Shows
Living ABSD2. What is Living ABSD?Welcome back my friends to season 2 of the Living ABSD podcast! You are in for a treat this season with the incredible DUB (divinely unique being) guests, Ask Kara episode, and teachings from AB. This movement is living and breathing. In this episode, AB talks about the ways in which it has MOVED since the release of Season 1 with all the incredible partnerships and initiatives that have come along the way. This year, A Better Standard Direction is inviting in much newness that is talked about in this episode. Continue to check back in on our website...
2026-02-0230 min
Living ABSDAsk Kara: An IntroductionAsk Kara is a unique segment inside of the Living ABSD. Hosted by Kara Barker with the intention to create a space to dive deeper on YOUR questions and curiosities. Kara at heart is an educator and researcher. She loves to dive deep into the knowledge that exists in order to create her own educated lens on the topic. Ask your questions to Kara on instagram at @kara_marie1234 or on abetterstandarddirection.com under the podcast tab, you can fill out the question form. We look forward to the depth that will be...
2025-07-0725 min
Living ABSDWhat is Living ABSD?What is Living ABSD and how can you embody this new way of life for yourself?Living a better standard direction for your life is your birthright in being human. To understand how to embrace this movement, listen to this episode. To understand the depth of A Better Standard Direction, listen to this episode. To decide if being apart of the creation of new norms in society is for you, listen to this episode.If you are curious about what all the fuss is about, listen to this episode. ...
2025-06-0933 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast66. Surrender into the UnknownRecorded October 26, 2024
Leaning into a place of trust that a much greater plan is unraveling that I cannot see.
As I continue surrendering, I am uncomfortable but know that I am being supported and I am right where I am meant to be. Surrendering to the present moment because that is the greatest gift.
Feeling lost right in the unknown.
Trusting that the golden thread is being woven the way it is meant to be.
I...
2024-12-2630 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast66. Surrender into the UnknownRecorded October 26, 2024
Leaning into a place of trust that a much greater plan is unraveling that I cannot see.
As I continue surrendering, I am uncomfortable but know that I am being supported and I am right where I am meant to be. Surrendering to the present moment because that is the greatest gift.
Feeling lost right in the unknown.
Trusting that the golden thread is being woven the way it is meant to be.
I...
2024-12-2630 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast65. Contracting and ExpandingRecorded October 11, 2024
How do we shift & lean into faith when we are in places of flux?
Step into this space with me to hear how through my experience and journey.
I want to encourage all of you to stay open to the possibilities.
I love you through the contraction and expansion,
ABSD
2024-12-0827 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast65. Contracting and ExpandingRecorded October 11, 2024
How do we shift & lean into faith when we are in places of flux?
Step into this space with me to hear how through my experience and journey.
I want to encourage all of you to stay open to the possibilities.
I love you through the contraction and expansion,
ABSD
2024-12-0827 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast64. Entering Back into the Social WorldRecorded September 16, 2024
Integrating the nickname AB.
A lot in my life has transpired, transformed, and transitioned.
I spent 10 days at a Buddhist retreat center in the mountains to start my Grad program in Ecopsychology.
Transcend and include, spiraling into the next level.
We as individuals have to take responsibility for our own journey.
Learning how to distinguish between other peoples lens of life and my own truth. Navigating the unwea...
2024-11-2421 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast64. Entering Back into the Social WorldRecorded September 16, 2024
Integrating the nickname AB.
A lot in my life has transpired, transformed, and transitioned.
I spent 10 days at a Buddhist retreat center in the mountains to start my Grad program in Ecopsychology.
Transcend and include, spiraling into the next level.
We as individuals have to take responsibility for our own journey.
Learning how to distinguish between other peoples lens of life and my own truth. Navigating the unwea...
2024-11-2421 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast63. Drag to Dream w/ Jessica L'WhorRecorded: August 13, 2024
What an honor and privilege it was to have Jessica L’Whor in the Inner Dialogue space.
It is evident that Jessica is intentional in every aspect of her drag journey. From the people she mentors to the stories she tells in her performances, it is inspiring to witness her.
We got to talk about the birth of Miss Jessica for all age shows, the controversy that came with this and the importance of being able to offer drag spaces for all.
2024-11-1046 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast63. Drag to Dream w/ Jessica L'WhorRecorded: August 13, 2024
What an honor and privilege it was to have Jessica L’Whor in the Inner Dialogue space.
It is evident that Jessica is intentional in every aspect of her drag journey. From the people she mentors to the stories she tells in her performances, it is inspiring to witness her.
We got to talk about the birth of Miss Jessica for all age shows, the controversy that came with this and the importance of being able to offer drag spaces for all.
2024-11-1046 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast62. Space for ClarityRecorded August 2, 2024
I found myself needed some space. I am feeling proud of myself as I walk into a social media cleanse.
Processing my online presence and how to hold my authenticity through my own lens and releasing the lens of others.
Navigating balance in my life as I walk through the highs and lows I am experiencing.
Every day brings something new to hold, understand, and be gentle with myself as I am in it.
2024-10-2718 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast62. Space for ClarityRecorded August 2, 2024
I found myself needed some space. I am feeling proud of myself as I walk into a social media cleanse.
Processing my online presence and how to hold my authenticity through my own lens and releasing the lens of others.
Navigating balance in my life as I walk through the highs and lows I am experiencing.
