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Shared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastA Deputy’s Journey Through Fitness, Trauma, And Faith*****EXPLICIT LANGUAGE*****What if the tools that once kept you sane start making the noise louder? Gilbert’s story begins with teenage coaching sessions and Marine Corps discipline, then moves into six years as a deputy where fitness and grit felt like enough; until they weren’t. He talks about learning the job under pressure, trying to be the kind of cop he didn’t meet as a kid, and why the post-2020 climate turned good police work into a political minefield. The honesty lands hard: you can do everything right and still carry a weight your body c...
2026-03-1048 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastMovement As MedicineWhat if the fastest way to quiet a racing mind starts with a slow walk? Our own journeys from duty-focused fitness to recovery-focused movement highlight a simple truth: when the goal shifts from performance to regulation, exercise becomes more sustainable and more helpful.We talk about redefining fitness after law enforcement, when strength once felt like armor and speed felt like survival. We share stories about injuries, overtraining, and the post-achievement crash that hits after big races or PRs. The fix isn’t another extreme plan; it’s flexibility, grace, and small, repeatable wins that stabilize your week...
2026-02-2424 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFrom Survival to Partnership: Breanna's Story Part 2From the moment the phone rang to a crowded ER stacked with pizza boxes and uniforms, we walk through the shock, the community response, and the hard, slow road that followed. Breanna shares the realities many first responder families face.We talk about what happens after the headlines fade—months of recovery, returning to duty, and ride-alongs that reopened wounds with a child death call and an armed domestic. When the job no longer fit, retirement arrived sooner than planned. At home, stress rewired their marriage: resentment, overwork, and a sense of living on two separate trains. Br...
2026-02-1047 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFrom Party Nights To Purpose: Faith, Sobriety, And Starting OverThe story starts with a simple truth: substances feel like solutions when your identity is shaky and your heart is hurting. Jake opens up about finding alcohol in middle school, wearing the “party guy” mask to fit in, and living a double life as an athlete whose status hid deeper fractures. When college stripped away the sports identity, the spiral accelerated. A minor but piercing moment—getting fired from a part-time job—triggered a deeper look. AA offered structure, but six months of white-knuckling sobriety proved that behavior change without heart change doesn’t last.Everything shifted with a hes...
2026-01-2722 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastLIVE PODCAST EVENT!What if a first responder never had to weather the storm alone? We kick off season four with a live conversation that looks honestly at burnout, isolation, and the stress of the job.We share how our EQUIP program now reaches recruits across police, fire, EMS, and dispatch, giving new classes the mental, spiritual, and relational tools we wish we had. We expand equine assisted therapy through partners like Godspeed Equine, and we clarify why “volunteers” and “ambassadors” are different: ambassadors are peers with lived experience who answer the call, sit in the chaos, and guide toward help wit...
2026-01-1656 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastIt's Okay To Not Feel OkaySome mornings don’t start with motivation—they start with weight. We open the mic on a day that felt crooked and talk honestly about PTSD flare-ups, addiction recovery, and why a single siren can pull old symptoms back. Instead of hiding the hard parts, we map them: the difference between being tired and being empty, how to choose the right kind of rest, and what it takes to refill when your compassion tank runs dry. Along the way, we share stories from Bible study with recruits, nature walks that quiet the noise, and small choices that turn pain into...
2026-01-1332 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastA Daughter's Story From Dakota BrownA room full of uniforms. A visitation line where strangers know stories you’ve never heard. Dakota takes us into the disorienting days after her dad's suicide ,a state trooper, and the long, uneven path that followed. We walk through the crowded rituals of grief and the quiet that follows. Dakota shares how plans to fight wildfires collapsed under the weight of mental health, and how she found new footing through the discipline of taxidermy, the challenge of falconry, and the living history of World War II reenacting. Along the way, horses become a steady mirror: they test...
2025-12-3050 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFrom Heartbreak To Healing: Lindy Brown's Story (Part 2)A quiet ranch, a heavy truth, and a voice brave enough to carry both. Lindy returns to share the story of her husband Jeff—a state trooper, a protector, and a man undone by untreated PTSD—and how a culture of silence can turn pain into catastrophe. We walk through the slow burn of cumulative trauma: first-on-scene moments that never leave, sleep that never restores, and the fear that asking for help will cost a badge. The conversation is raw but guided by purpose: surface the signs, remove the shame, and make room for action.Lindy recounts the...
2025-12-1656 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFrom Heartbreak To Healing: Lindy Brown's Story (Part 1)Bright skies at the ranch set a sharp contrast to the truth we explore with guest Lindy Brown: the weight a first responder carries doesn’t stay at work. Lindy is the widow of an Iowa State Trooper who died by suicide. She shares why she felt called to speak, how a five-year slow burn of trauma changed her husband, and what families see long before reports or discipline ever show up. We talk openly about the nights that never end, the way alcohol masks pain, and the moment a prom night scuffle became a desperate signal that no on...
