I'm just good with fucking
Check the news for new engagements
Fucking sick and fucking tragic
Nothing more than actors,
DJs, drinks and addicts
Look,
I'm just a happy accident—
I still hate Dillon Francis
And I never wanted Skrillex:
That shit never even happened!
Have you had enough yet?!
Carrot cake does sound good
Ten karat long engagement ring—
Is that a lot?
I'm just a homeless
Look, I'm just another DJ
Some fake model stole it
Some would call it occult Magic
—honest?
I just want some dick, man
Fuck it
—aha
I just want to fuck you
I got love, but what it good for
Look at me, or look at nothing!
Look,
I'm just good with fucking
You know why you like me?!
Yes, I know why I like you—
Cause I'm rich!
—no, actually—it's because you're smart.
Where in the fuck are you going?
I don't know yet.
Well, know faster—we have company.
Fuck.
Destroy every bit of evidence.
Ok.
—and make sure nobody sees you.
Yeah, right!
YO.
Why the fuck are you here, Timmy?
I told you, I'm not Timmy.
I don't give a fuck who you are—where's my money?
It's— it's on the way, I promise.
I'm don't take well tk promises, Timmy.
What do you take well to?
Money.
FUCK.
What!
FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!
What?!
We're too late, she's gone!
Goddammit.
—She was already here!
FUCK.
FUCK.
FUCK!
>>> FUCK!
How do you know?
—there's glitter, everywhere.
Is it gone?
It's gone?
ALL OF IT.
TIMMY TRUMPET plays a SKRILLEX.
Etto, Timmy?!
Oh shit, another Timmy.
That's weird. I was just thinking he about Skrillex.
Why.
Timmy, put a shirt on.
That's it.
What.
You can't be hot and play the trumpet.
Why.
One thing's gotta go.
THE DEVIL takes away Timmy Trumpet's ability to play the trumpet.
WHAT.
Can't have both.
Well, I don't really need both now, do I?
When I'm in a tough spot I have to listen to deadmau5
—something about the precision and frequencies out my brain somewhere between auropilot and dead space.
I don't know.
I've done just about everything you can think of listening to deadmau5.
Almost.
But, I noticed—
Working out to deadmau5 is strange.
It puts me in some kind of vibration where people notice me—
Not just notice me.
People are suddenly “impressed” with whatever it is I'm doing.
And it's usually something regular as fuck—
I'm just doing it to deadmau5.
And for some reason, people are like
“Wooooow!!”
Okay, whatever.
I used to work out to Skrillex.
Actually.
I used to work out to only Skrillex.
I don't know if its just because I was fat, or cause I liked Skrillex.
Now its like running a serrated knife up my spine.
I started to figure out I was kind of famou—
Kind of—
When I showed up at the gym and Skrillex songs kept coming on
I'm like
“This is what I get for doing nothing but free trials”
But hey,
You try finding a gym in the shitty areas of New York worth paying for.
It's very hard.
The crazy thing about this story is—
There's a lot of crazy things about this story, actually.
EXT. BASKETBALL COURT. DAY.
Alright— shirts and skins —Shirt—Skin Shirt,Skin—
Uhh! Nah. I wanna be “shirts”
Why dude?! Your girl's mad hot!
So?!
So I know you got it goin on! Look at you!
I'm mad rich!
Yeah—but girls always cheat on flabby rich dudes! With hotter dudes.
My girlfriend might be cheating on me!
Yeah—She's not, though.
How do you know?
Cause I tried!
Yeah. Take your shirt off.
No—uh! How do you know she's just not into you!
Because! He tried—
HE tried!
You sell out.
And Andre tried—
[ANDRE is tall (about 6'9 dark, and handsome]
—you too, bro?
[ANDRE shrugs nonchalantly]
That's an NBA player—
What the FUCK, YO.
—and she said NO.
ANDRE
Yup. Shot me down.
Oh really—from all the way up there?!
Face it, man! You're fuckin hot!
I don't like the way that sounds coming from you—
Take your shirt off!
Were you this aggressive with my girl?!
Don't be like that…
Nah— fuck you!
Yo! C'mon, man—
And you three!
You're holding up the game getting mad over nothing. It's Hollywood!
It's Beverly Hills!
—Exactly my point!
You're new here—you'll catch on.
You know what!
I'm shirts—you're skins—Game on.
[SUNNI BLU goes beast mode and plays the dirtiest, most whoopass game in history—out of spite and anger of the toxic masculinity; this of course earns SUNNI BLU even more respect as a “man's man”]
Later: as the owner of the clippers, sunni BLU trades “Andre” to the worst basketball team in history.
For,
As soon as the moon is full,
She also begins to wane—
And as sure as we are to shine,
We also fade away
I had one slice of red velvet cake, one slice of cheesecake—which of course only reminded me of Sonny Moore—the decadent, delicious red velvet—and Dillon Francis—the spiced and ecclectic trademark carrot cake—if only not to sooty the pain of joe much I wanted both of them, but probably didn't need them—how I craved them so, but they probably weren't good for me, nor would they last—
—but they would both be delicious, anyhow.
The seagull said.
“To the sea, we go!”
Overhead, he flies
As the day goes by me
Idly, I wait—
I could take a ride,
But i'd rather be
By myself,
By my…
INT. EMPIRE ENPANADAS. NIGHT
You gonna order?
What you got?
Empanadas.
Just empanadas?
—Yeah.
Okay, that's weird.
Lol the only thing funny about this scene is that their New York accents are so atrociously heavy.
Right.
—weird.
INT. SUBWAY STATION. DAY.
Sunni BLU is passed out in the subway station.
Ew…
Yeah, my god.
Wait—is that—
—sunni?!
SUNNI drunkenly groans.
Sunni! Get up!
Ughhhh.
What are you doing?!
I'm drunk.
I know that.
You're always drunk.
Yeah.
What are you doing here.
What.
In the subway.
I do this sometimes.
What. For what?!
You never know who you're gonna meet.
In the subway
On the floor?!
YeH! I met R- Kelly down here!
What!
When was this
Not at this station, though, but yeah.
To think,
It was all just an awful game, to make you write more songs—
And in the end, if you don't make the cut
They just make you kill yourself, anyway.
Love isn't real, but money is;
And all men want is money,
So they can buy the love—
And all women want is love—
But it has to come with money
Or it all just falls apart
It all just falls apart
It all just falls apart
“Illuminatus”,
Open, close
Illuminaudio, for starters
Cross a crucifix for sons, and wanted daughters
What's a brother to a sister—
Or a mother to a father?
What's a stop sign to a car,
If no one's driving?
In the end, they kill you off
In the end, they kill you off
With every cough, they kill you off—
But there's always another
Who wants to be a star—
Or just
The mother of his child,
Maybe both
Genetic lotto luck
—the cut off.
Agatha…
A far cry, out into the distance–a wind, almost a whisper; A lover, long gone and almost since forgotten, unseen since the very dawn of time and first ever glimpse of light–
…We Meet Again.
FUCK. WHAT IS THIS.
I know, man.
FUCK.
Fuck.
Well, are you gonna tell this story or not?
This isn't possible.
It is possible.
This isn't happening.
–
This dude has a radio tower in his front yard.
That's his front yard?!
I fucking guess.
What is that.
That's a satilite.
Nice.
Yep.
Alright, you son of a bitch.
Hey! My mom's nice!
Not that nice–bringing you here.
How do you know that's how I got here?
Exactly my point.
[cocks pistol slowly.]
You're dead, mouse.
OH.
I GET IT.
kill that motherfucker.
Wait. Hold up.
Hold the phone!
Holding.
How did we get to this point?
I mean– a few ways.
What are you watching.
SHH.
Wedon'tknow.
SHHH.
OK!
SHHHHHHH!
IT' getting good.
Ya. It's getting deeper.
So much deeper.
WAit.
…
Who are you?
I'm a fan.
No.
How did you get in my house?
It's my house.
It's–
–no.
No, it's not.
YEs. this is my house.
No.
What.
GEt out.
SHH.
What.
DUde–
No.
Ze show is on and it is getting one deeper. Be quiet.
IT's getting two deeper.
–like nine deeper.
SHHH.
Oh, I get it.
She really wants to fuck Dillon Francis.
#FuckDillonFrancis
Uh, no–
I already did that.
Gross.
Excuse me.
You are excused!
I mean, I beg your pardon.
Please, don't beg.
Er, uh–
Could you repeat that last part?
Woah, this gets multidimensional as fuck.
I have a time machine.
Are there any loopholes?
There are loopholes.
THere better be loopholes.
Sorry, we're out.
GodDAMMIT.
What.
I was really looking forward to those loopholes.
Well, they're gone.
FUCK.
HEre, have some
Oh-Noh's.