Every day brings something new to hold, understand, and be gentle with myself as I am in it.
2024-10-2718 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast61. WoofRecorded: July 25, 2024
This podcast is a journey of the process of me becoming me. I am unwilling to hide and silence myself.
Navigating through the flow of what life is bringing me in my body, feelings, and environment.
“Being seen feels unsafe right now.”
It’s a lot. I don’t have all the answers. I don’t have it all figured out right now.
Showing this side of the journey is important too.
As I have...
2024-10-1328 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast61. WoofRecorded: July 25, 2024
This podcast is a journey of the process of me becoming me. I am unwilling to hide and silence myself.
Navigating through the flow of what life is bringing me in my body, feelings, and environment.
“Being seen feels unsafe right now.”
It’s a lot. I don’t have all the answers. I don’t have it all figured out right now.
Showing this side of the journey is important too.
As I have...
2024-10-1328 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast60. Beauty of Connection w/ CaitlinRecorded July 19, 2024
One of Caitlin’s gifts is cultivating connection & in this episode the connections are beautifully woven through all of the intersections we touch on in our inner dialogue.
Helping people heal through the disconnection that has been taught to us and move towards the cultivation of abundance in life.
Authentic, vulnerable connection ✨
I love you endlessly,
ABSD
Connect with Caitlin:
Caitlin with a C Healing Connections:
caitlinwithachealingconnections.com
2024-10-061h 13
The Inner Dialogue Podcast60. Beauty of Connection w/ CaitlinRecorded July 19, 2024
One of Caitlin’s gifts is cultivating connection & in this episode the connections are beautifully woven through all of the intersections we touch on in our inner dialogue.
Helping people heal through the disconnection that has been taught to us and move towards the cultivation of abundance in life.
Authentic, vulnerable connection ✨
I love you endlessly,
ABSD
Connect with Caitlin:
Caitlin with a C Healing Connections:
caitlinwithachealingconnections.com
2024-10-061h 13
The Inner Dialogue Podcast59. A Letter to AlyssaRecorded July 13, 2024
Alyssa Sweeney was ICONIC, but she is not what is now.
This episode is vulnerable. As I make my way through this dialogue, I do my best to honor my old self as Alyssa.
I really want people to know that when I look at my life as Alyssa, I see it as nothing but an awesome fucking life.
I love you,
ABSD
2024-09-2938 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast59. A Letter to AlyssaRecorded July 13, 2024
Alyssa Sweeney was ICONIC, but she is not what is now.
This episode is vulnerable. As I make my way through this dialogue, I do my best to honor my old self as Alyssa.
I really want people to know that when I look at my life as Alyssa, I see it as nothing but an awesome fucking life.
I love you,
ABSD
2024-09-2938 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast58. Grace in Transition w/ GOLDbardEpisode 58. Grace in the Transition w/ GOLDbard
Recorded July 10, 2024
We start off with a beautiful chant for this episode: I believe in joyful abundant possibilities.
We can always turn to the natural world for comfort.
The example of animals being and using that as a lesson for ourselves.
In our Inner Dialogue, we touch on Divine Grace, a mindset of hope, time in nature, presence, nourishment for our planet, abundance and so much more!
2024-09-221h 29
The Inner Dialogue Podcast58. Grace in Transition w/ GOLDbardEpisode 58. Grace in the Transition w/ GOLDbard
Recorded July 10, 2024
We start off with a beautiful chant for this episode: I believe in joyful abundant possibilities.
We can always turn to the natural world for comfort.
The example of animals being and using that as a lesson for ourselves.
In our Inner Dialogue, we touch on Divine Grace, a mindset of hope, time in nature, presence, nourishment for our planet, abundance and so much more!
2024-09-221h 29
The Inner Dialogue Podcast57. Happy Pride MonthRecorded June 29, 2024
Feeling grounded walking into the launch of A Better Standard Direction.
Sitting in my energy and unknown the day before this launch.
Coming out of the last 10 days and feeling like I am a different person.
June was an incredibly abundant and hard month for me. Navigating a lot of big feelings inside of me with transitioning and the nonlinear journey of gender.
The lens in which we view life through is how we internalize what...
2024-09-1520 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast57. Happy Pride MonthRecorded June 29, 2024
Feeling grounded walking into the launch of A Better Standard Direction.
Sitting in my energy and unknown the day before this launch.
Coming out of the last 10 days and feeling like I am a different person.
June was an incredibly abundant and hard month for me. Navigating a lot of big feelings inside of me with transitioning and the nonlinear journey of gender.
The lens in which we view life through is how we internalize what...
2024-09-1520 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast56. Nature Healing w/ ChelseaRecorded June 5, 2024
This conversation is going to bring you awareness that there are other options available to you. As we talk through our own experiences and hear about Chelsea’s expertise with nature healing, you may be surprised of how accessible these practices can be in your life!
There isn’t one right way. Finding the way that works best for you! Just don’t give up. Be open to trying different things and allow time for grace.
There are so many ways to heal. A deeper understa...
2024-09-081h 12
The Inner Dialogue Podcast56. Nature Healing w/ ChelseaRecorded June 5, 2024
This conversation is going to bring you awareness that there are other options available to you. As we talk through our own experiences and hear about Chelsea’s expertise with nature healing, you may be surprised of how accessible these practices can be in your life!
There isn’t one right way. Finding the way that works best for you! Just don’t give up. Be open to trying different things and allow time for grace.
