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That's So Fcked UpTSFU Throwback: Ep. 131 - Love Hurts: Valentine's Day Horror Stories from Listeners Like YouNEW EPISODE OUT ON PATREON TODAY! Free feed friends, catch us for a brand new episode next Friday or join our Patreon for early, ad-free access and much more!Ash and former co-host Michelle Mosher are joined by hilarious historian, host of HILF: History I'd Like To Fck, Dawn Brody! For Valentine's Day 2023 the gals brought you your own tales of dating, romance and love gone wrong.We got a toooon of submissions from Colorado, Denver in particular... ladies of Denver, STAY STRONG! We are so sorry, and thank you for sharing your horror stories with u...
2026-02-131h 39That's So Fcked UpJANUARY SPOOKTACULAR (CONT.): TSFU Ep. 165 - SPOOKY: The Amityville Murders and HauntingJoin Ashley and Fallon as they reconnect after a break, catching us up on life’s latest ups and downs—housing insecurity, mental health struggles, and some serious community love. Fallon shares news about stepping back from co-hosting, and the gals dive headfirst into the spine-chilling tale of the Amityville Horror.From the tragic DeFeo murders to the Lutz family’s eerie encounters, they cover paranormal scares, family drama, and the infamous investigations by Ed and Lorraine Warren. It’s a mix of personal updates, ghostly thrills, and supernatural skepticism! To hear a...
2026-02-1055 minThat's So Fcked UpJANUARY SPOOKTACULAR (CONT.): Devious Dolls - Ep. 4: AnnabelleAsh is joined by long time Guru and research assistant Celi Riojas as they wrap up the Devious Dolls season!Ash tells Celi about one of the word's most infamous dolls, Annabelle. But the real Annabelle isn't like the scary one in the Conjuring movies, she's just an innocent looking Raggedy Anne doll... with very sinister intentions. Ashley also denounces her love of Ed and Lorraine Warren after finding out that Ed was allegedly sleeping with a 15 year old while married to Lorraine (which she apparently knew about), and that he was physically abusive towards Lorraine... Make sure...
2026-02-0645 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU Ep. 185- SPOOKY: The Smurl Haunting, The True Story Behind "The Conjuring: Last Rites"Ash tells a story (besides her own - "TSFU Ep. 180- MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE: The Ashley Love Richards Story (Parts I-III) available now on Patreon) for the first time in 6-8 months, digging back into her obsession with the Warrens and The Conjuring franchise! She unearths a lot of very unsavory facts about the previously beloved Warrens... and tells the true story behind the fourth and "final" Conjuring movie, The Conjuring: Last Rites, about The Smurl family, who was viciously haunted and attacked in their home in West Pittston, Pennsylvania for over a decade.
2026-01-161h 06That's So Fcked UpTSFU’s 12 Faves of Christmas: Ep 35 - Rockin’ Around the Ramsey Case Part IIWelcome to a festive rewind through 5.5 years of chaos, cults and crime!🎁On the second day of Faves-Mas TSFU gave to me... Ep. 35 - Theory: An Intruder Did It- JonBeńet Ramsey Part II (with Cam, Dec 2020)In the second part of this two part episode Cam wraps up the RDI theory with some potential scenarios in which Burke may have done it. Ashley goes over several other possible suspects, and presents the evidence suggesting that it may have been an intruder, or intruders, that committed the murder.-Joi...
2025-12-131h 05
Shadow Me Next!Exam Room Nutrition: A PA's Journey to Compassionate Patient Education | Colleen Sloan, PA-C, RDNWhen a terrified 10-year-old boy walked into Colleen Sloan's pediatric practice in tears, she discovered he'd been monitoring his weight obsessively after another provider warned he'd "need needles in his stomach" if he didn't lose weight. This moment exemplifies everything wrong with how healthcare approaches nutrition conversations—and sparked a mission to change it.As both a pediatric physician assistant and registered dietitian nutritionist, Colleen brings rare dual expertise to the critical intersection of medicine and nutrition. Her journey from clinical dietetics working with critically ill children to PA school while raising a child showcases her remarkable de...