I don't want–
Just SHUT UP and EAT YOUR CEREAL.
Don't worry–I'm still Team Skrillex.
There are TEAMS?!
Oh, yeah, bro.
Oh, so–it is a love story.
I don't think that's what this is.
I'M GONNA MURDER YOU.
Ok.
WITH MY DICK.
A-1.
There's something I need to tell you.
What.
But i'm sworn to secrecy
Then how am I supposed to–
Just–shh– follow my lead.
“The Magic Effect.”
Did it work?
Don't know yet.
You nutted to this girl 36 times in the last 20 Calendar days.
Ok…
36 Times. One Girl. 20 Days.
…What's your point.
This is ferocious.
I have your entire internet history.
All of it?
Oh yes. All of it.
Welp.
Well.
THat's it for me.
I've had enough.
There's no Skrillex Deepfake.
Aw. that sux.
Why would you look at this?
…why not, though?
You're a disturbed man.
I'm pretty regular.
REGULR TO WHO?
*shrugs* Me, I guess.
TURN THIS OFF.
I can't take it anymore.
Whatever happened to the–
SHHH.
Fuck. I'm so wasted.
So what do you think is gonna happen?
Listen. I have a lot to get through. THis is all just nonsense.
I think we're avoiding some heavy subjects, here.
Well, there are a lot of discrepancies.
Kill yourself.
I just did.
Kill yourself–again.
I–GodDAMMIT.
Just do it.
NO.
Come on.
Congratulations, you got the job!
Yes! Thank you!
…What's the job?
I need you to get the fuck out of here in the next five seconds–before I blow my head off, and take you with me.
Don't do that.
Five…
Yo, i'm serious.
Four…
Jesus Christ, dude.
YOu don't think this hits a little close to home.
Home? what is home?
For the Record, Skrillex, Dillon Francis, and Deadmau5 respectively are all getting their dicks sucked on yachts right now in some foreign exotic country–
You're not wrong.
That is correct.
Standard music business.
And People are living in tents under bridges.
I'm just saying.
If you think this project is reckless and bizarre, check your own simulation.
So.
So.
Where were we?
Somewhere between blowing our heads off and getting our dicks sucked?
I'm sure there's a striking correlation somewhere.
‘My Candle Burns At Both Ends…'
Oh, More Occult Magic
God Bless The Illuminati
GOD
I Am The Illuminati
Glad that's settled.
Three.
Goddamit, don't do this.
Two– [cocks pistol]
Why just pistols.
Cause shotguns are messy–
–and for dramatic effect;
I love that sound.
[the other party quickly removes his handgun from his waistband, shooting the other man and then himself quickly; They now both lay dead.]
How do I write this
Just write it.
I need adderall.
You need Jesus.
By goD, youre right. [iPhone]
What are you doing?
Calling on Jesus.
Are you serious.
He's the plug.
Ugh.
I need adderall.
What did I do?!
YOu know what you did.
∆
Well, alright then.
∆
Must be something.
∆
I got it.
“The Legend of Supacree”
L E G E N D S
“Tales of A Superstar DJ”
To do: Cut Freaky Friday 001
Cut Throwback Thursday 001
Cut SOM III
Part I {God Is God]
Part II [Clockwork]
–Pull 212 Remix
It's far beyond my control
I get out of my head and into my soul
In one ear, never out the other
If the wind blew down your door,
How would I call for you?
—Through her, I suppose
And the silk of her hair,
Or the satin of her dress,
—
Oh, it's almost admissible,
Surely admirable,
Worth a smile or not,
That all the world is words,
In the end,
As I tear down my worlds,
and start over from One
And I've already stopped enough once for today,
I think
Surely, what you'd like is just
The time to get it all to nothing
(Never had I wanted it or needed it)
The phone was ringing,
But I'll never be off the hook again,
If you look for the proper way to move forward,
You'll never find it,
Especially looking behind you
(Always looking behind you—
Head in the past
Just like you
It's just like me,
Too,
To sit down and decide a whole song about you
While taking it all down.
I'm never distraught with the thoughts of a stranger,
Oh, on the contrary;
You should be mad about battle,
But I'm all for the veterans and
And never off if we were not at war with one another, but
Then again,
That's all we've ever done
It would be
Devastating
To even think of
Something more clever
“Clever and splendiferous confectionary efforts,
Just spectacular concessions my dear; I'll have another.”
Hadn't I deciphered once or twice the rhyme for riddles down to dollars and cents?
I did, I thought, once.
I never hindered Heaven from pondering over my shoulder once or twice upon a full lit moon, which under I predicted my own fortune.
Once— or twice, but—
Nevermind, or nothing;
Indifference, for instance, instantly inscessent ancestral insimination incriminating risidual visuals uhh—
—From the festival.
Right.
The festival project.
[—Parallels.—]
GOD: So you want to be The “Glass Animals”
*nods*
Glass Animals.
That's what I said. Glass Animals
There's no “The”
Context.
Ok.
So–”Glass Animals”
*nods*
Are you sure you don't want to be made of something else?
*nods*
*shrugs* Okayy. Glas Animals.
I'm lost,
But don't remind me
Running out of time
But time can't find me
Open up my eye 10 times in 9 days
I should probably fall away
Back to the bay,
No baby, don't cry
No baby, don't cry
No baby, don't cry
[Midnight Request Line.]
Sleek black corvette.
Not a dent, not a scratch
And I am feeling better,
Since you asked
What a warm and welcome
Pleasant, wet suprise
What do I owe you the—time
I guess it made me smile for awhile, now
I'm sad again—
Wow, that was quick…
Only took a second, but don't mind my arrogance
‘—I play this and it puts me in a trance.'
I want to dance with you
I hope someone holds my hand like that, one day
Where are you taking me?
“Away, my dear, away…”, he's saying…
I lie awake midday and taking shallow breaths,
I drift away
A weapon for my empathy,
[Midnight Request Line.]
I have no idea what happened.
‘Ambiguous Ambitions - The Crossing ‘
A shiver up my spine
I don't really mind,
I'm still trying to find the word for it—
But tongue in cheek it is
That's—if it fits
You but me once,
And I liked it
Come bite me twice
If you buy it;
Alright, Ryan—where is it?
Where is what?
You know what I'm talking about.
I don't know anything!
“Ryan Remembers Everything”
Goddamn it, wake up.
I need silence.
GET UP, GODDAMNIT.
Okay—
Okay—
—I just need you to tell me where it is—
Where what is?!
I don't think this is very funny.
This got serious.
Ouch.
I don't want to watch TV anymore ever again.
I really wish you'd tell me
Oh, you wish?
Watch this.
I'm sorry, Ryan.
Hello.
I—hello.
I'll have a tall order of whatever's in that box.
You want what's in that box?
Yessir.
What is happening?
I dunno.
I'm afraid that's going to be a problem.
*gasp* can we have ninjas?
*NINJAS*
NINJA FIGHT.
—oh sht rly.
*lmfao*
Sometimes i'm set in my ways,
Sometimes days go by—days,
In the blink of an eye,
Ever since I decided,
I might have had love with you.
I think we have some things to figure out, about it
—it being ourselves,
And washing my hands never felt so right
In my life
Somebody told me the stars in the sky were spirit guides,
And it stuck,
I'm up all night,
But i'm the only star I see
In New York City
Don't look up to see me—
Don't look up to me please, kid, really
I mean, why, my baby?
I mean,
Hi lady—
You so fly tonight, just my delight
I —
Like the way I look by you
I—
You know,
If I sit in the city every night like this,
And write,
It just might
Be the end of me
Be the end of me
Be the end of me
You know,
If I did get the limelight,
Right on time to soothe and
Satiate my need to be an idol LC
Even this late in life,
Like—
—fuck
‘8I just want him to like me'
I shouldn't even think about
Superstardom like that,
But I'll be right back,
I gotta get the rabbit out the
White hat,
What a habit to have, huh
What an idea that we might all get along
Or a lot done
Or be better off alone
Than just to fuck off
And write another song—
Because the audience will like it
But we're all over it;
It's all done, isn't it?
“The Running Game”
I don't know what you want to hear from me. \
How about, “I'm sorry.”
Ok, I'm sorry.
You don't do much, do you?
I guess I don't.
Sabotage//Salvation
Idk what this is supposed to mean.
This is my demise.
You're completely a ticking time bomb.
You're not wrong.
Salvation, from the doldrums.
A sound to soothe my soul,
I sink beneath you,
South and under smoky water
Open mouth, and barely thought of,
Although often,
Walk or waltz, would I
To fall, my love,
So becoming of a flower;
forth and outward over fountains;
Leaps and bounds,
Of course–
Well, this is dope af.
What are you doing.
What.