There are so many ways to heal. A deeper understa...
2024-09-081h 12
The Inner Dialogue Podcast54. Love on the New EarthRecorded June 2, 2024
It genuinely is so fun to hear myself in a place where I feel safe in my body and have incredible love for where I am in my journey.
Prioritizing safety for myself is important.
Every relationship in my life has had to shift.
How to love myself is my choice. How I live my life is my choice. I have to stay true to myself and continue to learn what this embodiment of ABSD is.
2024-09-0119 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast54. Love on the New EarthRecorded June 2, 2024
It genuinely is so fun to hear myself in a place where I feel safe in my body and have incredible love for where I am in my journey.
Prioritizing safety for myself is important.
Every relationship in my life has had to shift.
How to love myself is my choice. How I live my life is my choice. I have to stay true to myself and continue to learn what this embodiment of ABSD is.
2024-09-0119 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast53. Expanding Gently with GOLDbardRecorded May 28, 2024
This episode carries the lens of expanding gently in our lives, healing processes, and in time of transition.
Sitting in the Inner Dialogue space with GOLDbard, I felt myself expanding gently just through their dialogue and life experiences that are shared here.
A preview:
✨ “You do not need to be your therapist educator.”
✨I want people who know me and love me, to know all of me.
✨Being in the un...
2024-07-2137 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast53. Expanding Gently with GOLDbardRecorded May 28, 2024
This episode carries the lens of expanding gently in our lives, healing processes, and in time of transition.
Sitting in the Inner Dialogue space with GOLDbard, I felt myself expanding gently just through their dialogue and life experiences that are shared here.
A preview:
✨ “You do not need to be your therapist educator.”
✨I want people who know me and love me, to know all of me.
✨Being in the un...
2024-07-2137 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast52. Lessons Learned Through DoingRecorded May 19, 2024
Inspiration from stepping on a rusted nail while gardening. OUCH! This week has been weird.
Taking it day by day & meeting myself with grace constantly.
This period of rest really gave me space to look at some big shifts happening in my life & to have time to process it all fully.
OPENING THE DOOR
No part of us are meant to be separate from love & I had segmented in myself that I was not allowing to...
2024-07-1425 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast52. Lessons Learned Through DoingRecorded May 19, 2024
Inspiration from stepping on a rusted nail while gardening. OUCH! This week has been weird.
Taking it day by day & meeting myself with grace constantly.
This period of rest really gave me space to look at some big shifts happening in my life & to have time to process it all fully.
OPENING THE DOOR
No part of us are meant to be separate from love & I had segmented in myself that I was not allowing to...
2024-07-1425 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast51. Hey It's Me, ABSDRecorded May 9, 2024
This episode is about me, ABSD.
I have been processing some big aspects in my life.
I have been deeply afraid of the power of my spiritual self & I am now in a point in my journey where I am in full trust.
ABSD has always been something that is so much greater than myself.
I officially no longer identify with the name Alyssa.
I don’t want to be called...
2024-07-0727 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast51. Hey It's Me, ABSDRecorded May 9, 2024
This episode is about me, ABSD.
I have been processing some big aspects in my life.
I have been deeply afraid of the power of my spiritual self & I am now in a point in my journey where I am in full trust.
ABSD has always been something that is so much greater than myself.
I officially no longer identify with the name Alyssa.
I don’t want to be called...
2024-07-0727 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast49. High PhilosophizingRecorded April 26, 2024
HAPPY LAUNCH DAY! 🥳
Learning how to integrate the true meaning of what A Better Standard Direction is in my life. All throughout this episode, there is a golden thread about my social movement.
So much appreciation for the process over the last year of having a podcast & how much I have grown through it.
How I use philosophizing as a tool to help aid me in some of my greatest ideas.
Conditional love...
2024-06-3036 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast49. High PhilosophizingRecorded April 26, 2024
HAPPY LAUNCH DAY! 🥳
Learning how to integrate the true meaning of what A Better Standard Direction is in my life. All throughout this episode, there is a golden thread about my social movement.
So much appreciation for the process over the last year of having a podcast & how much I have grown through it.
How I use philosophizing as a tool to help aid me in some of my greatest ideas.
Conditional love...
2024-06-3036 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast48. Divinely PlacedRecorded April 18, 2024
Today, I just wanted to show up. Space for grace.
Life happens & grace fills in those gaps.
Sometimes, we do our best and it is not enough for the other person.
I have continued to grow through it all. I have so much appreciation for each version of myself that continues to show up anyway.
Something I have had to learn is that I cannot control the way other people are feeling & it...
2024-06-2322 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast48. Divinely PlacedRecorded April 18, 2024
Today, I just wanted to show up. Space for grace.
Life happens & grace fills in those gaps.
Sometimes, we do our best and it is not enough for the other person.
I have continued to grow through it all. I have so much appreciation for each version of myself that continues to show up anyway.
Something I have had to learn is that I cannot control the way other people are feeling & it...
2024-06-2322 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast47. Spring BloomsRecorded April 12, 2024
Spring often brings blooms.
In this episode, I have many downloads that take my life experience, embodiment, and the gifts of the Universe to the next level.
I get into the intricacies of up-leveling in your life and what that could feel like.
Blooms want to enter your life - this is a great episode to listen to if you are not sure how to allow them to.
I channeled light language for...