2025-12-0237 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastThe Weight We Carry - A Spouse's Story With BreannaThe laughter at the ranch fades when Breanna opens up about loving a first responder through an officer-involved shooting, postpartum turbulence, and the quiet exhaustion of being everyone’s caretaker. She didn’t grow up in the culture, but working in a jail gave her a front-row seat to stress. What she didn’t expect was how much of that stress would follow her home, how isolating the spouse role can be, and how quickly compassion can run dry when you never get to decompress.We walked through the day, and everything changed. Breanna explains why healing isn’t...
2025-11-1824 min
Shared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastInside ILEA: Women Leading, Training, And Changing The CultureThe most honest conversations about culture don’t start with policy; they start with people. Assistant Director Sherry Poole and instructors Brooke McPherson and Naimah Saadiq invite us inside the Iowa Law Enforcement Academy to talk about what it really takes for women to thrive in a profession that’s been male‑dominated for decades. From day‑one nerves to front‑of‑room leadership, they share how visibility, mentorship, and clear boundaries change the learning environment and, ultimately, the way officers show up for their communities.Sherry traces the distance from 1987, when being a woman at the academy felt...
2025-11-0437 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastMoney, Mental Health, and the BadgeThe patrol car might be quiet, but your brain isn’t—bills, overtime slots, and that sinking feeling when the card declines. We went back inside the Academy to sit with finance officer Jack Heuton and get honest about money, mental health, and the hidden costs of “I’ll just pick up more shifts.” This is a conversation about readiness that starts at home: when your base needs are secure, training lands better, sleep runs deeper, and relationships stop fraying at the edges.Jack breaks down a practical, three-prong plan that works in real life: understand and manage you...
2025-10-2135 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastA healthy beginning- Inside the Iowa Law Enforcement AcademyWhat does it really take to turn a class of recruits into grounded, ethical, and resilient officers in just 16 weeks? We go inside the Iowa Law Enforcement Academy with Director Brady Carney, Chaplain Al Perez, and Attorney Kristi Traynor to unpack the systems, choices, and human stories that shape a residential academy’s culture. The conversation begins with agile leadership—how the team runs on 16-week cycles, listens to instructors, and pivots quickly. That iterative approach blends national standards with local realities across urban and rural departments, ensuring training stays current and practical without losing the human touch....
2025-10-1443 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFirst Responder Recovery: The WCPR Path to HealingNestled in the tranquility of Godspeed Ranch, this episode unveils the raw, unfiltered journey of healing among first responders. Three guests—each at different stages of their recovery—share how specialized trauma retreats transformed their lives when traditional therapy couldn't reach their deepest wounds.The conversation centers around the West Coast Post Trauma Retreat (WCPR), a unique program designed specifically for first responders. What makes this approach revolutionary? Cultural competence. As Connor explains, "It's about the only place that you can go and never have to explain the terminology you're using." The clinicians have either served in law...
2025-10-0337 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastBroken Open: A First Responder's Path to WholenessWhat happens when the people we count on to save us need saving themselves? In this raw and powerful conversation, former Marine and police officer Connor Wainscott reveals the hidden battles fought by many first responders – battles that don't end when the uniform comes off.From experiencing childhood sexual abuse at age eight to confronting death regularly as a police officer, Connor's story is one of accumulating trauma that nearly cost him everything. After discovering a murder victim during field training and later being involved in a shooting that lasted just four seconds but changed his life fo...
2025-09-2458 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFirst Responders Find New Hope Through Ketamine Treatment with Amanda SieveKetamine therapy is emerging as a groundbreaking solution for first responders battling PTSD, depression, and anxiety – and who better to guide us through this innovative treatment than someone who truly understands the first responder experience?In this enlightening conversation, we're joined by Amanda Sieve, a physician assistant specializing in ketamine therapy who brings a unique perspective as a fourth-generation first responder herself. Having served ten years on a volunteer fire department while working in emergency medicine, Amanda bridges the worlds of first responder culture and cutting-edge mental health treatment.Amanda breaks down how ketamine works di...
2025-09-1946 min
Shared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastSpiritual Sobriety: Finding Identity Beyond the Bottle. Mark A. Cain, Director of Spiritual Sobriety,licensed minister, author, and recovery coachWhat if addiction isn't who you are, but merely what's distracting you from your true purpose? In this transformative conversation, Mark Cain shares his powerful journey from the depths of alcoholism—including a life-threatening withdrawal seizure—to founding Spiritual Sobriety and authoring "Letters from Hope: Freedom from Addiction."Mark's approach shatters traditional recovery paradigms by rejecting permanent labels like "alcoholic" that keep people trapped in shame-based identities. Instead, he offers a healing pathway centered on reclaiming our true identity as children of God. "We don't need to be fixed, we need to be found," Mark explains, capturing the...