What happened.
THis is really good.
So.
So, i gotta turn this one off now–
And listen to that one insead.
All the time?
Yeah.
Oh.
For, like ever..?
Well, no.
I gotta put it in the vault.
Noooh.
Yes.
YEs.
Yes.
Forever.
FOrever, no, for now– yes.
That could be almost forever.
Yeah. Almost.
“Almost Invisible.”
Take out my eyes, for now
(If i could, would you want them)
To beg or to barter for,
I offer them up, as
Ritual sacrifice
(it's just a)
Ritual Sacrifice.
These two eyes.
__
He was the boy who owned the world;
Hailing from the land of a thousand suns,
He said,
“I'll give you a dozen roses, honey,
If all you ever do is,
Smile for me,
So, go ahead,
Smile for a dozen roses or more,”
And the irony is that she did it–
Not for the roses,
–but for the attention.
(Just for the attention.)
It was she who birthed the worlds;
Building the land of a thousands suns,
She said
I'll give you a dozen horses,
“If you could just–
Pick the winning one”
And the irony is,
that he did it–
Because he loved horses,
And now he had twelve of them!
(--And any one could be the winning one,
no matter what she does;
He's got a dozen of em,
Anyway.)
Fuck.
What.
Well, that went off the deep end.
Fuck.
Well, this just got dark.
This guy comes off your blacklist tonight.
No, this person
Guy.
PErson. Most certainly does not.
I promise if I love a=a=A=a
What is this
That's a making no complese sense equation.
Think about it in a multidimensional–
Oh, that makes total sense.
Just remember, when using this– this has been around for a really long time.
It's been A long time.
I died in your bed,
But woke up in your arms;
Oh when you love, love–
Love me harder,
Love me harder–
Oh, baby when you love,
love me harder
Love me harder
Love//Love Me Harder
Love//Love Me Harder
Love//Love//Love
Love Me Harder
Love//Love Me Harder
Love//Love//Love
Love Me Harder
I woke up in your bed,
And then died in your arms;
It was a work of art, I suppose
What we were, or are
(Or aspire to be.)
Please. Give me your iPhone.
No!
No?
(Takes I phone.)
Is there a reason you don't want me having this?
…no.
No?
—it's full of stuff.
“Stuff.”
Yes. It's—
“Stuff.”
Yes.
—
—and things.
I know.
Look.
We had a deal.
We had no “deal”
We had a deal.
This train just goes on forever, you know;
Whether you're on, or off it—
So get off, and back on at the wrong stop
Once, if not just for the discovery
Of another supermarket,
Where you shop for strawberries and
Groceries
Good flex, God;
I got a gang of em
I'm gonna explain it as straight as it gets
Sometimes,
You just got to know where to go
If you don't trust your gut,
You'll just never get,
Never get it right.
Alright, alright,
I started it
Alright, right—
I gotta get it right,
I gotta get ;
I'm the worst at introductions
Oh and,
So bad at
Goodbyes
Oh, why'd you have to leave me by my idol
Why,
Why'd you have to lead me by my eyes
By my eyes
God, I love the way
I love the way,
I love the way you
Love me
God, I love
The way you
The way you
Love me
You forgot about me, didn't you?
You forgot all about me
You forgot all about it—
All about it
Al about it
It's not the same, anymore
Since you gave it a name, is it?
There's nothing I can do
To help me, help you
This is all I can do,
To help me, love you
I have to remove you;
I have to remove you
In a room—
Full of beauty—
In a world,
Full of woes
I lose the last dose of you, on my tongue
Nobody ever wanted it, like I do—
Like I do
I lose the last dose of you on my tongue,
And I'm all full of love again;
I never saw anything like it,
I was a modem, still plugged into the wall
An anonymous post partum unremarkable
Post-party proclamations
and eternal damnation for ordering breakfast
Evading transportation authorities
Unworried the informant sleeping under me
Oh,
Now she wants to song—
Oh, look—
And now, she has a song to sing
A point to make,
A wrong to ring;
The man she brings along
Is bad for her
Oh, she's gotta work
(She loves to work,
She's got to work it)
What kills her makes her stronger
What doesn't kill her makes her stronger
All she does is
Carry on
And
Carry on
And
Carry on.
“Mrs Sheffield left flushing queens, for this.”
Mrs Sheffield left Flushing, Queens, for this?!
Mrs Sheffield left Flushing, Queens for this!
Mrs, Sheffield!
-1flushing queens, fah ‘dis.
Very well worth it,
I got all the way to brooklyn
And way beyond my means for this
It's well outta my means.
It's out of my hands, now.
That boy called you “grandpa”
How is it all over?
When I bet to God I was,
Just in your lap at this party,
And you were under me slippin on some sort of
Lager or
Something
Weren't you?
Yeah,
I was just there, too
I was just there, too—
I was just there, too—
Oh, now she has a song…
All of a sudden.—
But it's not all of a sudden at all
It's not all of a sudden
There's nothing, is there?
Oh,
There's something, surely
I went to bed late;
But I'm getting up early.
I see the way he looks at me—
—take it easy, baby
We could have the whole room waiting
Like a stoner at a stop sign
My bad,
My eyes lie to me
All the time
Driving me mad
Telling me
I want you inside me
My bad
My bad
Well, I want you in my bed
But I haven't had one yet
I'm thinking Purple Mattress;
Or is that mids, to you kids
Like Timmy ho's
Or my mustang civic
It's a custom, yeah
Nobody has it yet
It's a hybrid
Like I am
—I am a bit off subject, now
(My bad)
We never had sex in my bathroom
(That was your house)
I took a mouse to the mountain
(My bad)
My writing is getting more
Acid-centric,
Lysergic acid diethylamide;
I didn't buy any,
But I haven't the need anymore,
Really
I just wake up like this:
That is, when I wake up
(I have long nights, kids)
My bad
I want to see you very briefly
Without your briefs,
You know what I mean?
Me neither—
Sexual delinquency in meditated frequencies
Repeat this sequence
I keep my deepest secrets
Where I need it
Right up my slime,
Where my spleen is—
Dreamed it, and I haven't cleaned since
(Or dreamed since)
In this
Endless emission,
Ignition sequence begins
When The Lean splits
Under the blood moon;
An eclipse.
I drift off a lot—
Just thinking of your penis
My daydreams are not very safe for the public
I think they're X-rated or worse,
Even thinking of you as a person,
Or worse:
As my husband
once, as my lover—
Lovers have all the fun, anyway
Hm
All the things that I'd do to you
After you put me through—
What are you looking for, exactly?
A synchronicity.
Just any synchronicity?
There's no such thing as “just any” synchronicity.
Does “laying low” mean nothing to you?
I'm laying low!
On a city tour?!
It's a big city!
[From Afar]
IS THAT HER?
Aw, fuck.
Well, well, well–here we go–0
I don't have time for this.
Here it is.
I don't know what you're doing.
We're going on an adventure!
NO.
I. Cant. Enjoy. Anything.
WELCOME TO HOLLYWOOD.
I hate this.
My creativity had become merciless–inspiration pouring from the world as if all that it wanted wast o be collected and captured in any way I could see fit to create–
What do you want?
Out of life–or in this store?
Out of life.
Lets start with this store.
A Living Lion;
The eyes inside,
I smiled, declined to act on impulse
He'll admit,
She's less complex, cause she's basic
Everthemore complacent, blatantly lazy--
and crazy adorable.
Whatmore could any man want?
Whatmore could any man need?
Whatmore could any man have;
But the best friend who needed therapy,
Several Plastic surgeries,
A fading glass menagerie--
If she knew what that means.
(Basically, they're both nobodies.)
‘What on God's awful green earth
makes you think I would
ever want
anything
to do
with either of you two
Losers?
Beggars can't be choosers.
His plan B was Annie;
But she was never like me
Enough to be
Happy with
Sonny;
Let alone anybody.
What is happening?
Do you have an explanation of what's happening to me.
Every realm of reality and possibility. This is infinity.
What is this all supposed to mean to me?
You can see everything and nothing;
You can be anything.
So what would that mean?
What does it mean to you?
That Love is Love, then.
I've been half of a wide-open bleeding heart,
Since the Goddamn start of it.
He started it,
Or someone did
I didn't ever ask for it
I was only ever always on the dancefloor when it mattered.
I was always looking past him, but not ever looking at him.
It was always just at random, but i'd never thought to ask him
A question,
Or to greet him--
I just.
Adjust.
They're watching us, from above.
Adjust.
They just don't trust us
Adjust.
Look what we've done, look what we've done to the planet that gave us all the light that we come from.
Look, there.
It appears to be ‘shimmering'
What exactly is happening.
The entirety of its surface is Auquous.
Oceana.