2024-06-1633 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast47. Spring BloomsRecorded April 12, 2024
Spring often brings blooms.
In this episode, I have many downloads that take my life experience, embodiment, and the gifts of the Universe to the next level.
I get into the intricacies of up-leveling in your life and what that could feel like.
Blooms want to enter your life - this is a great episode to listen to if you are not sure how to allow them to.
I channeled light language for...
2024-06-1633 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast46. My Preferred Pronouns Are They/ThemRecorded April 2, 2024
My preferred name is ABSD. My preferred pronouns are they / them.
This episode is all about gender. My gender. My journey up to date uncovering my gender expression.
My gender identity and how it has been and felt to show up in the world as a nonbinary human being.
Finding safety within myself and in the relationships that I have inside of my new identity.
I am using my inner dialogue to spea...
2024-06-0927 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast46. My Preferred Pronouns Are They/ThemRecorded April 2, 2024
My preferred name is ABSD. My preferred pronouns are they / them.
This episode is all about gender. My gender. My journey up to date uncovering my gender expression.
My gender identity and how it has been and felt to show up in the world as a nonbinary human being.
Finding safety within myself and in the relationships that I have inside of my new identity.
I am using my inner dialogue to spea...
2024-06-0927 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast45. Sound Journeys with ChantelRecorded March 29, 2024
Chantel has a gift as a sound healer. She uses this gift of nurturing others and creating a safe space for integration.
During our conversation we talk about:
✨ Hustle culture
✨ Deep meditation
✨ The tendency of nature to lead towards harmony vs chaos argument
✨ Enlightenment in healing and growth
✨ Living life through the lens of love
✨ Mirror work
✨...
2024-06-021h 06
The Inner Dialogue Podcast45. Sound Journeys with ChantelRecorded March 29, 2024
Chantel has a gift as a sound healer. She uses this gift of nurturing others and creating a safe space for integration.
During our conversation we talk about:
✨ Hustle culture
✨ Deep meditation
✨ The tendency of nature to lead towards harmony vs chaos argument
✨ Enlightenment in healing and growth
✨ Living life through the lens of love
✨ Mirror work
✨...
2024-06-021h 06
The Inner Dialogue Podcast44. Shooting the Shit with KevinRecorded: March 28, 2024
Sitting in the Inner Dialogue space today with a beautiful human - my cousin Kevin.
Becoming our own people and growing within that. Reflecting on where we came from and all the growth we have made in our lives.
“Single tear for my single life”
Common Sense Kindness
& a whole lot of dialogue between two humans who have known each other their whole lives.
I love these types of...
2024-05-261h 14
The Inner Dialogue Podcast44. Shooting the Shit with KevinRecorded: March 28, 2024
Sitting in the Inner Dialogue space today with a beautiful human - my cousin Kevin.
Becoming our own people and growing within that. Reflecting on where we came from and all the growth we have made in our lives.
“Single tear for my single life”
Common Sense Kindness
& a whole lot of dialogue between two humans who have known each other their whole lives.
I love these types of...
2024-05-261h 14
The Inner Dialogue Podcast43. Seen & SafeRecorded: March 26, 2024
Being held and safe by my sisters brings me such gratitude and grounded feeling in my being.
I am in an interesting place in my embodiment right now. Beginning to shift in each place I am in and learning how to be fully me in all the spaces I am in.
Navigating being ABSD in my nannying & babysitting life.
Finding my boundaries and what I am comfortable with around my name.
Navigating my ge...
2024-05-1924 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast43. Seen & SafeRecorded: March 26, 2024
Being held and safe by my sisters brings me such gratitude and grounded feeling in my being.
I am in an interesting place in my embodiment right now. Beginning to shift in each place I am in and learning how to be fully me in all the spaces I am in.
Navigating being ABSD in my nannying & babysitting life.
Finding my boundaries and what I am comfortable with around my name.
Navigating my ge...
2024-05-1924 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast42. High SanctuaryRecorded: March 10, 2024
This episode went in a totally different direction than I expected it to go.
The real reason took me a minute to get to LOL
I talk about processing around the dependency I had created around the habit of smoking.
The Universe is amazing. I was connected with a friend who brought forth an idea and concept that we are both are incredibly passionate about it.
This episode, although it took me a little while to ge...
2024-05-1225 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast42. High SanctuaryRecorded: March 10, 2024
This episode went in a totally different direction than I expected it to go.
The real reason took me a minute to get to LOL
I talk about processing around the dependency I had created around the habit of smoking.
The Universe is amazing. I was connected with a friend who brought forth an idea and concept that we are both are incredibly passionate about it.
This episode, although it took me a little while to ge...
2024-05-1225 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast41. Up-Leveling with ProcessingRecorded: March 8, 2024
As I have begun building my tattoo sleeve, I have had to take some time to process this further.
Processing and healing is just a constant up-leveling journey.
I had to do some tapping on the topic around tattoos in order to process through the limiting beliefs I was experiencing with my new piece.
I was uncomfortable processing this round. I was carrying the fear around what other peoples opinions might be.
Sho...
2024-05-0522 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast41. Up-Leveling with ProcessingRecorded: March 8, 2024
As I have begun building my tattoo sleeve, I have had to take some time to process this further.
Processing and healing is just a constant up-leveling journey.
I had to do some tapping on the topic around tattoos in order to process through the limiting beliefs I was experiencing with my new piece.
