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🎙️ Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435
⏱️ Duration: 1 hour, 22 minutes
📅 Recorded on: 20 September 2025
🧠 Topic: Deep personal reflection on mental health, especially bipolar disorder and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) 🧵 OVERVIEW This episode of Let Me Bore You To Sleep is a raw, meandering, yet heartfelt monologue where Jason Newland reflects on recent tech struggles with his podcast, then opens up about his personal experiences with bipolar disorder and EUPD. It evolves from a casual update into a deep dive into the complexities of living with fluctuating mental health. He discusses diagnosis, therapy, medication, and how others have misunderstood his journey. There's also a lot of self-deprecating humor, honesty, and vulnerability throughout. 🧩 STRUCTURED SUMMARY ⛓️ Part 1: Podcast & Website Woes (~0:00–9:00)

• Jason is frustrated about recent problems with Apple Podcasts, which drastically dropped his listenership stats.
• He shares that he’s been working hard to fix the issue and reorganize his website, letmeboreyoutosleep.com.
• He’s visibly tired and emotionally drained by the tech issues but reassures listeners that things are working again.
• Shout-outs to new Facebook group members, Karen and Kaylee.

🧠 Part 2: Mental Health Journey Begins (~9:00–18:00)

• Jason discusses a recent GP phone appointment, which resulted in a referral to a mental health nurse and an increase in his medication.
• Humorously notes that he may become even “slower and more boring” with the new dosage.
• Reflects on past manic behavior from 2011 and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder later that year.
• Talks about how his mood swings began in childhood and shares prior experiences with antidepressants and anxiety from as far back as 1995.

💊 Part 3: Medication Stigma & Acceptance (~18:00–27:00)

• Shares a story about a friend at a Buddhist center who encouraged him to accept medication as part of wellness, despite Jason’s initial resistance.
• Uses a humorous appendix analogy to emphasize that you don’t refuse treatment for physical illness—so why for mental health?
• Admits that past judgment from others made him hesitant about long-term medication use.

🧍♂️ Part 4: EUPD & Dual Diagnosis (~27:00–42:00)

• Delves into the co-diagnosis of EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) and bipolar.
• Shocked to learn of the EUPD diagnosis years after therapy began.
• Recalls a 5-year treatment period that included:
  • DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy)
  • Group therapy
  • Psychotherapy at home
• Shares how mood instability, impulsivity, and difficulty with relationships are key EUPD symptoms he relates to.

🎭 Part 5: Humor, Dating, and Disguises (~42:00–59:00)

• Veers into lighthearted stories:
  • Taking his ferret Andre into town.
  • Online dating and profile pictures.
  • Hilariously cynical commentary on filtered dating profile photos and photo manipulation.
• Recounts a short-lived romantic encounter that ended just before a critical psychiatric evaluation, which ironically led professionals to think he was “fine” due to being in a good mood.

⚖️ Part 6: Bipolar Diagnosis – The Real One (~59:00–1:10:00)

• Shares how in 2011, a new doctor finally took him seriously and referred him for proper diagnosis.
• Officially diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder (again) in December 2011.
• Talks about years of ups and downs, job loss, and therapy.
• Begins understanding his pattern of mood cycles and their impact on life and relationships.

📚 Part 7: Final Thoughts – Acceptance & Awareness (~1:10:00–1:22:00)

• He explores how both bipolar and EUPD explain so much of his lived experience.
• Researches EUPD symptoms live during the recording (fluctuating emotions, impulsivity, relationship challenges).
• Notes that DBT was the key therapy used during treatment—but he hadn’t known that at the time.
• Reflects on how some people’s moods bounce back quickly, while others (like him) have longer, deeper troughs and spikes.
• Ends on a gentle note: encourages listeners to be kind to themselves, feel safe, and allow themselves happiness.
• Mentions the possible reward of a Cornetto. 🍦😄

💬 KEY THEMES & TAKEAWAYS
Theme Insight Mental health stigma Jason illustrates the long journey of confronting others’ opinions about medication and mental illness. Dual diagnosis His story highlights the complexity of having both bipolar and EUPD—conditions that can overlap but require distinct approaches. Self-awareness & humor Jason’s ability to talk honestly while keeping it light with jokes and analogies makes this reflection accessible. Therapy & treatment DBT, medication, and long-term psychotherapy played huge roles in stabilizing his life. Loneliness & connection Undercurrent of seeking human connection, acceptance, and the ongoing tension between vulnerability and protection.