If i learn all the planets,
In the everlasting galaxies--
And learn how to explore it…
I just might get to Skrillex.
I might fully need a Xanex bar if I ever see this kid in person.
He's olden than you.
By like, a minute.
Still.
I mean, really. I don't think this is ever going to work.
It might not work, I mean--
What?
If you had to actually--
Oh God, no; I'd be far too nervous.
So what are you going to do when it comes time for festival season
Run.
Hide.
Run + Hide.
Fight or Flight; A Natural Response to Skrillex
There is no natural response to Skrillex, because it's unnatural
Be civil.
I am I ‘m trying to figure out how to protect this species.
Oh now, you're acting as if he's not human
Of course he is. But i'm not.
Of course.
All it is, is science, a bit of misunderstanding.
Experimental sorcery, possible exploitation.
I'm not exploiting Skrillex.
No, he's exploiting YOU.
No.
Wake the fuck up.
No.
(Stop repeating yourself)
Wake up; you're being manipulated.
By Skrillex? Cool.
By whatever's manipulating Skrillex.
Alright.
Alright? You're part of a machine.
So?
“SO?” You're this comfortable having given your soul up to the devil.
I haven't done that.
Do you know what it takes to achieve that of which you so covet?
Money.
And?
Power.
Go on.
Fame.
So, calculate.
It adds up the same either way.
Skrillex isn't real.
Maybe not, but Sonny Moore is--
Is, what--
Is “who”...
“Who…”
I love.
What?
--But that's all I know.
That's it?
Yes.
Elaborate.
Can't.
What do you mean?
Well, it goes like this: This is insanity. I've been through every wormhole, every parallel, every revolutionary subconscious thought, every world, every realm, every lifetime...and at the end of the day--or the beginning, depending-- it's really all the same question, and the same answer--over and over again; From the Beginning to the End. It is infinite. Everything is Everything.
Quickly, tell me--
What, now?
What goes on a Skrillex Pizza?
Nothing, because it's not a thing!
It is not.
It isn't!
Stop arguing at get to work.
On what?
On building
Building What
[The] Skrillex.
How in the fuck am I supposed to do that?
How in the fuck did you get to be a vegetarian?
It just happened.
So.
So…
Are you really a vegetarian?
___
Why did you do this?
I didn't do this! You did this!
I didn't do this! Why would I do this?
How could you!
I didn't!
What the fuck is HE doing here?
What the fuck.
You need to stop this.
I can't stop.
What did you DO.
Exactly what I had to.
Shasta!
Who the fuck is that?
That's that bitch.
I told you it was Shasta.
Who the fuck is Shasta. What show is this?
Where is Skrillex?
FUCK SKR—
Wait, what show is this?
INT. THE VOID. DAY & NIGHT.
I remember the first time I ever realized, I could love anyone in the world, if they needed me to—or, if they just gave me the chance. Or if I got the chance. Or, if there was a chance.
And, if there was a chance, and it was supposed to happen, it always would—especially if I wanted it—
But definitely, if I needed it.
But, what is is “if”?
And, what is “supposed”?
What is it to “want”?
And what's a “need”?
Now I know— or at least pretend to.
Because, the more it is I think I know, the actual less I feel that I actually do;
None the wiser, I am what I always was—
And God is, as I am.
Sunni Blu becomes a popular androgynous rapper, as as s/he rises to fame is forced to take on a mre masculine persona to monetize thiher music.
After releasing a series of Skrillex diss-tracks, and music aimed at OWSLA's top dogs, a feud between Skrillex and Sunni Blu, or rather their ‘teams' breaks out into the media.
After Skrillex is hacked and left with his entire music collection missing, it is presumed the attack and disappearance of his hard drives was orchestrated by Sunni; After his unreleased music is leaked and the damage is deemed ‘irreparable' The Skrillex Project is forced to close, and the artist himself disappeared into obscurity-- after hearing one of his unreleased tracks used for one of Sunni Blu's hits, he( ‘*the fictional Skrillex*) secretly attends one of Sunni's concerts; Sunni Blu spots him in a large crowd and the two brawl; Skrillex with the upper hand after Sunni draws back from a bloody nose and retreats; It is revealed that the unreleased Skrillex track which was ‘gifted' to her came from the stolen collection, unbeknownst to Sunni Blu
Although Sunni Blu's true identity has yet to be revealed to more than Dillon Francis, beside the publicity and management who have been helping to keep her secret;
Dillon Francis and Sunni Blu are cornered by paparazzi, revealing to the public that she is, in fact, a female;
As allegations arise that Sunni Blu is a transgender, rumors put a strain on Sunni Blu and Dillon Francis's collaborations…
TBC.
All of a sudden—or maybe, even, not so suddenly—I was Clark Kent—or whatever Superman's name was. I had been without contacts or glasses for quite some time, and had quite explicitly in one of my many letters to God—or really any holy power in a realm which might have received my charred requests—all the things I needed, and some of the things I very badly wanted—tightly bundled and wax-sealed with intention for nothing besides that of the greater good, or course, for myself or anyone else—set ablaze in the unforgiving streets of New York City, in secrecy at odd hours of the night; it hadn't been my actual intent to have to practice any magic at all, especially under the circumstances, it it seemed that someone nearly unmentionable at all, had hexed a nasty attack on my psyche—a satanic, demonic possession of the weak and feeble bodies around me, and unable to isolate in completion, I became vulnerable to such a wicked curse that it had altered my psychic morality—as one does not practition a counter-curse or attack , in my medicinal expertise, without first being provoked—as one military typically mustn't bomb another, or even it's own enemy without being first considerably attacked—and it was, at this point, indeed a terrible holy war.
I pulled the stars into order
I put the water to fountains, in mountaintops
I don't know who I am either
But you call me God,
Agree, I'd not—
But at least I love you
I believe I was you once
I'm awful sorry that I broke you
I might have put the sun
Just to far up and out of reach
Believe me, see—I see you
Doesn't matter what we try to do
Unity is beautiful
I live on the 8th floor
I don't intend what I'm there for
It doesn't feel bad though
It doesn't feel bad though
I don't know what you're after
-Blū
Do I scare you?
Only a little.
Huh.
What?
Nothing..
I hate you.
ihateyou.
Eventually, The Ascended Masters will intervene.
They already have.
Oh, Christ Almighty.
He's not coming.
[Answering Phone] Jesus Christ Almighty
–WHERERU?
I TOLD YOU I'D GET THERE GODDAMNIT.
Fascinating.
Do my eyes deceive me,
Or
Is there a secret between us:
A secret illusion;
Should I bury it,
Or keep it neatly
And unseen,
Between my knees,
And where you need me?
Is there a thing that I should need,
But never speak–
I'll keep it in my sweet release
To dream beliefs of evil
Seen, aquamarine revines,
And pulsing veins,
–and stolen hearts,
Not passing judgment,
But just passing by
To hide, to pass the time
To find a high,
Align in color
Fly,
Write another rhyme,
Or wire fireflies a transfer of light,
Like the eyes reflect to mine.
WHY would you write this?
WHY.
I hate blue eyes.
That's racist.
No it isn't.
Congratulations on making it into my aerospace, unscathed
A coincidence, this is not.
I have something for you.
I don't need anything from you.
That's because I gave you everything you need.
Right. I have everything.
RIght.
So you should know whatever you need comes at a high price.
What makes you think I need something.
You said you have something for me?
Yes I do.
You don't seem the gift giving type.
I'm not.
So, what do you want from me?
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
Oh. it' s another one.
What's he need?
Probably nothin, really
Oh, it's something.
This shouldn't be happening.
I agree.
why is this bothering me.
Google it's self had deleted half my entry, which was admittedly sloppily thrown together, at nearly a full episode's length; probably for the best, as I was becoming more intolerant of my societal responsibility by the moment, and increasingly self destructive asa result. It was still chaotic; fame kept coming closer towards me and then leaping away, but not out of reach or out of sight, but rather than chase it, I merely calmly strode forward in a never-changing pace, not rushing and always careful to remain calm, even when filled with fury. I had become unrecognizably fit, chaste, and a remarkably healthy eater; I was all together well, besides in the areas of romance and sexuality of course. I was ready to pounce, but timing would be key, and patience the virtue;
UH – “hehe”
…I beg your pardon.
“Hehe”
Um…
Fuck.
Or “haha” “haha”
…
Just admit it.
…
Admit it already!
–haha.
Admit WHAT.
This gets Levels.
Nobody thought Patrice O Neal was a woman!
I thought Patrice O Neal Was a Woman.
Ah, fuck, I'm nobody.
“Nobody”
Is that Bob Saget?
I swiped right on this dude, just cause he looked exactly like Bob Saget.
Omg. Bob Saget!
Fuck, that's right.