I was uncomfortable processing this round. I was carrying the fear around what other peoples opinions might be.
Sho...
2024-05-0522 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast50. SURPRISE RELEASE: Happy One YearRecorded April 27, 2024
Wow, wow, wow!
ONLY TWO DAYS AGO: this one is in real time! 👀
Celebrating one year with the podcast.
On April 29, 2023 - I posted my first podcast episode in secret and one year later I am posting a surprise episode to celebrate 🥳
Posting this episode brings up a new level of vulnerability. Posting in real time with my life and letting all of you see a piece of where my journey is currently to celebrate this space.
I met m...
2024-04-2918 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast50. SURPRISE RELEASE: Happy One YearRecorded April 27, 2024
Wow, wow, wow!
ONLY TWO DAYS AGO: this one is in real time! 👀
Celebrating one year with the podcast.
On April 29, 2023 - I posted my first podcast episode in secret and one year later I am posting a surprise episode to celebrate 🥳
Posting this episode brings up a new level of vulnerability. Posting in real time with my life and letting all of you see a piece of where my journey is currently to celebrate this space.
I met m...
2024-04-2918 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast40. Big Brother 2024Recorded: March 1, 2024
My love for Big Brother shines bright inside of the episode. I recorded this right after I sent off my 5th year application to be a cast member.
The Divine desires that are placed inside of us are there for a reason. Big Brother has been a Divinely placed desire in my life since 2018.
My authenticity really shines through my inner dialogue. I am proud of myself for showing up in this way!
I love you,
AB...
2024-04-2816 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast40. Big Brother 2024Recorded: March 1, 2024
My love for Big Brother shines bright inside of the episode. I recorded this right after I sent off my 5th year application to be a cast member.
The Divine desires that are placed inside of us are there for a reason. Big Brother has been a Divinely placed desire in my life since 2018.
My authenticity really shines through my inner dialogue. I am proud of myself for showing up in this way!
I love you,
AB...
2024-04-2816 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast39. Turning Lack to LoveRecorded: February 27, 2024
My mentality used to be rooted in lack. I was afraid to look at my lack and accept that it was there.
I had to work on creating new pathways in my brain by exercising the muscles.
Looking at the areas in your life that you are experiencing lack and how to transmute that to love.
We all have such beautiful power inside of us and that power looks different for every person.
The effect of c...
2024-04-2137 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast39. Turning Lack to LoveRecorded: February 27, 2024
My mentality used to be rooted in lack. I was afraid to look at my lack and accept that it was there.
I had to work on creating new pathways in my brain by exercising the muscles.
Looking at the areas in your life that you are experiencing lack and how to transmute that to love.
We all have such beautiful power inside of us and that power looks different for every person.
The effect of c...
2024-04-2137 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast38. The Universe is Conspiring in Your FavorRecorded: February 22, 2024
Paige is a somatic & mindset coach and sits in the Inner Dialogue space bringing forth her experience, expertise, and fun loving presence.
We talk about a wide range of topics - from accepting the nudges from the Universe and following those breadcrumbs to releasing the levels of control that go beyond the care of safety.
One of my favorite quotes from the episode is the concept Paige talks about how to “hold this loosely.”
It was such a pleas...
2024-04-141h 05
The Inner Dialogue Podcast38. The Universe is Conspiring in Your FavorRecorded: February 22, 2024
Paige is a somatic & mindset coach and sits in the Inner Dialogue space bringing forth her experience, expertise, and fun loving presence.
We talk about a wide range of topics - from accepting the nudges from the Universe and following those breadcrumbs to releasing the levels of control that go beyond the care of safety.
One of my favorite quotes from the episode is the concept Paige talks about how to “hold this loosely.”
It was such a pleas...
2024-04-141h 05
The Inner Dialogue Podcast37. Healing is NonlinearRecorded: February 20, 2024
Breaking the cycles that I have built around myself so I can live more in alignment day to day. Breaking the revolving door I have been walking in.
Holding my own space and not masking as I walk into any room. Taking up the space I feel I need to take up.
Growing under the surface.
Taking up the habit of becoming a runner. Learning and adjusting as I practice. Proud of myself for trying!
...
2024-04-0720 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast37. Healing is NonlinearRecorded: February 20, 2024
Breaking the cycles that I have built around myself so I can live more in alignment day to day. Breaking the revolving door I have been walking in.
Holding my own space and not masking as I walk into any room. Taking up the space I feel I need to take up.
Growing under the surface.
Taking up the habit of becoming a runner. Learning and adjusting as I practice. Proud of myself for trying!
...
2024-04-0720 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast36. I Am Showing Up TodayRecorded: February 13, 2024
Just to get into the podcast space today was a choice that I had to push myself to make.
Feeling shame around not being in a “socially acceptable career.”
Building new habits into my life.
Taking the opportunity to lean into love. For others or practicing self-love.
As I continue to show up for myself in many ways, this podcasting space has become a positive outlet in my life. I am grateful for this...
2024-03-3122 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast36. I Am Showing Up TodayRecorded: February 13, 2024
Just to get into the podcast space today was a choice that I had to push myself to make.
Feeling shame around not being in a “socially acceptable career.”
Building new habits into my life.
Taking the opportunity to lean into love. For others or practicing self-love.
As I continue to show up for myself in many ways, this podcasting space has become a positive outlet in my life. I am grateful for this...
