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The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#021 – Surviving Christmas After an AffairChristmas after an affair can feel unbearable.While the world expects joy, gratitude, and togetherness, you may be secretly surviving something that feels anything but festive. The aftermath of an affair has a way of becoming louder at this time of year. There are fewer distractions, more time together, more family gatherings, and an unspoken pressure to be “okay” when you are very much not.In this episode, I speak directly to the woman who is getting through Christmas minute by minute.The woman who feels like she’s watching her life from the ou...
2025-12-2328 min
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#020 – Why You Can’t Heal Your Affair Alone: The Power of Women Who Truly Get ItMost women in the aftermath of an affair try to heal alone.Not because they want to, but because shame tells them it’s too embarrassing to be seen.In today’s conversation, I’m joined by my close friend and fellow coach, Lucy Maeve. We talk about why healing on your own can only take you so far, and why women who have been betrayed someone they love need a community who support them as they navigate the rough waters they are in.We explore why: shame dissolves through empathy from others...
2025-12-1659 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#019 – Why Your Affair Felt So Intense but You Felt Numb Outside of ItMost women in the aftermath of an affair are drowning in questions they are struggling to find answers for:“Why did it feel so intense?”“Why did it make me feel so alive?”“Why did everything else in my life feel flat?”“Does this mean I’m broken or a bad person?”“Does this mean I should leave my partner?”In this episode, I speak directly to the secret most women who’ve cheated will never uncover:You didn’t cheat because you wanted someone else.You cheated be...
2025-12-0925 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#018 – When You Think You’ve Ruined Love ForeverMost women believe their affair means they’ve destroyed their chance at love. But what if the moment everything fell apart was actually the moment your life cracked open? What if it was the doorway into the deepest love you’ve ever known?In today’s episode, I share the truth I wish someone had told me years ago - that deep love isn’t effortless or pretty. It asks more of you. It requires honesty, vulnerability, and letting someone see the parts you’ve hidden your whole life. And for so many of us, that depth didn’t fee...
2025-12-0222 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#017 – The Aftermath: What Helped, What Didn’t, and How I Survived the First MonthsYou told the truth, or maybe the truth came out. Either way, you’re in the fallout now. The shame is heavy. The guilt feels constant. And there’s a part of you wondering if you’re ever going to feel okay again.I made this episode for you.For the woman sitting in the rubble of her relationship, still trying to breathe while the world she built is burning.In this solo episode, I share the messy, honest, never-before-told details of what happened after I revealed my affair, and exactly how I surviv...
2025-11-2538 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#016 – Two Women. Two Affairs. And The Beginning of Their BecomingIn this episode, I sat down with women’s coach Diera Story, who, like me, had an affair that changed everything.We talk about what really sits beneath infidelity when you’re the woman who was supposed to have it all together.How shame begins long before the betrayal.And how losing everything becomes the moment you finally start to become yourself.Diera shares how early motherhood cracked her open, how her perfect life began to unravel, and how the affair became the wake-up call she didn’t know she needed.We tal...
2025-11-181h 12The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#015 – How I Opened My Heart After an Affair and a DivorceI remember sitting in front of my therapist, six months after my marriage ended, tears running down my face - “What if no one ever loves me again?”At that point, I’d been through a divorce, I’d cheated on my husband, and I’d made a mess of dating after it all. I felt broken, like damaged goods.And underneath that was the deeper fear: that maybe I was unlovable.In this episode, I share the real story of how I moved from that place into the deepest, most honest love of my life...
2025-11-1130 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#014 – I Used to Be Terrified Anyone Would Find Out. Now My Story’s in the Daily MailSix and a half years ago, I was carrying a secret that felt absolutely terrifying to say out loud.I was so scared that anyone would find out about my affair - I felt ashamed, sick with guilt, hiding behind the version of me that looked “fine.”Today, that same story has been printed across a double-page spread in The Daily Mail.And it proves to me, once and for all, that shame no longer runs my life.In this episode, I share what it took to move from silence to self...
2025-11-0425 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#013 – Losing Friendships After the Affair, and Finding Belonging AgainWhen I cheated on my husband, I didn’t just lose him, I lost my friends too.For years, those friendships had felt like family. We spent birthdays, weddings, holidays together - I thought they’d be there for life. But when my marriage ended, it all changed. Some drifted. Others ended overnight. And the loneliness that followed was unlike anything I’d ever felt.In this episode, I talk about what really happens when the friendships you thought were forever can’t survive your awakening. How shame shapes connection. Why longevity doesn’t equal intimacy...