2025-05-0542 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU INTERVIEWS: Ep. 5- Erin Riley, Author of "A Dark Force: 20 Years with a Covert Narcissist"In this episode of TSFU Interviews, Fallon chats with Erin Riley, author of "A Dark Force: 20 Years with a Covert Narcissist". They talk about recognizing narcissistic abuse and ways to process and deal with it, as well as her adventures in and around the music business"!Celebrated music maven Erin Riley looked like she had it all: a 1960s Mad Men–style upbringing on Manhattan’s Upper West Side, then an escape to “find herself” in glamorous 1970s Hollywood, where she landed some of the most influential positions of the 1980s music industry. She hung out with rock stars li...
2025-02-1045 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU INTERVIEWS: Ep. 4- McCracken Poston Jr., Author of "Zenith Man: Death, Love, and Redemption in a Georgia Courtroom"One of Ash's amazing and incredibily varied co-hosts, Fallon Morey sits down with criminal defense attorney McCracken Poston Jr., who represented Alvin Ridley—a reclusive man at the center of a gripping murder trial. Alvin, often misunderstood due to his eccentricities and autism, was accused of killing his wife, though the story turned out to be far more complex. McCracken shares the wild twists of the case, the challenges of defending a misunderstood client, and the importance of autism awareness in navigating the legal system.McCracken King Poston Jr. is an American criminal defense attorney and part-time juvenile co...
2024-12-191h 05
Shadow Me Next!You're Invited to Shadow Me Next: How Virtual Shadowing can Impact your view of Medicine | Ashley Love, PA-CEver wondered what it takes to thrive in the demanding yet rewarding world of dermatology? Join us on Shadow Me Next as we reveal the daily ins and outs of a dermatology clinic, where a Physician Assistant like me navigates patient care from acne treatments to the intricate Mohs surgery. Through personal anecdotes and real clinic experiences, we unravel the complexities of patient assessments and the pivotal role of education in enabling informed healthcare decisions. Drawing from my own journey as a PA and insights from my time in OBGYN, this episode offers a unique look at the parallels...
2024-12-1629 min
Shadow Me Next!Shadow Me Next! Exploring the Realities of a Career in MedicineEver wondered what truly drives healthcare professionals to dedicate their lives to healing others? Join me, Ashley, as I pull back the curtain on the medical field with Shadow Me Next, a podcast crafted for those curious about the heart and soul of healthcare. Through genuine stories and heartfelt conversations, we'll explore the vibrant lives and unique journeys of doctors, physician assistants, nurse practitioners, and other allied health workers. Whether you're pre-health; a recent grad; practicing medicine as a doctor, physician assistant, nurse practitioner, physical therapist, nurse; or simply passionate about medicine, this episode promises a front-row seat to t...
2024-11-2704 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU Ep. 165- SPOOKY: The Amityville Murders and HauntingJoin Ashley and Fallon as they reconnect after a break, catching us up on life’s latest ups and downs—housing insecurity, mental health struggles, and some serious community love. Fallon shares news about stepping back from co-hosting, and the gals dive headfirst into the spine-chilling tale of the Amityville Horror.From the tragic DeFeo murders to the Lutz family’s eerie encounters, they cover paranormal scares, family drama, and the infamous investigations by Ed and Lorraine Warren. It’s a mix of personal updates, ghostly thrills, and supernatural skepticism for Spooky Season!Note: If you missed t...
2024-11-0254 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU Ep. 163- Exotic Animal Cults: Doc Antle and "Chimp Crazy"If you watched Tiger King on Netflix in 2020, you probably remember the a**hole with a long ponytail who constantly dresses like he's on safari and surrounds himself with skinny women who like like Jane from Tarzan, constantly toting tigers on leashes. That man was Doc Antle, owner of Myrtle Beach Safari, the "zoo" that inspired Joe Exotic to open The Greater Wynnewood Exotic Animal Park. Antle started off as a magician who got real tight with famous Guru Swami Satchidananda Saraswati, and became somewhat of a celebrity at Swami's Yogaville compound in Virginia. He began claiming to be a d...