2024-03-3122 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast35. In TransitionRecorded January 30, 2024
“It’s been an interesting time inside of my mind.”
In this episode I am processing through uncomfortable feelings.
Having been in a transitional place in my life and not knowing what is coming next and how everything is going to come.
I vent about money. My thoughts and opinions about how our society interacts with money.
The importance to me to detach my worth as a human being from the amount of money I...
2024-03-2429 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast35. In TransitionRecorded January 30, 2024
“It’s been an interesting time inside of my mind.”
In this episode I am processing through uncomfortable feelings.
Having been in a transitional place in my life and not knowing what is coming next and how everything is going to come.
I vent about money. My thoughts and opinions about how our society interacts with money.
The importance to me to detach my worth as a human being from the amount of money I...
2024-03-2429 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast34. Embodiment, My Word of the YearRecorded January 15, 2024
Every year, I pick a word that I want to be a guide for me during that year.
This year, I chose EMBODIMENT.
I talk about why I chose this word and the importance it means to me.
This season of my life I have had to grant myself a lot of grace on my nonlinear healing journey.
There has been duality between my head and my heart that I am facing.
The impact of avoiding myself, my feelings, and...
2024-03-1724 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast34. Embodiment, My Word of the YearRecorded January 15, 2024
Every year, I pick a word that I want to be a guide for me during that year.
This year, I chose EMBODIMENT.
I talk about why I chose this word and the importance it means to me.
This season of my life I have had to grant myself a lot of grace on my nonlinear healing journey.
There has been duality between my head and my heart that I am facing.
The impact of avoiding myself, my feelings, and...
2024-03-1724 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast33. Plant Energies with Gaia MoonRecorded January 11, 2024
I have so much in my heart to reflect on from the inner dialogue shared between Gaia and myself.
I will never be able to encompass all that this conversation holds in these words so you are just going to have to go and listen to them yourself.
Gaia is an intuitive medicine maker and energy healer. One of her soul led gifts has led her to the forest.
You can expect to learn about energy exchanges with...
2024-03-101h 05
The Inner Dialogue Podcast33. Plant Energies with Gaia MoonRecorded January 11, 2024
I have so much in my heart to reflect on from the inner dialogue shared between Gaia and myself.
I will never be able to encompass all that this conversation holds in these words so you are just going to have to go and listen to them yourself.
Gaia is an intuitive medicine maker and energy healer. One of her soul led gifts has led her to the forest.
You can expect to learn about energy exchanges with...
2024-03-101h 05
The Inner Dialogue Podcast32. Weclome to 2024Recorded January 1, 2024
This episode is full of reflection:
✨Where I was a year ago
✨Experiencing seasonal depression
✨The holidays and how different they were being in our home for the first time
✨Getting a cat
✨Gratitude for 2023 and becoming me, ABSD
✨Being part of a collective
✨Growth in 2023
✨Embodying myself
I am wishing all of...
2024-03-0315 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast32. Weclome to 2024Recorded January 1, 2024
This episode is full of reflection:
✨Where I was a year ago
✨Experiencing seasonal depression
✨The holidays and how different they were being in our home for the first time
✨Getting a cat
✨Gratitude for 2023 and becoming me, ABSD
✨Being part of a collective
✨Growth in 2023
✨Embodying myself
I am wishing all of...
2024-03-0315 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast31. This Direction is BetterRecorded December 11, 2023
In this episode, I really shine in sharing about all of the growth that is happening in my garden. Tending to myself and taking action to meet people and learn deeper about the new community I live in.
I talk about the intentionality around connecting with amazing people, building friendship connections, and the serendipity that came with some of these introductions.
Reflecting back on myself from Christmas 2022, the mental place I was in and how refreshing it is to be where I am...
2024-02-2527 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast31. This Direction is BetterRecorded December 11, 2023
In this episode, I really shine in sharing about all of the growth that is happening in my garden. Tending to myself and taking action to meet people and learn deeper about the new community I live in.
I talk about the intentionality around connecting with amazing people, building friendship connections, and the serendipity that came with some of these introductions.
Reflecting back on myself from Christmas 2022, the mental place I was in and how refreshing it is to be where I am...
2024-02-2527 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast30. In My StrideEpisode 30. In My Stride
November 27, 2023
I am so immensely proud of myself for continuing to show up in this space. Celebrating my 30th episode.
Love has a ripple effect. A beautiful effect we can add to the whole through being human.
Introducing myself as ABSD, my preferred name. Transitioning into this change and allowing it to become a new norm in my life.
My vibration is HIGH in this episode. I loved listening back to m...
2024-02-1828 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast30. In My StrideEpisode 30. In My Stride
November 27, 2023
I am so immensely proud of myself for continuing to show up in this space. Celebrating my 30th episode.
Love has a ripple effect. A beautiful effect we can add to the whole through being human.
Introducing myself as ABSD, my preferred name. Transitioning into this change and allowing it to become a new norm in my life.
My vibration is HIGH in this episode. I loved listening back to m...
2024-02-1828 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast29. Were Committed to Ten MinutesRecorded November 15, 2023
Join Nick and I for some harmonizing, witty banter, and hanging out with each other.
I invited Nick to sit with me in his inner dialogue and he gave great feedback of what I should bring into our next conversation.
As we move through the jitters and awkwardness, there are some genuine laughs and love that is shared.