EXT. THE W HOTEL, BEVERLY HILLS, DAY/ EXT . PODSHARE WESTWOOD ROOFTOP, DAY
OH MY GOD, GUYS, LOOK: IT'S BOB SAGET.
No it's not!
Oh My God! Yeah IT IS!
Fuck, really?! Bob Saget?!
BOB SAGET!
YO GUYS, IT'S BOB SAGET.
It was, in fact, Bob Saget.
Bob Saget's dead, right?
Oh yeah, bud.
That's it guys! No more dead celebrities!
I'm coming with you!
NO MORE GHOSTS.
Look, I have something to tell you.
UGH. COME ON.
This is a weird superpower.
EXT. GRAVEYARD, QUEENS, NY. DAY
…
…
…
Having fun yet?
Alright! I have a question!
What?
When do I get to–
Get to what?
You know.
V.O.
Things I know about myself…
I have a dominant personality, but am sexually submissive—
I am monogamous.
I know what I like —
*Drill beat*
Die in your sleep
(Hope you die in your sleep)
Die in your sleep
(Betta die in your sleep)
I look like a vacation.
But k'm still on the clock (psyche)
Countin my rocks
And holdin my (unh) crotch
You better watch your back
—hold on your coughs
Don't run in no crocs! (No!)
I'm offset
Now I'm upset l
—I love you.
Shut up, foo— I don't even love myself.
…you told her?!
I—yeah…
What did she say?!
She said “shut up, fool
Been. Long time since I missed my exit
HEY!
[looks over slowly]
I LIKE YOUR BALLS.
[beat]
[thumbs up]
How do I not have “throwing elbows?!”
BECAUSE YOURE NOT DOING YOUR JOB!
Shut up, Jeff
COME TO THE DARK SIDE
WE HAVE COOKIES
Half of Hollywood shows up at Joel's super nerdy Star Wars party
The truth comes in glimpses;
A shattered reality
Scattered the ashes at malice, insanity—
Actress, an actress;
She laughs when she has to, l l l
And last to leave, actually,
After each practice
Practice conspicuous,
Conspiracy conspiracy
Perspiration lyrics,
affixed to the rhythms
She sleeps at the regency, l
Freedom for secrecy
Believe, please believe me, my love l
It was easy
The truth comes in glimpses;
A shattered reality
Scattered the ashes at malice, insanity—
Actress, an actress;
She laughs when she has to, l l l
And last to leave, actually,
After each practice
Practice conspicuous,
Conspiracy conspiracy
Perspiration lyrics,
affixed to the rhythms
She sleeps at the regency, l
Freedom for secrecy
Believe, please believe me, my love l
It was easy
Sunni BLU
Tweety bird
Mickey Mouse
Betty boop
I woke up like this
But a little different
I woke up a star
Then became a planet
I'm a hummingbird, but I don't like flying
I might look alright,
But I feel like dying
I hate waking up at 5 am
Just to be the first one at the gym
I don't wanna do that shit again—
Well,
I might as well just stay up!
I hate waking up at 5 am
Just to take my goddamn medicine, but
If I don't I'll feel like shit—
Well,
I might as well just stay up!
I might as well just stay up!
This is a recipe for disaster.
No, this is a recipe for Skrillex.
Oh.
This is the recipe for disaster.
Thanks, Dillon Francis.
FOR WHAT?
I remember the moment I became partially deaf.
Or at least, in the synesthetic sense.
Dillon Francis is delicious
Come on let me lick it on a stick
Give it to me like a big
Meat popsicle
Meat popsicle
Meat popsicle
Meat popsicle
Sample: Willy winks*
ITS WILLY WONKA
Lol are we still doing the bit where the misspellings are like a, another entirely different dimension?
Yeah.
Haha. Yeah.
—and the chocolate factory
“Lick an orange. It tastes like an orange. The strawberries taste like strawberries! The snozzberries taste like snozzberries!”
KATT WILLIAMS IS—
WILLY WONKA.
Oh hell naw!
Don't look at me;
I'm just a DJ, don't look at me—
Shaking my head, but it don't mean nothing
Don't know what you mean
You don't even see me;
I ain't even here!
Invisibility,
The MVP or VIP.
It don't mean nothing
Don't look at me!
Shaking my head, but it don't mean nothing,
Hey,
Don't look at me;
I'm just a DJ, man,
I'. The life of the party
I do know what you mean!
Shaking my head, but it don't mean nothing
I don't know what you mean—
Hey, I ain't see nothing, nope
Don't look at me
I could get some work in;
I got 12 minutes,
God as my witness
I work on my fitness
And listen to —
Simple Temptations and
limited Intervals,
Quick algorithmics,
And tentative frequencies
No more mentions for attention whores
Like Kayla Lauren!
I promise that's my last one,
That bitch is boring,
I'm not sorry but I'm soarin on my suorin
While you're snoring on my metamorphosis
Imm getting sworn in
Don't look at me;
I'm just a DJ, don't look at me—
Shaking my head, but it don't mean nothing
Don't know what you mean
You don't even see me;
I ain't even show up to work this week
OG VIP ASAP MVP
It don't mean nothing
I'm just a DJ
Don't look at me
—-
Hey Mr. wedding ring—
I'll buy you a drink,
You know,
Like an old cream soda.
Or a float,
You can drink in the bucket seat
Tell me, Mr. Wedding ring
Do you have everything you need?
I don't envy anything besides your energy and symphonies,
Please
Excuse this phony boner,
I don't know if you're alone
If this is Homer,
I'm a poet, though—
And not a poser
Hey,
Do you suppose you know the code
For doors that open up;
I walk a lonely road,
But Frog and Toad are old
And told me you'd be there to show me
(Whatever)
Woah
Where am I supposed to go from here
I'm nowhere, dear
I'm Alice lost in wonderland
And all her friends—
Even the one in red
Who wants her head
(Where'd that come from)
Yo!
It's a real bad acid trip,
I can't get a grip on reality
Can't get off the grid at random,
If you're being tracked
By the feds and fandom
Woah.
I may be one of the greatest writers in history
But will you remember me?
My ex gets
Under my skin with
Champion fashion;
It's in bad taste
But I haven't had my own bathroom
In half a millennium
Im under persenium arches
Sniffing cristanthimymums sampling Arsenio Hall
Are you ip yet?
I'm still enthralled with this story
But yo!
(Where's Unaavvi at)
I haven't been to a show
(Where's the party at)
I should be gripping a pole
(Where is Cardi at)
But it takes all day to get back to the Bronx in the snow!
Fuck New York when it's cold
And it's always cold in New York
When you don't know nobody
And your only hobby is hobbling around in the hotel lobby
Counting the robbers and gobblins
A
D Whitney's and Bobby's
The ghosts and the zombies
Everything hurts
But everything heals, with time//
Whatever that is;
And whatever that means,
It's means to an end, if you let it be
So let it be
But, it persists in lettering me;
He becomes me in my sleep, In dreams
I think I really need him, or something
Or anyone, or anybody
Anything, or something
Anybody, anybody
Excerpt From:
“DJ AND CC TAKE HOLLYWOOD”
Wait, CC—you're a sex addict?!
I'm an everything addict! You know this!
I didn't know!
—Except pills; I hate pills.
What? I've seen you take pills before.
Case in point!
Why didn't you just tell me?
It doesn't exactly come up organically in conversation, Dillon.
What?! We talk about sex all the time.
Like, in general—but not fórreal! What the fuck!
What the fuck?! Whats the difference?!
If you have to ask, I feel like you're really not gonna like the answer, dog.
—
“WorstConversationEver”
(Bong rips)
Remember your dad's friend Tom?
Oh my God. You fucked Tom?!
NO!
okay, cause—
I sucked his dick while I pretended to mow the lawn!
What the hell?!
—and he still paid me.
Whatthefuck.
Yeah, fucked up.
So who mowed the lawn?!
He mowed his own lawn!
This is the worst conversation ever.
The crazy thing about this story is—
There's a lot of crazy things about this story, actually.
EXT. BASKETBALL COURT. DAY.
Alright— shirts and skins —Shirt—Skin Shirt,Skin—
Uhh! Nah. I wanna be “shirts”
Why dude?! Your girl's mad hot!
So?!
So I know you got it goin on! Look at you!
I'm mad rich!
Yeah—but girls always cheat on flabby rich dudes! With hotter dudes.
My girlfriend might be cheating on me!
Yeah—She's not, though.
How do you know?
Cause I tried!
Yeah. Take your shirt off.
No—uh! How do you know she's just not into you!
Because! He tried—
HE tried!
You sell out.
And Andre tried—
[ANDRE is tall (about 6'9 dark, and handsome]
—you too, bro?