2024-09-201h 25That's So Fcked UpSPOOKY FAVE: Serial Killer Allan Legere and Family Annihilators Frank & Herald AlexanderCan y'all believe it's almost October?!? As a little taste of spooky season, we're pulling this extra creepy, extra horrific episode from the vaults. Ash and Cam talk about some of the most fucked up murders that they've ever heard of- listener discretion is advised for this one y'all! Yowzers!Cam uncovers the shocking murders committed by Canadian serial killer Allan Legere, AKA The Monster of the Miramichi, who stalked, prowled, and terrorized this area of the remote Canadian countryside for more than a decade.Ashley goes over the horrific Alexander Family murders, in which 16 year o...
2024-09-171h 07
VBAC Homebirth Stories PodcastEP138 | Ashley: Breech HBA2CHi, everyone! It’s Ashley here, and I’m thrilled to bring you another episode of the VBAC Homebirth Stories Podcast.
This week, I had the pleasure of chatting with another Ashley, who shares her incredible breech homebirth story. Her journey is both inspiring and empowering, and I can't wait for you to hear all about it.
Before we dive in, just a quick reminder about my Homebirth Group Mentoring Programme. This is the last live round I'll be running this year, so now’s your chance to take advantage of early bird pricing.
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2024-09-041h 28That's So Fcked UpTSFU PRESENTS: Yucky Yogis- Ep. 3: Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh and The Rajneesh MovementAshley and former co-host Cam team up to tell the story of the infamous Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh (AKA the sex guru, aka the Rolls-Royce guru, aka Osho), his advisor Sheela, and their unimaginably intricate Oregonian scandal. Ashley covers Bhagwan's background and how he earned his nickname, the "sex guru", as well as what eventually happened to the commune and its wild, wild leaders. Cam talks about Bhagwan's laughing gas addiction, Sheela's attempt to poison an entire Oregon County, and the rest of the crazy shenanigans that these hoodlums got up to! ✨Check out our...
2024-08-261h 31That's So Fcked UpSUMMER FUN FAVES: Mystery Island- Metal Dentures, Mayhem and MurderAsh and former co-host Cam talk about the nuts-o shenanigans that went down on the Galapagos island of Floreana in the early 1930s in the last episode of season 4 from 2021! Jeepers Creepers!Ash covers nudist, Nietzsche obsessed, metal denture sharing, German couple Dr. Friedrich Ritter and his younger lover Dore Strauch, and what happened on the small, desolate island of Floreana shortly after their arrival. Arriving to a deserted and barren island, the pair quickly became internationally known as "the modern day Adam and Eve". They were enjoying their privacy until two unwanted parties arrived: the Wittmers, a...
2024-08-011h 19That's So Fcked UpTSFU: Ep. 157 - Love or Control: The Dark Truth of Netflix's "Tell Them You Love Me"DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE A RATING AND REVIEW ON APPLE OR A RATING ON SPOTIFY FOR ASH'S BIRTHDAY! 😍🥳Today Ash tells Fallon all about the Netflix documentary "Tell Them You Love Me." If you haven't seen it yet, the documentary tells the controversial story of Anna Stubblefield, a white university professor, and Derrick Johnson, a disabled, non-verbal black man with cerebral palsy. Anna claims she was able to unlock Derrick and help him communicate using a keyboard. Eventually they wind up in a "consensual sexual relationship," but Derrick's family (who have guardianship) isn't buying it. Wh...
2024-07-191h 07That's So Fcked UpSHARK MONTH: Left at Sea- Tom and Eileen Lonergan, the True Story Behind "Open Water"DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE A RATING AND REVIEW ON APPLE OR A RATING ON SPOTIFY FOR ASH'S BIRTHDAY! 😍🥳🫶Happy Shark Week! This week Ash and former co-host Michelle talk about two poor souls, Tom and Eileen Lonergan, who were forgotten at sea while scuba diving!Michelle tells Ash about the true story behind the movie Open Water. Tom and Eileen were two young and in love, recent Peace Corps workers, who were just married on their way to start their adventurous new lives. Their first stop was scuba diving on the Great Barrier Reef in Austra...