I love you,
ABSD
2024-02-0417 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast28. Grace in the JourneyRecorded November 9, 2023
A week of growth.
I am not doing this alone.
Getting news that brought up a lot of unworthiness, feeling incapable, and catastrophizing through these feelings.
Kicking up the dust around money and my worthiness.
Through all of this, realizing how much grace exists inside of this nonlinear healing journey I am. I am grateful for all the grace.
I love you,
ABSD
2024-01-2828 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast27. Unlimited LoveRecorded November 2, 2023
In this episode, I talk about processing a heavy energy inside of me, discovering the theme of unlimited love and riffing on the topic of love, weight and how it effected me as a child, apologizing for existing, and more.
This episode features the song “Fat” written by Kate Yeager. I decide to sing it in the episode and talk about how much I love the song, resonate with the lyrics, and diet culture in my generation of being raised.
RESOURCES:
Ange...
2024-01-2245 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast26. Local GovernmentRecorded October 21, 2023
I have been asked the question often if I am going to get involved with my local government. For a long time, my answer was indifferent.
After attending an event that had local government tones to it, my spark for passion around this was lit again.
I still do not have all the answers, but I am continuing to listen to the beautiful guidance that is given to me.
I love you,
ABSD
2024-01-1434 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast25. Holy Shit, I Am GratefulEpisode 25. Holy Shit, I Am Grateful
Recorded October 17, 2023
Riffs and rants during deep gratitude. Podcasting for the first time in my office with my painted sun in the background and letting myself flow.
All of the shifts we have made in our household to be more environmental.
Navigating my fear and letting it guide me to my deepest desires.
Identifying and introducing myself as ABSD - embodying myself.
I am g...
2024-01-0737 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast25. Holy Shit, I Am GratefulEpisode 25. Holy Shit, I Am Grateful
Recorded October 17, 2023
Riffs and rants during deep gratitude. Podcasting for the first time in my office with my painted sun in the background and letting myself flow.
All of the shifts we have made in our household to be more environmental.
Navigating my fear and letting it guide me to my deepest desires.
Identifying and introducing myself as ABSD - embodying myself.
I am g...
2024-01-0737 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast24. We're Talking About Sex (forreal this time)Recorded October 13, 2023
Live from Minneapolis, Minnesota
Joined with special guests Kara and Stacy
This an excellent episode if you are looking to learn more about sex, curious about how to talk about sex, or want to hear banter of three highly amazing humans talking about personal stories with the lens of sex.
Here are some of the topics we broach in our time together: breaking down assumptions, normalizing having sex with yourself, what is normal, reasons to have sex, learning the language and how to grow...
2023-12-312h 12
The Inner Dialogue Podcast23. Abundance in Our New HomeEpisode 23. Abundance in Our New Home
Recorded September 2, 2023
Coming to you live for the first time in our new house!!
The Divine is speaking through me in this one. The riffs that come out of me in this space today are powerful.
As I have been blessed with abundance in my life, it has grown as I have deepened in gratitude.
I am grateful for the lessons I have learned along the way and the...
2023-12-2436 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast22. The Universe GuidesEpisode 22. The Universe Guides
Recorded August 20, 2023
It is truly amazing how the Universe nudges us towards opportunities and brings different things into our world.
In this episode, I dive deep into how the Universe has been showing me the path and the beauty in listening to the nudges.
I love listening back to life a few months ago and now that I have lived all these experiences out and have been the great impact they have had on my li...
2023-12-1743 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast21. Clearing Energy Inside of Me.Episode 21. Clearing Energy Inside of Me.
Recorded August 13, 2023
I share a vulnerable experience that I had and how I was able to ground myself and clear my energy after the fact.
I listen back to this experience in time and I am beyond proud of me. Proud of how I handled it, honored my feelings, and gave space to process it fully.
Life is unexpected. It is how we take those moments and let them impact us. We still hav...
2023-12-1021 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast20. Grounded.Episode 20. Grounded.
Recorded August 7, 2023
Grateful & Grounded.
This episode is a Divine Download.
After spending a week as a therapist for the Nonprofit Adams Camp, I speak through a new perspective on life and love.
I am grateful for all the life experiences that teach me valuable lessons to bring into the future with me.
I love you,
ABSD
2023-12-0326 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast19. Mother Moon, I See YouEpisode 19. Mother Moon, I See You.
Recorded July 29, 2023
Y’all I am in it.
I believe that we as human beings are not meant to live in the fear of money. In this episode, I riff on this topic.
A huge chunk of this episode is reliving our overnight trip to Boulder. I go through the photos from our trip & how the imagery of the whole evening made me feel - be sure to check out these photos on Inst...
2023-11-2643 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast18. Manifesting MagicEpisode 18. Manifesting Magic
Recorded July 26, 2023
I am not gonna lie, listening back to this episode I felt a huge amount of imposter syndrome.
Where I am today, is much different than where I was back in July. This is amazing to see and also terrifying at times.
Some areas which I thought I would have made more progress or growth in, I have not moved much in at all. I have to remind myself of the grace that exists an...
2023-11-1926 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast17. Home AloneRecorded July 18, 2023
With Nick away on a work trip, I was home alone for the first time in our marriage. I go out of town often but this was a first with Nick being the one out of town.
The amount of gratitude shared in this episode is really amazing.
This journey is interesting, even for me. I sit in my Inner Dialogue and allow whatever is meant to flow out of me to flow.