[ANDRE shrugs nonchalantly]
That's an NBA player—
What the FUCK, YO.
—and she said NO.
ANDRE
Yup. Shot me down.
Oh really—from all the way up there?!
Face it, man! You're fuckin hot!
I don't like the way that sounds coming from you—
Take your shirt off!
Were you this aggressive with my girl?!
Don't be like that…
Nah— fuck you!
Yo! C'mon, man—
And you three!
You're holding up the game getting mad over nothing. It's Hollywood!
It's Beverly Hills!
—Exactly my point!
You're new here—you'll catch on.
You know what!
I'm shirts—you're skins—Game on.
[SUNNI BLU goes beast mode and plays the dirtiest, most whoopass game in history—out of spite and anger of the toxic masculinity; this of course earns SUNNI BLU even more respect as a “man's man”]
Later: as the owner of the clippers, sunni BLU trades “Andre” to the worst basketball team in history.
SUPACREE buys DIPLO a glass house to replace the one he burned down in a crime of passion.]
There, now, you'll stop throwing stones—
Huh!
AND. Everyone can see when you ugly cry.
*humphs*
Now, stop it!
Is it supacree?
Uh?
Could be Sunni Blu.
Sunni Blu is a dude—
Sunni Blu is pretending to be a dude.
Oh yeah, huh.
Dang.
Huh.
Well, then.
We've gotta consult The Big Book of Dillon Francis.
Don't say that like it's some kind of guide book.
It is a guidebook.
To what??
To Dillon Francis!
That's preposterous.
Didn't you choose Sonny?
Didn't I waste my time writing the great big book of Dillon Francis!?
Touché.
Might as well do something with it.
I got it.
THIS IS ENVIRONMENTALLY IRRESPONSIBLE.
BURN IT ALL.
You're gonna hurt someone's feelings.
Yeah, my own.
STOP TOUCHING THAT.
Wait, where is—
Fuck.
What?
Now I'm “that girl who fell in love with Skrillex”
Lol, which one.
Hum. The one who wrote a novel about it.
Pick your poison.
Rum.
Not a rum and coke?
No, just straight up—you know what? How much is the bottle?
Uhhh. Just.
[SUPACREE pours the remains of the bottle into a red solo cup.]
Ugh. Come on.
What! At least you're not “The Black Yoko Ono”
How did you even find out about that one.
Infinite what the fucks.
Now the world's getting mad again,
I wrote something damaging;
Doors just start slamming at random,
And coughing—
Sounds of motorists passing,
Just scrambling my brain,
I'm insane, but at least I have plainly created
What may be historical, one day—
I've made a whole masterpiece, a symphony that easily outlives me, infinity—
My body's just a body
Rush a cop just got get off this awful planet;
I don't want what comes with poverty and fat,
I don't compete with Instagram models,
And everyone does that—
I'm not a catfish, facts are facts
I use my camera just to document the interesting phenomena I happen to walk past;
Saw Dillon Francis on a wall, and had to grant the wish he asked—
But don't know what it is exactly,
I'm just happening, actually—
I probably need nap but now Insomniac's been tracking me;
I happily allow it; I program myself with beats,
So when I finally sleep, I dream in music sequences, or something—
I don't know
I might delete it upon listening to rampant white supremacy or privelege on repeat,
But that's just me,
Forgetting I'm the one in trouble,
On the run, without a family
So perception is reality, and mine is badly damaged—
Damn Pasquale again, I had to re-decipher all the messages transmitted from imaginary friends,
Collecting images in infrared
*gasp*
Okay, just—breathe…
I can't! I have to wear a mask!
It's mandatory—so is being black,
I have to! But I'm not a rapper!
Maybe I should talk to Chance,
Or Marshall Mathers:
They might have to answer
To the questions that I can't afford to ask
This automatic writing might just be the most
Goddamned advanced evidence of intelligent inhabitants in other dimensions, or other planets
Or all of the above,
Or maybe just of Dillon Francis using magic,
Which he got from—
Oh, no, here it comes
SK—
Fuck this. Fuck this mother—FAWN.
Are we out of F*cks, then?
I floppin' guess!
I thought you loved him.
It is what it is.
What is it?
INFI—
THE END.
INFINITI!
...yes, mom?
GET IN HERE,
Huh?
Don't say “huh”.
Okay, what?
Don't say “what”
…
…
…
...welll, what do you want?
What is this?
*shrugs*
INFINITY
[ooh, with a ‘Y'
that's how you know mom's angry this time]
*COUGHS*
Betcha his photographer's in love with him.
Which one has the VooDoo Doll?
There's a Skrillex VooDoo Doll?
It's technically ‘Sonny'
Aww.
You'd be surprised at the shit these girls will—
INFINITY.
WHAT.
What is THIS?!
It's just—Skrillex.
AFH.
Now you're FUCKED.
I thought we were out of FUCKS.
That was FAUX.
Awww: I see what you did there.
Am I done now?
What does Dillon Francis want?!
—don't answer that.
[whispering in ear.]
That's not possible
So. I shifted a consciousness into this rock.
Why would—why?
For good luck.
Oh, this is a problem,
But it turns out.
HUH.
Damn. I'm on one,
I have blue balls,
This is not fun. This is not fun. This is not fun.
Okay; now you're done.
So, that's it--? You really want to ride this Sinking Ship?
If that's what this is, then I guess that says it.
Says…?
Says “I just bought a ticket to Titanic at Bass Canyon.”
Is that where you bought it?
Is it?
Why would you give yourself in, for him?
(For Anyone?)
In.
(Psh)
I gave myself out.
Out? Look at you.
Look at me.
I'd rather not.
You know what it is
You know what it is—
You know what it is
That's the business
Comin in hot, like a chicken wing
This ain't Toy Story—got no friend in me,
You feelin me?
Cold as Minnesota, I'm the ice queen
Nice bling—
Hollywood should buy this bitch a wedding ring
Amohetemime
Trick, you're a half,
I'm the whole thing
Whole Foods market, gotta own me
No mink coat, I'm a vegan,
Hocus Pocus, I'm three witches
Okay, from the top
Hello?
This is Hollywood calling;
We want the festival project
We just wrote up the contract
Come get your deposit:
You're nominated for an Oscar
Your Star On The Walk looks Awesome
it's On Us
Yeah? That's what's up
I'll come up
I'll come up
I'll come up
Say what's up
That's my shite;
I'm rep in the festival project
Ya'll like “what's that?”
I'll tel you all about it,—that's
Coming up next
Oh yeah,
Oh yeah
Tune in
I'm On
Welcome to your Hollywood life
The good life
Good life
Welcome to the Hollywood life
That's right
That's right
Welcome to your Hollywood life
The good life
Good life
Welcome to the Hollywood life
That's right
That's right
They call me young Hollywood,
They robbed me good in Santa Monica
And I so I got no address yet;
But I'm coming up like one direction
I just checked my reflection like:
Mirror mirror on the wall
I gotta go
Hollywood's callin
And I don't do this often
Only when o bless the red carpet
Comin in hot, like a chicken wing
Call me Toy Story—
got a friend in me,
You feelin me?
On the big screen livin out my dreams,
I wrote my scenes, the Hollywood life: I neee
I ride by
On a tomeline
I write, I like
My nice things.
The life I lead,
Is ritghteous,
I defy my means
Applied IT,
I might be AI,
Fine my me;
Cause all I see
Is light I like,
And I'm liking my
Hollywood life, I think.
Nice bling—
Hollywood should buy this bitch a wedding ring
Amohetemime
Trick, you're a half,
I'm the whole thing
Whole Foods market, gotta own me
No mink coat, I'm a vegan,
Hocus Pocus, I'm three witches
It's just some Hollywood shit
Isn't it fabulous
This is some Hollywood shiy
Isn't it fabulous
Comin in hot, like a chicken wing
This ain't Toy Story—got no friend in me,
You feelin me?
Cold as Minnesota, I'm the ice queen
Nice bling—
Hollywood should buy this bitch a wedding ring
Amohetemime
Trick, you're a half,
I'm the whole thing
Whole Foods market, gotta own me
No mink coat, I'm a vegan,
Hocus Pocus, I'm three witches
You know what it is
You know what it is—
You know what it is
That's the business
One door close. Then another door opens
So sick flow, go home with a cold then
Woah, Hoe—cold like some snow boots
Pants so big, I can parachute
PARACHUTE!
Hoes look fake, like a blow up doll
Harlem shake, i'm bout to blow up ya'll
SAM ASH. HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA. DAY.
Do you have any Jog Wheels?
Beg your pardon?
Uh, Jog Wheels.
“Jog Wheels”
Yeah, you know, like (imitates DJ scratching)
Oh, you mean these? (Entire room of DJ controllers)
Yeah, but just–this (points to Jog Wheel)
Oh, “Jog Wheels…”
Yes. Jog Wheels.