2024-07-1857 minThat's So Fcked UpSHARK MONTH: The Sinking of the Trashman Yacht and Hundreds of Tiger SharksIT'S SHARK MONTH!! This week Ash and former co-host Michelle talk about the scariest shark attacks that Ashley has ever heard of!Ash tells the story of the 1982 sinking of the Trashman Yacht. As five people headed from Maine to Florida through "hurricane alley", they suddenly got hit by a huge storm. They were stuck at sea for days, with no supplies, surrounded by hundreds of hungry and aggressive tiger sharks. Only two of them made it out of the horrid situation alive. You may remember Ash telling this story in episode 8, back in the day. But don't...
2024-07-1457 minThat's So Fcked UpPRIDE MONTH: Devious Abuse- Competitive Endurance TicklingThis episode originally aired in January 2021 and was episode 38! Awww baby TSFU!Ashley and Cam talk about the dark underbelly of Competitive Endurance Tickling. Jeepers Creepers!In this week's episode, Ashley goes over the origins of Competitive Endurance Tickling, the woman who started it, and the events leading up to the making of Tickled, a critically acclaimed documentary by David Farrier and Dylan Reeve that aired on HBO in 2016. Cam covers the wild events that took place after the airing of the documentary and the confrontation that happened at the LA premier. She also talk...
2024-06-261h 23That's So Fcked UpTSFU: Ep. 154- Murder Mystery in Texas: Dean and Tina ClouseGet ready for this wide ride! This week, Fallon tells Ash about the tragic and bizarre saga of Dean and Tina Clouse.1978, New Smyrna Beach, Florida —Dean (19) and Tina (15) fall madly in love, get hitched, and have a baby. Then, in 1980, their perfect life takes a dark turn when they move to Texas and suddenly vanish. Their decomposed bodies are found near Houston, murdered in cold blood. Cue the mysterious robed women who returns their car, claiming Dean joined their cult—seriously, what?!?! Decades later, in a shocking twist, genealogical detectives find Holly alive and well in Oklahoma in 2...
2024-06-0750 min
Sessions with Sara Cate & AshleyEpisode 39: Compassion for the Process of LoveDisclaimer:This podcast is intended for educational purposes only and is not intended to replace therapeutic services of any kind. Please refer to the list of references if you need support.Before you dive into this episode we have a simple request please like, share, comment, and subscribe! It helps us reach more people with every share and like. We are so glad you are here!Show Notes:Sara Cate + Ashley love love! And in this very open discussion, they talk about...
2024-03-1040 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU: Ep. 145- Lover, Stalker, Killer: A Very Macabre Love TrianglePATRONS GET TSFU EPISODES ON TUESDAYS INSTEAD OF FRIDAYS, AND THIS WEEK YOU CAN GET IN ON THAT ACTION TOO! This story is leading Netflix's Top Ten right now for a damn good reason, this case is BANANAS y'all! We couldn't wait until Friday to tell you about it so we released this week's episode early. Feel the luxury that Patrons do, no waiting for the weekend for these babies!✨If you wanna get your TSFU episodes ad free and on Tuesdays instead of Fridays, check out our Patreon! You get access to over 150 episodes that a...
2024-02-201h 06That's So Fcked UpVALENTINE'S DAY: Love Hurts- Valentine's Day Horror StoriesHappy Valentine's/Hallmark Day, whichever you prefer! Here's our V-Day episode from last year where Ash and former co-host Michelle Mosher were joined by very special guest co-host, comedian Dawn Brody from the podcast HILF: History I'd Like To Fck!This holiday the gals bring you your own tales of dating, romance and love gone wrong. We got a toooon of submissions from Colorado, Denver in particular, so ladies- we are so sorry, and thank you for sharing your horror stories with us! Be safe out there everyone, love hurts.Find Dawn from HILF: History I'd...
2024-02-141h 37That's So Fcked UpPATREON VAULT: TSFU Valentine's Day Horrorsode Throwback- Terrifying Dating Horror Stories from ListenersIt's not a Listenersode, it's just an episode... but really it's our first annual TSFU V-Day Horrorsode! Here's a throwback from V-day 2022, with former co-host Cameron Dexter. Enjoy! Hey gang and Happy belated Valentine's Day, Galentine's Day or Masturbation Day! We hope you were getting showered with affection... or burning down capitalistic buildings, and just generally enjoying that special Hallmark holiday yesterday. This week we have a special twist on a normal Listenersode, today we have dating horror stories from listeners like you!Ash and Cam read stories from Kristine, who met a potential...