Listening to this back almost 4 months later...
2023-11-1222 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast8. After Call with Kara! (Part 2)CW: suicide, self-harm, anger, family
If you or anyone in your circle needs support: The 988 Lifeline provides 24/7, confidential support to people in suicidal crisis or mental health-related distress. By calling or texting 988, you'll connect to mental health professionals with the Lifeline network.
🧠🎙️ This episode is a cool one. After our first conversation in the Inner Dialogue space, I called Kara to check back in about the conversation we initially had. That dialogue led us back into this space to continue talking about topics that were started in the first space we shared.
I recommend listening to the Sex, Sexuality, and Safety w...
2023-11-091h 37
The Inner Dialogue Podcast16. Processing After a Week Volunteering at CampRecorded July 14, 2023
This summer, I spent a week volunteering at summer camp.
Adams Camp is a local nonprofit that uses unique therapy and adventure programs who help special needs children, youth and adults reach for the stars.
My group this summer was the oldest campers that week, 27+. The cool thing about Adams Camp is that there is no cap on age with attending their programs. My oldest camper was 42!
I took so much away from my time at camp this summer, the lessons that I am still learning over 3 months later...
2023-11-0217 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast6. Sex, Sexuality, & Safety (Part 1) with Kara!DISCLAIMER: We cover a wide range of topics inside of this episode. Some topics could bring up strong feelings inside of you - give yourself the space to sit with it. Reach out to a trusted friend if need be.
If you or anyone you know is dealing with suicide, the 988 Lifeline provides 24/7, confidential support to people in suicidal crisis or mental health-related distress. By calling or texting 988, you'll connect to mental health professionals with the Lifeline network.
This is one of the coolest conversations to list back to.
I am so grateful for Kara an...
2023-10-171h 46
The Inner Dialogue Podcast15. What My Queerness Means to MeRecorded July 4, 2023
This episode of the Inner Dialogue Podcast is special to me. At the beginning, I work through some anxiety as I am leading into the story of what my queerness means to me.
As I have learned more about my queerness and what it means for my life, it is a joy to be able to share it with all of you. My queerness is a part of me, it is a huge piece of how I show up and my authenticity.
...
2023-10-0724 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast12. Finding My Way BackRecorded on June 25, 2023
For my own safety in showing up online and being authentic in this journey, I will be posting podcast episodes with a gap in time when it is happening in my own life.
While editing this episode, that I recorded 6 weeks ago, I am so proud of the work and growth I have accomplished. It is a really special moment to be able to listen back at where I was at the end of June, to where I am today.
For the record...
2023-08-1525 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast11. Space For Me, Part TwoIt really is amazing how important giving yourself space to sit with the present moments in your life. I have found that allowing myself this stillness is how I truly find the best solutions.
Through dealing with imposter syndrome and finding safety in this space online, I am learning more about me.
This journey is just that - a space for me to become me. To live out my authenticity and to find grace when it is messy in the learning process.
I believe that the greatest journey in life is the one...
2023-07-1726 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast10. Giving Space for What I NeedAs of late, I have had to process some imposter syndrome that I have been feeling about this podcast space.
Something I did not realize until I did it, was all the big feelings that would come up when posting on social media this passion project I am working on.
Everyday I find new roots to process and to work through - in this episode I am doing some of that processing and reminding myself I am safe to show up and to be me.
I love you,
🤍☀️ ABSD
2023-07-0420 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast9. A Year of Hair GrowthToday marks ONE YEAR of hair growth!! 🥳
🧠🎙️ I dive into my experience shaving my head, breaking out of beauty standards, learning to love me, and the freedom that came with this decision. It is amazing to look back and see the physical growth my hair has done but also my internal growth that has happened too.
Now that it has been a full year, I am ready for a haircut ✂️ time to prune & keep growing 🤍
I love you,
ABSD
☀️🤍
To continue the conversation, follow me on Instagram @thealyss
2023-05-2940 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast7. May 8, 2023: Processing PotcastRecorded May 8, 2023
🤍🧠Welcome back to the POT-CAST. This is a series of episodes where I am processing high and talking about my life’s Inner Dialogue. 🤍🧠
First off, I apologize about the background static - I learned in this episode greatly how much me shuffling my feet adds sound into the background….podcast growth!
It is really cool editing a piece of content that was from a few weeks ago in my life. I am already in such a different place than I was in a few weeks ago. I have had to face some big mom...
2023-05-2429 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast5. Potcast with Nick!Practicing in the podcast space with our first guest! I asked my partner (with no notice) if he would sit in the podcasting space with me to help me see what it is like to have a guest in this space!
I appreciate his presence and the ability to sit with Nick in this way. It excites me for the many conversations to happen with so many fun people in the Inner Dialogue space.
Thank you my love!
If you have interest in sitting in this space, reach out to me @theabsddeloach on...
2023-05-2145 min
The Inner Dialogue Podcast4. The First of ManyTHE POTCAST IS HERE!!!
The first ever true episode of the processing potcast is now LIVE! If you aren't a fan of weed, in general, this podcast is not for you.
Remember, we are not striving for perfection but for growth. This potcast I sit in processing and talk about a wide range of things that feel important to me in my life right now. From now on going forward, we will have potcast episodes and also topic podcast episodes in this inner dialogue space.
Sit back, enjoy, get ready to laugh and...
2023-05-2022 min