OrEd-T-23.3-The Laws of Chaos.3
33. These do not seem to be the goals of chaos, for by that great reversal, they appear to be the laws of order. But chaos is lawlessness, and has no laws. Its seeming laws must be perceived as true to be believed. The goal of madness must be seen as sanity, as fear is lifted to the throne of love. Now, fear is the substitute for love, and the savior from salvation. The laws of fear make death appear lovely, and we give thanks to the hero on love's throne, who saved the Son of God for fear and death!
34. How can laws like these can be believed? There is a strange, yet simple device that compels belief in these laws. The function of this device is to emphasize form and disregard content. In dreams this function appears to have powerful effects where shadows play the major roles. Some forms seem to have a familiar meaning, but that is all. He who thinks that any one of the laws of chaos is true, cannot see what it says. This simple, strange device does not function at all in truth.
35. No attack, in any form, can be love. It doesn't matter what form it takes. No form of condemnation can be a blessing. I cannot find salvation by making my savior powerless. I cannot seek to harm and be saved. All forms of murder must mean death. The form of the attack on my brother will not deceive me. And no one finds safety by turning on himself. Anything that is intent on my destruction is not my friend. Condemning what it says it wants to save, judgment defeats itself. When madness takes a form I think is lovely, I will not be deceived.
36. I would maintain that I do not believe these senseless laws, and do not act upon them. They can't be believed when I look at what they say. Yet, I do believe them. For if I perceive the form, the content is there. This is not tenable. I believe the laws for the forms they take, not recognizing the content. The content never changes. I paint rosy lips on a skeleton, dress it in loveliness, pet and pamper it, making it live in my illusion.
*37. There is no life outside of Heaven. Where God created life, there it must be. In any state apart from Heaven, life is illusion. At best, it seems like life, at worst like death. Yet both judgments are inaccurate and have no meaning. Life is not possible outside of Heaven, and what is not in Heaven is not anywhere. Outside of Heaven is only the conflict of illusions, senseless, impossible, and beyond all reason. However, illusions are only forms, and their content is never true. Yet, this is perceived as an eternal barrier to Heaven.
38. The laws of chaos govern all illusions. Their forms must conflict, making it seem quite possible to value some above the others. Yet each and every form rests on the belief that the laws of chaos are true. The seeming gentler forms of attack are as sure in their witness and results as other forms of attack. It is sure that illusions bring fear, because they imply belief in illusions. And any form of faithlessness to love is a witness to the reality of chaos. I cannot be content with the illusory life that I am living.
*39. Faith in chaos must follow from the belief in sin. Because it follows, faith in chaos seems to be a logical conclusion, a valid step in ordered thought. The steps to chaos do follow neatly from their starting point, with each step being a different form in the progression of truth's reversal. Each step leads deeper into terror and away from truth. One step is not smaller than another, and return is not easier from one than from another. The whole descent from Heaven lies in each one. And where my thinking starts, there the descent must end.
40. I would not take one step into the descent to hell. For having taken one, the next will follow, and I will not recognize the rest for what they are. Attack in any form will place my foot upon the twisted stairway that leads from Heaven. Yet, at any instant it is possible for this to be undone. I can know quite easily whether I chose the stairs to Heaven or the way to hell by how I feel. If I am certain which way I go, am sure the goal of Heaven can be reached, and peace is in my awareness, I walk with the Holy Spirit. If not, I walk alone. I will ask my Friend to join with me, giving me the certainty of where I go.