2024-02-1425 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU: Ep. 142- Murdered: Wanda Dworecki, a 50¢ Murder for HireThis is the story of a priest of the Congregation of Christ Baptist church in Camden, New Jersey who had his 18 year old daughter murdered for being such a "harlot". Walter Dworecki was a terrible person and unfortunately, no matter what Wanda did, she didn't stand a chance...Special thank you to all of our new Patrons! Thank you for joining our CultFam: Jennifer, Taylor, Stacy, Patricia, Suzy, Elena, Kelly, Alex, Kendra, Danita, Erin, Sierra, Olivia, Misty, Ashley, Selena, Rebecca, Mallory, Hope, Annie, Emily, Sharyn, Jessica and Jenna!✨If you'd like ac...
2024-02-0235 minThat's So Fcked UpTRENDING TOPIC: "The Curious Case of Natalia Grace" Binge or Bust - Ep. 2: For the Love of Money (YouTube Live)“In an explosive confrontation, Natalia demands answers from Michael about why they adopted her. Law enforcement officials involved in the case answer questions about the Barnetts' true motivations behind adopting Natalia.” - AmazonAsh is joined by cult survivor and friend of the podcast, Chauntee Pitts for 4 out of 6 of these episodes! Find the intensely brainy and hilarious Tay on her IG!TW: Extreme child abuse.🚨THIS IS FROM YOUTUBE LIVE AND WILL HAVE SOME AUDIENCE INTERACTION. IT'S ALSO UNEDITED BECAUSE WE'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET GYPSY AND NATALIA'S STORIES TO Y'ALL ASAP!
2024-01-211h 38That's So Fcked UpTRENDING TOPIC: "The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard" Binge or Bust - Ep. 6: I Do. Or Do I?"Less than two weeks before her wedding, cold feet and past loves haunt Gypsy and threaten her impending nuptials. While some family members plead with Gypsy to postpone the wedding, her fiance meets with them and argues otherwise. With the biggest day of her life drawing near, Gypsy faces her greatest fears: does she deserve to be happy, and will she ever find a lasting love?" - LifetimeTW: Extreme child abuse.Watch The Prison Confessions of Gypsy Rose Blanchard on Lifetime!Make sure to subscribe to...
2024-01-1643 minThat's So Fcked UpPATREON VAULT: Interview with Anna LeBaron and Bryce Allred, Ex-members of the LeBaron Group and AUBTHIS IS THE SECOND PART - LISTEN TO THIS AFTER YOU LISTEN TO "INTERVIEW WITH ANNA LEBARON FROM 'DAUGHTERS OF THE CULT'"!Three years ago Ash and Cam sat down with one of Ervil's daughter's Anna, and Bryce Allred, the great-grandson of Rulon Allred, a rival polygamist cult leader, and one of Ervil's victims. They discussed in-depth their individual experiences growing up in the groups that they did, as well as their shared history. There will obviously be a bit of overlapping information because we used quotes from this interview in the last couple of episodes...
2024-01-101h 22That's So Fcked UpTRENDING TOPIC: Gypsy Rose Blanchard Released from Prison🚨GYPSY ROSE BLANCHARD WAS RELEASED FROM CHILLICOTHE CORRECTIONAL CENTER AT 3:30 AM ON THURSDAY 12/28/24! YAY GYPSY! JOIN ASH LIVE TOMORROW, SATURDAY 12/30, AT 11 AM EST FOR AN UPDATE (EVEN IF YOUTUBE ISN'T YOUR JAM, YOU CAN JUST LISTEN... JUST LIKE A PODCAST): https://www.youtube.com/@tsfuthepodcastlive 🚨In April of 2022, on episode 91, Ash and longtime co-host Cam talked about a complex case that had always fascinated and saddened Ashley, the abuse of Gypsy Rose Blanchard and murder of her mother Dee Dee.Ash covered the lifelong abuse of Gypsy Rose by her mother Dee Dee, who had fa...