2025-10-2827 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#012 – Seven Years in Hiding: A Woman’s Journey from Shame to TruthThis week I had the pleasure of meeting Kristina Joy - a devoted Christian wife and mother, until the secret she carried for seven years forced her to face everything she believed about love, faith, and herself.In this conversation, Kristina shares the story she once swore she’d never say out loud, the affair that became both her deepest shame and her greatest awakening.We speak about the loneliness that hides inside “goodness,” the pressure to be the perfect woman, and how religious conditioning can separate us from our own desires. We explore what happen...
2025-10-2153 min
SLUG Mag SoundwavesEpisode #487 — The LingoLead vocalist Adam Borgione, bassist Alex Millet, keyboardist Joe Pedersen, guitarist Sam Morrison and drummer Bridger Croxford make up the band The Lingo. … read more
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2025-10-1720 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#011 – The Phoenix Rising: When the Affair Becomes Your AwakeningEp 11 — The Phoenix Rising: When the Affair Becomes Your AwakeningWe think the affair is the end.The end of love.The end of trust.The end of who we thought we were.But what if it’s not the end at all?What if it’s the moment you finally wake up?Before my affair, I was sleepwalking through life.On the treadmill of doing everything “right” - the job, the marriage, the house, the plan.Smiling. Performing. Holding it...
2025-10-1431 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#010 – You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From YourselfEp 10 - You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From YourselfThere’s the version of you everyone sees.Smiling. Functioning. Saying you’re fine.And then there’s the version of you no one sees.Carrying the secret.Numb. Anxious. Afraid of what would happen if the truth ever got out.I know that version well — because I lived her.After my affair, I didn’t collapse on the outside.I became “better.” More successful. More accommodating. More perfect.But the whole ti...
2025-10-0711 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#009 – The Year of The Clusterf*ck and How I Finally Chose MyselfContent note: This episode contains references to sexual assault, harassment, and STI. Please listen with care and take the space you need.I thought the hardest part was over when my marriage ended. I’d told my husband I cheated. We’d tried therapy. We’d separated with kindness. I moved into my own place and thought: I’ve survived the worst of it.But what came next was what I now call the year of the clusterfuck.A year of red flags I ignored.Boundaries crossed and crossed again.
2025-09-3037 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#008 – Relationship Anxiety, The Cool Girl, and The Affair with Georgie CollinsonYou can love someone and still betray them. You can be strong, independent, the cool girl… and still find yourself in an affair.In this conversation with Australia’s leading anxiety therapist, Georgie Collinson, we go deep into the ways anxiety and self-betrayal shape our relationships:How high-functioning anxiety becomes the mask of the cool girlWhy silence and “I don’t need you” energy always lead to disconnectionThe hidden link between childhood wounds, yearning, and affairsGeorgie’s first public share of her own affair story — and what it taught her abo...
2025-09-2348 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#007 – Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral FailureEpisode 7: Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral FailureThis one’s for the woman asking herself:“What is wrong with me?”“Why didn’t I just leave?”“How did I do this again?”In this episode, I explore why cheating isn’t just a one-off mistake, it’s often part of a deeper survival pattern shaped by emotional disconnection, shutdown, and unmet needs.We look at:How your nervous system drives the behaviour you can’t make sense ofWhy shame keeps you stuck...
2025-09-1629 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#007 – Why Cheating Is A Pattern, Not A Moral FailureEpisode 7: Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral FailureThis one’s for the woman asking herself:“What is wrong with me?”“Why didn’t I just leave?”“How did I do this again?”In this episode, I explore why cheating isn’t just a one-off mistake, it’s often part of a deeper survival pattern shaped by emotional disconnection, shutdown, and unmet needs.We look at:How your nervous system drives the behaviour you can’t make sense ofWhy shame keeps you stuck...
2025-09-1610 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#006 – The Part of You Who Cheated Was Trying to SurviveYou didn’t cheat because you’re a bad person.You cheated because something in you was trying to survive.Your chest tightens. Your stomach drops.The shame rushes in.And you think: “Why did I do that?”Most people miss this part: Cheating isn’t always a conscious choice.It can be a nervous system response.In this week’s episode of The Deeper Love Podcast, I break down: ✨ Why cheating can be a survival response, not a choice ✨ How you we...
2025-09-0915 min
Anxiety Reset PodcastEP 332: "I'm The One Who Cheated" - Releasing Guilt & Shame with Alex CroxfordIn this heartfelt episode, I speak with the delightful Alex Croxford, who helps women release guilt and shame so they can open themselves up to the deep love they crave at a soul level. Alex shares her powerful story of being the one who cheated - a perspective that carries so much stigma and silence, yet also offers profound lessons in healing, forgiveness, and growth. Whether you've been the one who cheated, the one who was cheated on, or you simply know the heavy weight of guilt and shame in your own life, this conversation will meet...