2025-09-0140 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastWearing all the hats -1st Responder, Wife of 1st responder, and Mom with Jess Machado partThe mental health landscape for first responders reveals a stark coastal-interior divide. While California boasts specialized treatment facilities and innovative approaches, Midwest officers often travel cross-country seeking the same level of care. This reality frames our candid conversation with law enforcement professionals from both regions who share their personal healing journeys.EMDR therapy emerges as a powerful tool in the first responder mental health toolkit. Our California-based guest describes her initial skepticism—"I'm going to hold these little pad things and they're going to vibrate?"—before experiencing profound breakthrough moments processing her field training officer's suicide and othe...
2025-08-2635 min
Shared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastWhen trauma keeps coming. A community in healing with Jess MachadoThe silent epidemic ravaging our first responder community takes center stage in this raw, unfiltered conversation with Jess, an 18-year law enforcement veteran from California. Her story unfolds against a backdrop of unimaginable loss – five officer suicides in her jurisdiction within a devastatingly short timeframe, including colleagues she worked with daily. Despite California's relative wealth of resources for first responder mental health, the deadly stigma surrounding help-seeking remains deeply entrenched.What makes this conversation uniquely powerful is Jess's perspective as a female officer navigating the male-dominated world of law enforcement. She articulates the distinct challenges women face in...
2025-08-2145 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastThe Healing Journey: From Suicidal Cop to Trauma CoachThe journey from trauma to healing isn't linear, especially for those who've served in uniform. In this deeply personal conversation, former law enforcement officer Jake reveals his harrowing battle with PTSD and the innovative path that led to his recovery.After years of accumulated trauma in policing, Jake found himself trapped in a nightmare of panic attacks, sensory overload, and suicidal thoughts. Despite outward success in his new real estate career, he was silently crumbling behind closed doors—unable to enjoy family moments, startled by everyday sounds, and living in constant fear of losing control. His raw de...
2025-08-1547 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastFrom Officer of the Year to PTSD Survivor: Jake Belay Journey Part 1What happens when the weight of the badge becomes too much to bear? Jake Belay's story captures the harrowing journey from decorated officer to PTSD survivor, revealing the often-hidden psychological toll of law enforcement service.Jake never imagined himself becoming a police officer. Growing up in Decorah, Iowa, his path to law enforcement was unexpected – from studying psychology to working with troubled youth, he eventually found himself drawn to police work after witnessing an officer's compassionate handling of a juvenile dispute. Within just three years of joining the Iowa City Police Department, Jake was named Officer of th...
2025-08-1443 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastMindset Mastery for First Responders (Neil Part 2)Dan and Neil discuss how small, consistent decisions propel dreams forward and reveal strategies for first responders to discover purpose beyond their service careers.• Finding new purpose after law enforcement involves utilizing skills built during your first responder career• God's calling often feels impossibly big because it's meant to be something you can't accomplish without Him• When facing new challenges, break them down into "micro actions" small enough to slip past mental resistance • We have approximately 60,000 thoughts daily—80% negative and 95% repetitive—requiring intentional awareness to change• The Japanese technique "pointing and calling" helps break autopilot...
2025-08-0445 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastThe Tiny Habits That Changed Everything. Neil Part 1When first responders hang up their badges, many face a devastating identity crisis that can lead to depression, addiction, and even suicidal thoughts. But what if the uniform was never your true identity in the first place?In this powerful conversation, former NYPD officer and FDNY firefighter Neil shares his personal journey through the wilderness of post-service life and the breakthrough realization that transformed everything: "My true identity wasn't a cop or fireman. My core identity was I'm a person that helps other people."Neil reveals how this shift in perspective opened doors to new...
2025-07-3139 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastPart 2 with Pam and Mike Morrison-First Responders Finding Peace: The Haymarket Center JourneyThe path to healing often begins when we realize we're not alone in our struggles. In this powerful conversation with Mike and Pam, we explore the life-changing impact of trauma retreats specifically designed for first responders at the Haymarket Center in Chicago. What makes these retreats transformative isn't just the professional support—it's the moment when a room full of hurting people recognize their shared experiences. As Pam beautifully explains, "Everybody who shows up tells their monster... and listening to all these hurt people, just admiring what they do." That vulnerable sharing creates immediate bonds that transcend bac...
2025-06-0442 minShared Voice by 10-42 Project, A First Responder PodcastPart 1 of 2- From Trauma to Healing: How Two First Responders Reclaimed Their JoyWhat happens when the people we count on to save us are themselves drowning in trauma? Mike and Pam Morrison offer a lifeline through their powerful story of survival, healing, and redemption.After 28 years in law enforcement, Mike Morrison knows the weight of trauma first-hand. From his early days as a dispatcher and jail officer to his later roles as detective, sergeant, and lieutenant, each traumatic experience slowly transformed him. His wife Pam brings an equally profound perspective as a former RN, death investigator, and forensic autopsy technician who served with DMORT at mass fatality incidents like...
2025-05-2642 min