2023-12-3058 minThat's So Fcked UpTSFU PRESENTS: Nostalgic Nineties- Ep. 3: The Controversial Life of Michael JacksonAs you'll see with Selena next week, this season was unintentionally a season full of girl on girl crime! We had Lewinsky vs Tripp, Harding vs Kerrigan and next week we'll hear about the murder of the "Queen of Tejano Music", Selena Quintanilla, by her jealous fangirl Yolanda Saldívar.This episode is not filled with girl on girl crime though, it's in fact a story of man on boy crime. Starting with Joe Jackson abusing his children into musical perfection with "The Jackson 5", through Michael's abuse of multiple young boys at his Neverland Ranch.**We're t...
2023-12-271h 09That's So Fcked UpHOLIDAY BONUS: A Very Weirdo Pod Fam Holiday SpecialGrab a cup of eggnog, make sure the stockings are hung with care, and maybe keep a vial of Holy Water handy as we’re joined by Stuart, the non-denominational holiday cryptid, who will act as your guide through a slew of holiday-themed podcasts, including: Live, Laugh, Larceny; Ye Olde Crime, Twisted and Uncorked, PNW Haunts & Homicides, and of course, yours truly, That’s So Fucked Up. So sit back, try to relax, and resist your fight or flight instinct for a weirdo pod special like no other.(0:02:26) ‘How the Grinch Stole Jesus’Trevin from Live, Laugh, Larceny...
2023-12-241h 14That's So Fcked UpTRENDING TOPIC: Exposing Reality TV with Nick Thompson from "Love is Blind" S2 (YouTube Live)Join Ash as she chats with Nick Thompson from "Love is Blind" S2 about what really goes on behind the scenes on reality romance shows. Probably on other reality shows too, but that's not what we're talking about. Fallon and Ash released an episode called "Coercion: Romance Reality TV, Culty AF" last week, which is a great prerequisite to this episode!Find Nick on Instagram, check out his foundation Unscripted Cast Advocacy Network and find his podcast anywhere else you listen to podcasts! 📲https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/eyes-wide-open-with-nick-thompson/id1640110814 🩷https...
2023-12-231h 59That's So Fcked UpTRENDING TOPIC: "Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God" Part II (YouTube Live)Remember Amy Carlson? Called herself Mother God and was found deceased wrapped in a sleeping bag and Christmas lights, with her eyes covered in glitter?! Trevin from "Live, Laugh, Larceny" and I went live a couple of weeks ago to talk about the last two episodes of "Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God"."Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God chronicles the life and death of Amy Carlson, also known as Mother God, a self-proclaimed spiritual savior who built a cult through her online manifestos and live-streaming sessions. As Amy's health declined, her followers believed...
2023-12-191h 58That's So Fcked UpTRENDING TOPIC: "Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God" Part I (YouTube Live)Remember Amy Carlson? Called herself Mother God and was found deceased wrapped in a sleeping bag and Christmas lights, with her eyes covered in glitter?! Marilyn Honig from @coffeecultsandcrafts on YouTube and I went live a couple of weeks ago to talk about the first two episodes of "Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God".""Love Has Won: The Cult of Mother God chronicles the life and death of Amy Carlson, also known as Mother God, a self-proclaimed spiritual savior who built a cult through her online manifestos and live-streaming sessions. As Amy's health declined, her followers...
2023-12-191h 39That's So Fcked UpTSFU: Ep. 138- Coercion: Romance Reality TV, Culty AFIt's raining episodes! Are you a fan of "The Bachelor", a sucker for "Love is Blind" or lover of "90 Day Fiancé"? We're so sorry for presenting this ugly peek behind the curtains, it can really take the fun out of watching this stuff when you know what the actors/subjects/contestants are subjected to. Fallon breaks Ash's heart as she tells her about how the producers pull a lot of strings behind the scenes to get the narrative that they want. They manipulate people and use culty tactics on the reality stars to present the story that they t...
2023-12-1559 min