2025-09-0853 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#005 – Cheating Doesn’t Happen in a VacuumWe’re taught to see cheating as a simple equation: one person betrays, the other is betrayed. End of story. But the truth is never that clean.In this episode, I share why an affair is never just about the moment it happened or the person it happened with. It’s about everything that came before - the silences, the unspoken needs, the glass walls that build up between two people - long before a boundary is crossed.You’ll hear:Why loneliness inside a relationship is one of the deepest fractures of all
2025-08-2619 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#004 - Why You Cheated Isn’t the Real WhyMost women think they know why they cheated.“I wasn’t seen. I felt lonely. I felt unwanted. I was bored. He didn’t love me.”And while those stories are true on the surface, they are not the root.In this episode, I take you deeper. We’ll look at the why beneath the why - the patterns of silencing, perfection, and strength-at-all-costs that began long before the affair.The truth is, the affair wasn’t the problem. It was the symptom.You’ll hear:Why the real cause...
2025-08-2022 minThe Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#003 - When You’ve Been Cheated On: Jessica’s Story of Love, Betrayal, and HealingWhat does it really take to rebuild after betrayal?In this episode, I’m joined by fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes, who shares her raw and powerful story of discovering her partner’s infidelity and the journey they took to heal together.We talk about:The moment she found out and how it shattered her worldWhy “just leave” isn’t the right answer for everyoneThe messy, non-linear process of rebuilding trustThe deeper wounds and patterns betrayal can reveal, and how facing them can transform a relationsh...
2025-08-201h 34The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#002 - The Coldplay Scandal, Betrayal, and What We’re Missing in the ConversationWhen a betrayal hits the headlines, like the recent Coldplay cheating scandal, the internet rushes to judge.The memes, the moral high ground, the smug commentary. But what’s really going on beneath the noise?In this episode, I sit down with fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes and Therapeutic Coach Lucy Maeve to talk about what’s missing from the public conversation around infidelity. We explore:Why betrayal is rarely just about lust or opportunityHow childhood wounds, disconnection, and unspoken needs can quietly lead us heThe shame spiral wome...
2025-08-191h 31
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS2#001 – My Story: Why I Cheated on Someone I LovedI never thought I’d be the kind of woman who cheated on her husband, and I’m guessing neither did you.In this episode, I share my story through the lens of a woman who’s had an affair and broken her own heart in the process. Not the surface version, but the truth beneath it: the silence, disconnection, perfectionism, and old wounds that led me there - long before the infidelity happened.If you’ve ever thought “I’ve had an affair and now I feel broken” or “I don’t know if I’ll ever trust my...
2025-08-1929 min
The MidwitchInfertility and Infidelity with Alex CroxfordIn this intimate reunion episode, I sit down with international Love and Relationship Coach for Women, Alex Croxford - five years after first crossing paths in a Conscious Conception Tarot Reading Alex booked with me, in which the message of her infedility also came through. (Yes we recap that - and the messages that came through from her gorgeous Spirit Baby!)What unfolded for Alex after 2020 became the catalyst for a profound unraveling and reawakening in Alex’s life.We explore the rarely voiced story of a woman’s journey in both infidelity - and i...
2025-05-231h 00
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS1#005 | Escaping the Grip of Narcissistic Abuse with Nastassia MarieIn this episode:Alex Croxford sits down with Nastassia Marie, a trauma-informed educator and practitioner specializing in narcissistic abuse recovery. Nastassia’s journey of healing from a history of challenging relationships and family trauma fuels her powerful work, as she brings compassion, humor, and depth to complex subjects. Together, they explore the importance of recognizing inherited trauma, understanding narcissistic abuse, and how self-awareness can lead to a safe, fulfilling love.This episode is a profound discussion on breaking free from destructive patterns, rebuilding self-worth, and how trauma-informed healing offers a pathway to self-discovery and genuine co...
2025-03-201h 08
Empowered HeartsOut of the mind and into the heart with Woman's transformational life coach, Alex CroxfordEver wished you had the fancy car, fancy job, "perfect relationship" and 4 bedroom house? I bet after listening to this episode you'll think a bit differently. Empowered Hearts fans, meet Alex Croxford. A women's transformational coach who's mission is to teach you how to be in your heart. Now you may ask "why is that important"? Well, when you live from your heart you are able to not live in your pain. When you live from your heart you're able to really access true joy, yes you heard me...TRUE JOY!!!!! We have been taught...