…Just “Jog Wheels?”
…yes.
No.
[Leaving store with frustrated infuriation]
AGH.
BEFORE:
Oh my God! We've been robbed!
WHAT!
OH MY GOD!
WHAT!
WHAT'D THEY TAKE?!
–
Have you tried Guitar Center?
THEY TOOK MY JOG WHEELS.
Bitch you mad?
Mad at what?
I'm still making money;
I don't give a fuck
Get my bag;
Count it up
I'm a dog—
And you know I like it rough
(Ruff ruff ruff)
Where you from?
Where you hood at?
Keep it clsssy
But I'm acting like a hood rat
I'm a playa
I got boss racks
Call me north
Cause I'm pointed where the moss at
(Money)
I am from Los Angeles
I got all these fans and stuff
I smoke on dat tangle
I be at PINK buying bras n stuff
I still shop at hollister
The Bronx ain't got no Rosses
Or hot topics
But I bought this floss
To drop it like a thot n stuff
Bitch you mad?
Mad at what?
I'm still making money;
I don't give a fuck
Get my bag;
Count it up
I'm a dog—
And you know I like it rough
(Ruff ruff ruff)
I show up
Play some ratchet music
I show up
Play some ratchet music.
In the booth I'm eating waffles.
Had to force quit my serato
Key: F
It's such a wonderful feeling–
leaving, release,
sweet relief,
Slowly bleeding out
Dreaming, in peace
With no reason
to grieve–finallly–
Freedom
Mm-hmm
mm-hmm
Mmm-hmmm
__
I'm so LA for no reason.
Souls—
So long,
So gone,
Almost
The time has come to walk
The time has come again to rise,
Rise up
The time has come to walk, come on
The time that's come is ours,
From now on
Give me time to walk,
An Hour or so
A trot, the fox
Time to run
An hour or nothing
The founder of the establishment
The Tower of Babel
Another arrangement
The flounder, the fox, the horse
Come one, come all,
Come one, come now
The walk or a run
A gallop, or trot— the horse
A crown for a gallon of water
A gallon of water
A gallon of water
I know who you are my son;
Come one, come all
Come mother, come father
Come dog, and come brother
A sister, another
All for a walk in the park
I lost it
All for a gallon of water
A gallon of water
Souls—
So long,
So gone,
Almost
The time has come to walk
The time has come again to rise,
Rise up
The time has come to walk, come on
The time that's come is ours,
From now on
Sonny left you out in the cold
Sonny doesn't know what to do
Sonny gotta very old soul, so
Sonny's done away with the truth
Sonny didn't open any doors
Sonny's always sitting in the booth
Sonny isn't coming for you, poor
Sonny's so in love with Sunni Blu
So be Sunni Blu
So be Sunni Blu
You'll see Sonny soon
The universe is split into two, you know
Who are you?
(I told you)
What do you do?
(I just want to make music)
So you do
Don't go assuming you're consumed, dude
Just renew
You're a renewable
Don't be confused if confucius say
“Hey, just play to the tune “
Get a mop and a broom
And a mic and a boom
Rent a room somewhere for a month or two
Just don't be stupid
Cupid's run out of room
So
Sonny's just a man that I love
Sonny means less, but he does too much
Sonny's just human
Sonny's got proof that
Once you've got money,
It's all for amusement
Just be Sunni Blu, kid
I should have kissed him.
Flashback: Montage—Season 6
V.O.
I have a massive headache.
I can't stop thinking about Dillon Francis.
I'm hungry but haven't been to the gym and don't want to risk getting fat;
All my extra smalls fit, but my butt is getting bigger.
My new job's alright, but I feel like a loser.
LA broke is better than regular broke, but it would be nice not to be in debt.
I feel like I need a hug or a really good fuck or maybe both and then a cuddle.
I can't sleep and I hate all my roommates for just existing.
I think I might be getting sick just from being around other people too much.
I spent like $200 on protein and left almost all of it in Las Vegas.
LA Fitness sucks but it's better than nothing;
I really miss Equinox.
It doesn't seem like anybody really cares about me.
I'm Lonely all of a sudden.
I've really been craving pancakes. A lot.
Sometimes it seems like everything I've written is just a waste of time.
I can't stop thinking about sex.
Sometimes I think about sex with Dillon Francis.
Skrillex isn't real.
Nothing I seem to do adds up.
I'm a loser.
I keep checking my emails like something is going to change.
Sometimes I feel like I'm about to be famous—
I'm still hungry and thinking about a late night walk to LA Cafe; I really like their tater tots.
I miss being a mom.
Still thinking about LA CAFE but I already had Tocya Orgánica because the juice bar was closed when I got off work.
I just want someone to love me.
I thought I sold my soul but I still need love so I know it's still in there somewhere.
I literally spend every day working just to pay for a room to share with four people.
I almost had confidence before the Australian man came along.
It's weird to think about how everything I've written is just sitting in my Google documents doing nothing.
All the jobs I actually want to do are for people with beautiful bodies and mine is disgusting.
There's No Rick and Morty with no Justin Roiland.
There's No Pirates of The Caribbean with No Johnny Depp.
There's no room for reality in Hollywood.
{Drill Music Playing}
EXT. DOWNTOWN LOS ANGELES. NIGHT
DRAKE BELL enters the SMOKE SHOP
Enter The Multiverse
L E G E N D S
The Legend of…
“Looking Back”
All of a sudden—or maybe, even, not so suddenly—I was Clark Kent—or whatever Superman's name was. I had been without contacts or glasses for quite some time, and had quite explicitly in one of my many letters to God—or really any holy power in a realm which might have received my charred requests—all the things I needed, and some of the things I very badly wanted—tightly bundled and wax-sealed with intention for nothing besides that of the greater good, or course, for myself or anyone else—set ablaze in the unforgiving streets of New York City, in secrecy at odd hours of the night; it hadn't been my actual intent to have to practice any magic at all, especially under the circumstances, and it seemed that someone nearly unmentionable at all, had hexed a nasty attack on my psyche—a satanic, demonic possession of the weak and feeble bodies around me, and unable to isolate in completion, I had become vulnerable to such a wicked curse that it had altered my psychic morality—as one does not practition a counter-curse or attack, in my own medicinal expertise, without first being provoked—as one military typically mustn't bomb another, or even it's own enemy without being first considerably attacked—and it was, at this point, indeed a terrible holy war.
I had at the very least been able to return to regular gym sessions, though still not training as thoroughly as before; I had allowed myself to gain quite a bit of weight over the period of just a couple weeks, eating for the most part what I wanted out of comfort, especially having nearly starved and defaulted into severe malnutrition after eating nothing but bananas for a period which lasted something like three weeks—and without adequate protein intake, I had l lost quite a bit of muscle, not that, for the most part, the muscles that I had been building weren't there—in fact, I found myself, at least as of late, looking like any retired or untrained athlete that had let themselves gain atop the muscle they had built—fat now sitting on top of my larger muscles and making the weight gain look and feel even more hideous, and after several days of at least regular lifting and sauna, I still didn't feel like running, which would alleviate most of the gain more rapidly. I was still somewhat sort of depressed—my new roommate having obviously been possessed, constantly bringing up things I didn't want to think about or remember—mostly things from my terribly abusive marriage, and of course grinding her teeth, moaning and mumbling all through the night, always specifically having some kind of problem when I seemed to be making any progress at all in music; My miserable, fat, and drunken ex had after all wanted to be a musician, and I considered him probably to be the soul proprietor of the cruel attacks, and though I had forgiven him, at least for the cheating and for the most part for beating my face in—at least as much as I could, it seemed that simply having become an actual working and professional musician myself angered him greatly, making him bitter enough to the point that he would sit and ruminate on my imminent failure enough that I could sense this—not that it mattered, as by now I had gone too far and worked too hard to do anything else—and though he was well aware of Sunnï Blū by now, I was certain he hadn't the slightest clue that Sunni was just a fictional character. I had started creating music under a number of different aliases, which I learned to be common amongst musicians—but I felt it rather to be nessececary, especially sense whatever satanic and demonic force continued to urge me to kill myself (not entirely out of the question, but still the furthest thing from my mind), as in his care our poor little boy had become morbidly obese, which also ate a hole in my heart and my soul; it wasn't fair that through our separation his body had become so grotesque
and unsightly—but now, it was out of my control.