2025-01-281h 09
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS1#004 | Breaking Patterns & Building Trust with Cody Mathieson PackerIn this episode:Alex Croxford hosts Cody Mathieson Packer, a men’s transformation guide, to discuss the complex dynamics between men and women in relationships. Cody shares his personal journey of overcoming challenges, including a tumultuous marriage and career setbacks, to rediscover himself and step into his role as a guide for men. Together, they explore how men can confront deep-seated fears, rewrite their pasts, and show up authentically in relationships. This conversation brings to light the importance of self-responsibility, healing old wounds, and cultivating healthy connections.Highlights:✨ Cody recounts his journ...
2024-10-161h 28
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS1#003 | Become The Partner You Want with Persia LawsonIn this episode:In this episode, Alex Croxford interviews Persia Lawson, a top UK dating and relationship coach, to explore the journey of inner healing, and personal transformation in pursuit of meaningful romantic relationships. They dive into Persia’s personal evolution from her own tumultuous love life to coaching high-achieving women to find fulfilling relationships by working on themselves first.Highlights:✨Persia shares her personal story of overcoming chaotic relationships and magnetising her husband of 8 years ✨The secret she used to shift her external world and change her romantic life✨We d...
2024-09-251h 21
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS1#002 | Reclaim Your Sexual Power and Transform Your Love Life with Amy WhiteIn this episode:Alex Croxford welcomes Amy White, a somatic sexual healing coach and founder of Temple of the Feminine, to explore sacred sexuality, feminine energy, and how women can reclaim their sexual power through self-awareness and emotional connection. Amy shares her personal journey of awakening and healing through kundalini tantra yoga and discusses how celibacy can be a powerful tool for empowerment and self-discovery.Highlights:✨ Amy's transformative experience with kundalini tantra yoga, which awakened her sexual energy and led to a deeper connection with her body.✨ How cultivating a deeper rela...
2024-09-251h 01
The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She LovedS1#001 | My Story with Alex CroxfordIn this episode:In the very first episode of The Deeper Love podcast, Alex Croxford takes you on a raw, emotional journey through her personal story of heartbreak, inner transformation, and spiritual awakening. From the outside, Alex had what many would call a perfect life: successful career, marriage, and all the external markers of achievement. But beneath the surface, she was battling deep-seated wounds and patterns of self-abandonment. In this episode, Alex shares how heartbreak became her portal to freedom and how she discovered that true transformation begins with facing the deepest most sh...
2024-08-0157 min
What in the WorldWhy are so many historic celebrity sexual assault cases being filed now?P Diddy, Russell Brand, Jamie Foxx. Those are just three of the male celebrities who’ve been hit with sexual assault lawsuits in recent weeks. All three deny the claims. Those lawsuits were all filed because of a New York law with a one-year time limit, called the Adult Survivors Act. It’s led to a huge rise in accusations.Plus, BBC investigative reporter Rianna Croxford explains how the people she spoke to for her recent investigation into Abercrombie and Fitch have been using this law to take the fashion company to court.Emai...
2023-11-2813 min
Witchy Business034 - Love & Relationships with Alex CroxfordThis week we chat to Alex Croxford, a feminine embodiment, love & relationship Maturation Coach. And we had so much fun!
We chat about her journey, and how she went from being married and working as a TV exec to where she is today. She generously shares what she learnt from her divorce, career change and moving out of London.
A chat worth listening to no matter your relationship status. Alex’s energy is infectious, you’ll absolutely love her!
Make sure to follow Alex on Instagram: @iamalexcroxford
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2023-11-2448 min
Higher Love with Megan#33. Healing Relationship Patterns: Turn Your Pain into Power with Alex CroxfordUp on the podcast this week we have Alex Croxford. Alex is a transformational coach who supports women to heal their relationship issues from the root in order to cultivate deeper connection, inner peace and freedom. Her vision is to break down the protective walls humanity has built around their hearts so that love can rule the world.
About Alex:
In 2018, Alex found herself in total despair; beneath the surface of her ‘perfect life’ her marriage had started to disintegrate along with the relationship to her body and her emotional health. She soon...
2023-07-211h 16
The Podcast Archives - The Dice Men ComethThe Dice Men Cometh – Episode 342
Yes, yes and yes, we’re back with more of our PAXtravangza goodness and this episode is chock full of interviews from those we love and whose games we play!
This episode features interviews with Launch Tabletop who are on a mission to….well, you’ll just need to listen, as well as so many of the indy developers we simply can’t list them all here!
We feature two of the hidden PAX gems that Garth and Mark discovered in the TDGA Collaboratory space – A little roll and write called Floodlands that came out of nowhere...
2022-10-3000 min