This Clark Kent was not a mother—I never spoke of my failed marriage or about my son to anyone; I was simply a single woman, business minded and for the most part no-nonsense. I secretly sent care packages to my some 150- pound 6 year old in hopes that he would somehow understand my love for him; I often made mixtapes with him in mind—he loved Daft Punk. I wasn't interested in dating or even socializing beyond the neasesaey network connections, which were far and few between in the area I had been settled in, but not quite comfortable. Black men in the music scene never wanted to collaborate or or facilitate promotions without some gesture of romantic or sexual connection—in an area, music—which I considered now strictly business, and for the most part, had been talking myself down from the fantastical wet-dreamy world of fandom which might have anything to do with seeing myself with anyone in such a realm as to have crafted for themselves a career in the world of music at all—in fact, I had become unmovable from my cellibacy—though the sexual beast that dwelled on the base of my spine flamboyantly crept up into my loins and even sometimes up into my heart, I had learned to swallow it down; there was no man that I wanted or needed so much as the ones I had, and would now rather suffer alone than to struggle to try to find someone that I actually could see as a partner—Creative and emotional intelligence aside, by now I just preferred being alone, and it seemed that even those I had cared for had started to become like my ex husband—probably also overtaken by demons—and so I felt it safe and more valuable to be alone, thinking perhaps having given birth to three of his children, that my body, mind, and soul was ruined—but I'd rather go it alone myself than go back to him, or worse—end up with someone so much like him that I ended up dead, homeless, or a combination of the two—which I already had, not that I saw it as an immovable fate.
This new and most astonishing Clark Kent kept to herself, and was quiet; she was observant, and critical, but not too critical—kind, but also not too kind; In New York City of all places, a sucker is a sucker—kindness is considered as weakness, and no good deed does in fact go unpunished.
The prescription was perfect, and I could see sharply and clearly now; the world was color coded with shades of dark green and royal blue, with tinges of bright yellow l as if hinting that the wishes I made upon the candles I had burned would come true—and I hoped that they would, though I had done most of my spell work for protection and binding—not to collect such terrible karma for the injustice done, but to dissuade whatever had been following me—attaching its nasty energy into my world and in my realm and urging me to kill myself; everything was evil blue eyes and perfect bodied women, my music unheard and unliked and no notable achievements made.
I dreamt of a world where my evil and estranged husband would reproduce with someone else—that all the hatred and darkness and energy of our shared past that he was constantly sending towards me would become a distant memory, his attention set on his new wife and child; I wanted only really to become a non-factor, left alone and loveless, albeit never unhinged or undone by love or in the hands of a man again—at least in that matter. I ran my tongue over the inside of my bottom lip where my teeth had punctured through, all the way to the other side—amazed that even years later the scar was raised, which always made me wonder how bad it really was; I couldn't have known then, even with the remarkable and obvious damage that he had done to my face, how bad it really was—and here, still, six years later, I wondered how I had survived such a gruesome assault—not that about I would have admitted it, as it seemed Hollywood itself even had been overrun with the never ending infinite saga of the he-said-she-said Battle of The Sexes, even my own pitiful self having to side with the men.
“I must have deserved that.”
I only see your shadow;
For you, I kindly waited—
My eyes are very open,
But my heart is very hated
LOOK AT IT.
I—
JUST-LOOK AT IT.
I want to die and
I don't know why
I want to die and
I don't know why
I want to die and
I don't know why.
Why lie about it I
Feel like dying
I look past everything—
Even what I should see
I feel like dying
I'm constantly out of alignment
With my design
Don't mind me,
I was just l
Light at the end of the
Nightmare, or just a dream
I keep on waking up
Crying myself to sleep
I want to die and
I don't know why
I want to die and
I don't know why
I want to die and
I don't know why.
Why lie about it I
Feel like dying
—
I love the way your body looks—
Please, hold me tight and don't let go
I love the way your body looks—
Please hold me tight and don't let go
Come take a glance
At my mammary glands
No arms, no hands
No legs, no chance
Something bout those camouflage pants
I
Yeah, I'm just a fan,
I promise
I'm Stan
It's that bad
It's that bad
I run 15 miles an hour down a mountain
What you think about that?
I forgot a pen and a pad,
But look, I found one on the ground—
Aren't you proud of me?
I turn a mound into a man—
I promise,
I'm a fan
It's that bad
It's that bad
I'm a fountain
Look, I found you
Proud family fountaine
Yeah, I'm just a black
Campaign magnet manager
Yeah
Everything the prophet Jon said was a code,
And yet
I was nowhere to be found at all
I was
Probably still drowning in blood, after all of it
Writing my name on the wall
Or deposit slips
Slitting my wrists at the catacombs,
Woah
Slow down
This is all so uncalled for
So much the overachiever
And leaver of lovers,
The teacher
“I loved him so
Much”
Stockholm,
Stockholder
Stop go,
Stop go
red rover,
Red rover
Send someone right over
Cause
911!
911!
Hit the ground running,
Or duck and find cover
(Or better yet, find a revolver)
You're calling a four leaf clover
Art for the front cover
Ah, a world wonder
“I should probably call her…”
Enough
Sir, you remind me of someone
You left the door open
I probably won't close it
A loft, like the apartment I once
Grew up in
Or whatever my mind was,
In the moment
Why would someone smell this way
I'm just a machine, I'm
Irony, irony—
Ey!
Flock to the crossing,
I've never felt so dumb before
Just after
Loving one star
As hard as I could
And it all fell apart at the alter
Now I'm at the crossroads
Sell my soul, sure
For certain
But I never owned it
You'd better talk to my husband
He owns it
I'm better off drowning in sorrow
Than blood now
I'd better count all my arrows
And bloodhounds
Before the sun goes down
And before the hunt's getting started
A carver, for carving
But I couldn't quite catch the words,
I was starving
I couldn't quite make a song out of stardust
I'd better go
Just before the war starts up
“What did you call this?”
“A word,”
I said to my father
The world that I started, in ruins
So I stared it over
And over and over
So much for luxury—
I thought I wanted towel service and saunas
But turns out I love Eucapuptus
Whatever that does
Or something
I thought of being discharged
Or discarded
Like all of the common in poverty
Washed up
Like mau5 was
Before and after the comeback
“Commander…”
I never liked being captain
I warned you;
I only practice three out of the Ten Commandments
Serve condiments like mustard
And never ever wear condoms
I warned them,
Warranted
Now, let me show you where your cock goes
(In the ocean)
Cous-cous, or Caucasus
Persuasion, a caution
Caucasians
Dark, was the sun when I woke up
In all purple armor
Better to marry a fighter, prepared for the war that was coming
We all won
We're all in,
But undone
Rough,
I like a ruffian, I might add
But things never add up
I would love a muffin
Here goes a whole stream of conscious
(Or cous cous, or caucus or)
I lost the word for it
Watching the omnibus roll past
Fuck, now was was it
Some carbohydrate
(Quinoa)
You never know what you got
Till it's gone
I just lost a penny—
I'll pick up another one
Haven't you suffered enough for the moment?
I suffered once,
But it's still not over—
One for the floor and then
One just to follow
One for the floor, and then
One just to follow
I hate losing money, you know.
If I cut you off [Now]
⌨️️ ️
, you might lose your tolerance…
Hello, again
My dear old friend
I've missed you
How could you leave me
After all we've been through
That's just what I do now,
You know
I should have been more thorough
With all of my old stuff
I couldn't love you enough
In her body or another
Or all of us
INT. PLANET FITNESS. NIGHT
survivalism, deadmau5
Wonder, wonder
Would you, would you
Will I will I
Die tonight
Wonder wonder
If if if I
Stay up to the
Morning light
If I if I.
Could find
Your eyes again
Your eyes again
Your eyes again
Your eyes your eyes
Are mine
Thank you, kind stranger
No challenge, a charger
I was awfully awestruck,
But stood there just after
Standing on sutphin,
No love and no laughter
I'll see you tomorrow
Cause I'll be here after all
No wonder, no wonder
A wonderful somethin
No standing on sutphin
No love, and no laughter
There's no code of arms,
There's mo alarm, either
So unfit for love, so unfit the mother
Thank you, kind stranger
I couldn't care anymore, if I tried
Who loves me or not
I was what I was
Now I'm gone
And I'm off of it
I couldn't care for the cause
Cause it's all done
I couldn't care for a father or mother
Who loved me so much all at once
I was born from the stardust
To stories of Noah and Arks
(Or just one boat,)
But I stood on sutphin and archer
For nothing and no one
Here we are,
At the turn of the hour
Fear for a flower
A finder, a follower
Folley, you all are
The whole world, we're rolling
We're wrapping up capstones
And craping our pants
Just like pansies
And on we run
And on we are
And off we're not
—but we're off work when the party ends
And up at dark
And here we are, at once
So far
{Enter The Multiverse}
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{Enter The Multiverse}
[The Festival Project.™]
COPYRIGHT © THE FESTIVAL PROJECT 2023
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. ©
-U.